




The
very first time I saw you,
Was special how we met.
You took me by complete surprise.
I knew my heart was set.
As days flew by, we talked again,
But you never seemed to care.
I tried my best to help you out,
By a favor here, or a favor there.
Although I made a fast approach,
Our friendship grew and grew.
I realized how deep I cared,
But the feeling I felt was new.
In time I became attached to you.
From a hug, I wouldn't let go.
I soon saw how close we were,
And the feeling was good to know.
For you, I wrote sweet letters and songs.
You were on my mind all day.
The thought of sleeping was nowhere near,
Unless I knew you were okay.
It hit me then, what I was in
A unique and precious love.
For the person I said was only mine,
Was an angel sent from above.
The minutes without you turned into days,
And the seconds with you flew fast.
I could only wish to see you more,
And make each moment last.
The times I spent with you,
Were what made my heart complete.
I knew one thing for sure,
Without you, my future was obsolete.
And now, we love just the same,
As it doubles day by day.
I stare deep into your precious eyes,
Yet I'm still speechless to what I should say.
With you, I'm in a whole new world.
You bring out the best in me.
It's hard to picture you not there,
When you taught me who to be.
Yes, the road ahead gets hard,
When things may only seem rough.
But because you and I try so much,
We'll stay strong and get by tough.
Though problems may lie ahead someday,
And either of us could be right;
I promise to always be by your side,
And I promise my heart, so hold it tight.
And so, each night, beside my bed,
When there's only bright stars to see,
I pray that we may never give up,
And will always remain you and me.

Shall I run or hide
And die inside
Or pretend
That I never knew you, even as a friend?
Can I go back in time,
Before your hand was in mine,
Or erase the kiss,
That I will forever miss,
Or forget your eyes
That seem to hypnotize?
Can my mind erase
The feel of your embrace?
How can I forget all of this
And pretend it doesn't exist?
I want you to know one thing that will never end
my love for you. I love you, my friend

I still see your face in my dreams
It hurts and it doesn't help at all
I still want you in my life as crazy as that seems
I want you to catch me when I fall
I still remember the first time we met
There was something so different about you
Your friendship was something I wanted to get
That smile when you said hi to me was so new
Out of no where you called me on the phone
I wanted to sit there and talk to you forever
You were so new, so crazy and unknown
I just knew that our friendship would never sever
13 years and we are barely holding it together
What happened to the way this all used to be
I never wanted you out of my like ever
I sat there for a long time pretending not to see
We decided to go out and make it all right
It didn't work out of course we knew it couldn't
We couldn't even really stand each others sight
It shouldn't end this way but it did and I shouldn't
I miss you and everything you were to me
Ten years from now we will look back on it all
We will be older and finally be able to see
That love will stand the test of time and never fall

I came to you the hour I was in pain
Looking for answers, I cried to you in vain.
I shared the many skeletons hiding in my heart,
I knew then you'd be my friend,
I knew it from the start.
Troubles ran like rivers, flowing through my life,
You picked the pieces up and help me through my strife.
When home wasn't home to me no more,
You opened up your heart, and opened up the door.
We cried into night until the early morn.
We solaced each other's pain and shared our many thorns.
As time flew, the air grew thick,
I saw our friendship fading, and my heart grew sick.
The day had arrived,
When it was time to say goodbye.
Now I sit alone,
reminiscing the past I'd blown.

Another day is passing
And still there is no word
On how your life is going
And who is in your world
I pray you will consider
These words I write to you
I liked you in my life
Yet maybe now it's through
I don't want to see
our relationship come to an end
And I don't want to find
our lives standing still
We are moving towards the end
And we really ought to wait
Because God planted something special
Deep within our hearts
I know your life is hectic
You are busy all day through
My life is busy also
But I still think of you
I want to send my love
And remind you of these things
Just so you will know
You mean so much to me

Why did we cross the line?
Everything would be fine
One moment of pleasure
For all this pain
Can you tell me now what did we gain?
Everything would be OK -
Normal as it was
But no we had to go to far
We had to cross that line
I would never turn back time,
For every moment I learn.
It's just things are so different now -
Things between you and me.
Why didn't I open my eyes?
Why didn't I only see
That what we were accomplishing
Would be the end to you and me?

