psychotic episode insane & crazy after 4 quarts of t-bird and 18 dime beers at the hickam beer garden i went on a rant smashed my way across the parking lot with fire extinguisher liberated from a barracks burglarized smashed cars terrorized everybody in the hawaiian night into the main terminal so much fun bashing things & shooting bird colonels with the icy spray from ray gun until the loads of APs came cornered me in a broom closet held out like custer until ammo expended & then crash aswarm under a sea of blue uniforms beaten & stomped to a pulp taken to the provost marshal big dude sitting behind his podium and figured to make a new doorway ran into the wall & buried head to the shoulders in drywall beaten stomped & bound to a litter taken to the dispensary faked unconsciousness to get some slack in the restraints & then tried to choke the asiatic doctor who bent to see if alive or dead more beating & loaded in the meatwagon taken to little tripler neuropsychiatric sadistic escort twisting leg on the way but i smile & say you puny weak motherfucker can't you even break it at the nuthouse tossed into a room told to change into PJs & cloth shoes & did so then noticed glass door leading to outside found it was not locked freedom on the parking lot but no keys in the cars to escape in reality headed across road clad in my nuthouse duds up the hill to military housing unit on hill light on porch in back ease up hear footsteps & slip back into shadows attractive young woman in slip comes onto porch and begins putting childrens toys in a box slip back up to screen make worst battle face and scream smashing screen frame & she flees screaming JEFF JEFF JEFF at the top of her lungs & run and dive in ditch on slope behind building & soon light around corner flashlight held beneath pistol as jeff scans yard for intruder maniac see light arcing in sweep that will reveal position there face down in the weeds bury face and feel more than see the light pass over jeff no doubt fearful looking out corner of eye for surprise attack & misses nutcase in weeds then the roar of two big canvas back truck offload platoon of armed men they fan out and start up rise with weapons at the ready fear sudden swarm of lead bees from hinky searchers for psycho jump up suddenly clasp hand on head & yell surrender loudly in the lilac hawaii night aswarm again down under gun butts and boots although offer no resistance beaten to pulp finally merciful darkness awoke three days later in white room strapped to baby bed affair drips running in arm think is this heaven or hell black orderly in starchy white uniform comes i ask where am i & he says man don't you remember what you did you're in a world of shit shrink later told me impossible to survive with blood alcohol but somehow did by miracle as it turned out world of shit not too heavy it was laid to a psychotic episode brought on by too much juice was eventually sent back to duty station to help keep america free & safe from all enemies including lunatics & crazy people