
April 27,1999
God I'm tired. I've been up all night, and I'm just now sitting down to do a little writing. It's about 6 in the morning and, I think that I'll go to bed after this. The Rennaisance Festival starts in two weeks, thus this weekend will be the last practice. I'm actually looking forward to this year, I think it'll be alot of fun.
As far as a romance life... Well I still don't have one. I jokingly said to a buddy that it would just be easier if I was gay. And I really think it would be now that I think about it. Damn shame that I'm straight.
Oh well, I may someday find the right one for me... Or I may just be alone forever, just one way to find out. I really want someone who is willing and able to love me as much as I will love them. And unfortunitaly I can't seem to find someone willing to give that kind of a complete comittment. Ya know, it would be a hell of a lot easier if I was just in it for sex, then I would at least be happy. No don't get me wrong, I love sex, but I want there to be something more to go with it. Am I so wrong for wanting that?
Hell I'll just give up for now. It's late, or early, depending on how you look at it. And I have to go to work tomorrow. Fuck it, I'm going to bed.