I never thought I'd see this day,
I never thought I'd feel this way,
You...a stranger to me now.
I'm left with emptiness
I wish I knew how it could be,
That we were once so open and free.
You were like my brother yet so much more
I wish I would have seen what I see now before.
For, I did not and it's too late
My friend is now unknown.
And what hurts the most is I now know
What I lost and I'm alone.
To face a challenge life has sent,
And not a moment with you I've spent.
I hope one day I can forgive you, my friend
I miss you bro.
Why did you go?

You
don't know how I'm feeling.
I have yet to vocalize
Desire deep inside me.
Can you see it in my eyes?
I tremble when I'm near you
Heat travels up my thighs
and I want you with an urgency
That I just can't describe.
Dare I reach out to touch you?
Do you think you'd realize
How much I want and need you?
Can you see it in my eyes?
I long to say, "I love you,"
But am scared of your reply.
Terrified like a child
I've become paralyzed.
The camouflaged emotions
Lead to pain and silent cries.
And yet I just can't tell you.
Don't you see it in my eyes?
Confessing through this poem
My dilemma summarized.
The feeling's quite cathartic,
But will lead to my demise.

I saw you once in a far
off dream, you were laughing
across a little silver stream,
Oh, I remember it well,
my heart so swelled,
In love so fast I never fell,
It was amazing that look in
your eye, a blue more deep
than the fading sky,
A waterfall? No, it couldn't
be, but your hair flowing in
the autumn breeze, a deep
gold with silver streaks
lighting the sun
and mountain's peaks.
But have you ever seen across
that stream, brown and drab
and never green?
I gaze into your evergreen,
alive with color at every seam,
Could you ever cross that silver
stream, and light the path
that grants my dream?
Or shall I sit here in this
dark of night and gaze into
your world of light?
Or shall I go across and
fight the stream, that keeps
me from my beloved dream?
What say ye 'O lord of fate?
Shall I dwell here
in this lonely state?
But wait! Do angels play with
me? Laugh and mock and suffer
me? Or did a dream invade my
dreams it seems? Did you
really cross that silver stream?
Do I hear the sounds of
splashing toes against the
drop of rains and bows,
Or do I hear the sounds
of bells abound, to and fro
and all around?
I hear the bell, I hear it's
ring, the morning rays it
starts to bring.
I awake and hold my pillow
tight, afraid to find that
lonely sight.
But wait! What do I hear?
The sound of splashing close
and near?
I jump from sheets of salty
sweat, to the window sill
I bound and leapt!
I gazed upon an ageless sight,
my dream of dreams came through
the night!
I let from off that lonesome
sill and ran against a grassy hill,
I saw you once - In a far off Dream

With pride in
my heart, once filled with sorrow
I think of the past, but look for tomorrow.
With spirit in my stride, I walk with my head held high
For the past
is the past, I have nothing to hide.
Moving on and letting go is hard to do,
We learn from the past
,from
mistakes made in vain.
We apply what
we learn, and seek what we gain.
Live for today and dream for the future.
For the past is the past, It's with us forever.
Moving on and letting go, it's hard to do,
Yes I know,
I have been
their so I do know.
Moving on is a must, so let the past go
And in the future put your trust.

An echo fades into the night,
an eerie mournful sound.
A shooting star disappears from sight,
and I crumble to the ground.
There is no life within this garden;
my sobs are the only sound.
I have poisoned the honeyed fountain
where your love could be found.
Dazed, I stare at the stars
above,
my grieving howls fill the night!
Unintended betrayal of love
has hidden you from my sight.
I remember how it used to be
when we shared our fears and delights.
You are a treasured friend to me.
How can I make things right?
Feeling afraid, cold and
lonely,
I long to tell you how I feel,
but you don’t want to hear me.
The pain for you is much too real.
Should I back away and build a wall
and block away how I feel?
Or, should I give you a call?
We both need some time to heal.
An echo fades into the night
as our friendship disappears.
How do I know what is right?
How can I ease my fears?
If I do call you again,
would the old wounds reappear?
I can’t stand to cause you pain.
Hurting you again is my worst fear!

