Please help me with your prayer. Try to get this ONe called Jesus to lay off of me, and let me serve him and die and have my reward with out all this going on.-1-30-2007-I can add to this everyday, but. I had a dream and in it I said something like, I went to hell. Im laughing as I put this on. I wonder if God wants me to stay out of hell or not. -I guess im not humble in the eyes of God unless Im wanting to backslide, or not angry at the LOrd, or wanting to walk away-Gods explanation--I will drive you all the way to the gates of insanity to keep you humble in my eyes saith the LOrd, and youare not lifted up, but, this is what I do, to keep, people, humble in my eyes--- I was walking, and I saw Jesus in visions, and he like a mafia character was saying in a threatening manner things like, "git away frrom me", --this is the kind of bullshit I have to put up with everyday, all day just about-God angering me, teasing me, casting me out in heart, stripping my desire to live for him away, threatening to make my family collapse, death, hospital, etc. The only reason to serve Jesus is to stay out of hell, and it does not appear many will do that, cause if you read the apostle pauls letters, My guess is lots went thru, this junk, the depths of satan, killed all day long, cast into a prison of sata, persecution. Timothy mcviegh said something like, if I go to hell, ill have a lot of company. I hope your walk with the LOrd is better------explanation-I wan ted you to get angry and walk away says the LOrd, and, if I miss you, Ill call you back, thats, killing all day, by,teasing, and, gum desease, and, JEsus, showed, to, record, God said, its humble in my eyes, if, my servant wants to backslide all day, everyday, cause I, force, him, out, by, teasing, fiery darts, when teeth are gone, he despises me, bob wont loose any, and knows it, cause, time is, short, but, would have, and, he, laughs, and, thinks, gum grafts, I, know you heart said, JEsus, how to throw you in a rage, and, do, that, little 21 year old girl, I, would have, taken, her teeth to make her walk away, and, right before, she did, I would have said, comn back, I, will and would have, done it, all over, again, killing all day, like, this, shut up said, Jesus, prophet ministryofdreams, you are, mocking me, in your heart, laughing, while im destroying, thinking, how could God, play a game like this, God says, you need to make a fool out of me before I back off, and, you, take the cake for that, right on the information highway, shut up, says, the LOrd, dont, sing my songs likealice cooper, praise the Lord, said, Jesus, praise the Lord, said, alice cooper, how are ya, no, said, Jesus, were not friends, you are, running, ---now LOrd, let me ask you this question in front of the whole world-are you really serious about not wanting people to perish but have everlasting life? Youve been hitting me like this for well over a year now. What in the world is your problem. Answer the people that read this. bob of MINISTRY of DREAMS! I saw Jesus in visions and he put me right in hell. I can only laugh, and think, you need to want me to stay out of hell-lest God called me to do this project for him, and like he said after teasing me the first time I remember, and in this vision, I saw him in like picture frames one at a time, and he said something like, "I dont need you no more". That means, forsake, youth, sin, houses, family, all, suffer big time, an!d then, get tossed in the trash when finally worn down, and that is wh at is going on, or, stand in front of God, and he say something like, bob, you were suppost to endure untill the end, and I would probably just laugh in my heart thinking, yeah, right. My question: what do you want Lord? the LOrds answer: leave, or be, casted out, daily, like the apostle paul, and if I miss you, I will, call you back, with no persecution, because your labor of love saith the LOrd, this is how, I treat, my children, all the time, young and old. I remember this old woman. She told me the pope was going to be the anti Christ. Her gums were gone I believe and she told me that God told her that she would not loose a tooth. She was miserable. Always wanting to quit. I guess, this meets the condition of humble in Gods eyes. I remember seeing in visions things like, my sister saying to me something like, dang, bobbys just like us, and the words, abated, and that means, brouht to nothing, collapsed, teased. This was when I was on fire, and everything seemed ok, now, I get resisted all day, with gumdesease and recession. Who can be saved? God says, I scored a knock out, just now, I want you to backslide, and walk away, and not sin, till I miss you, and wait, and if I need you, I will, call you back, this, is, what, I do, this is how, I keep my children humble. No, said, Jesus, this is, gone to far, I appologize, I made you backslide, in heart, and I, will, back off, start, recovering, and then I will, cast you out again, no, said, hollie, why, to keep you humble. Thrown out, said, hollie, wait, dont, but, this is what, I do, saith, Jesus, I want you, despaired, all the time, to make, you humble, this is, humble to me, depair, not knowing, if you be allowed, or not, to stay, that is, humble, in, the LOrds, eyes, saith, Jesus, 2 CORNITHIANS 8 For we would not, brethren, have you ignorant of our trouble which came to us in Asia, that we were pressed out of measure, above strength, insomuch that we despaired even of life: I read this and I go thru it everyday, and I just cant imagine why the Lord is like this.Im like a target of punishment of his. Cause and or allow my gums to recede and anger me, and try all day and night to peirce my heart, which means, throw me in a rage. THis is now my walk all day, everyday. JOB 7:14 then thou scarest me with dreams, and terrifiest me through visions: This goes on all night, and even though I love the visions. It seems like the main goal here is to anger me with each one and make me so angry, that my heart is pierced, which is rage beyond what you can bear. It saddens me to try to think on this or imagine why, but It seems that Jesus wants me to hate him all day, and exist in a condition, that all I want to do is backslide and walk away. If time went on, Im sure my teeth would be gone, but I would most likely have gum grafts, and save them, and Im sure God would get those, lest he throw me away for having them. I should take his tithes and get those grafts since. I would ask God about things inthe bible, but it seems to me that it was Jesus that wanted me to go into REVELATION. He said something like, do you want to go into REVELATION. Im not sure of my answer, but, for going at his suggestion, Im tossed out all day, and pursued till Im tossed out, and God knows how, and this is killed all day. that is what that means, like paul. Jesus would remind me that he gave his life, and would show me the hole in his hand, but, it was an easy out to me. They took and crucified. About 3 days give or take. Id take the out Jesus had over this. The Lords answer: now heres what I did, I made you quit, and will, keep tossing you out till you leave or stay, but, if you stay, you will be tortured by me and satan, with what I allowed him to do to you, this is why, to keep you, humble, and you are, but, I want you, depaired, and, weepy, all the time, beyond, humble is what I want, now, stay, or, leave. Jesus-God said, you said, you would not comit sin, and now that, im against,you, for saying, that, by accident, im going to make you comitt, sin, and then, take, out, all of, your sins, out of, the , sea, of, forgetfullness, and then, make you, stay in prision, for, saying, that, saith, Jesus,--its now lots of times miserable living for Jesus, like a gold fish swimming in an aquarium filled with barracudas, hoping that one does not strike, but, then, they do, and do again, and again, and again, and finally, dead. if that is what the LOrd wants to do to me for giving him all that I gave, I can not stop. Ive been told that something like, I want to make an example out of you(and more words)ok Jesus, go ahead and throw me in the fire. If that is what you, want. That is my reward, for giving all I gave, and i did what he wanted for the most part and exceeded I beleive. Go ahead Jesus, put me in the fire, put me there quick Lord, make me hell. THne look in the mirror and laugh at my calamity, and ask yourself one question, why did you really do that? I see Jesus in visions and he says things like, abase, backslide, now stop hanging around. God let me know that namy of you will leave ministry of dreams after reading this, but, this is what paul went thru of some of, and Im asking you to pray for me. read with caution.
