it's a cold nite...been rainig since evening...i like it when its raining...it pulls my memory back few yrs ago...i've been wondering if i ever have changed a minor decision that i've made before...wut are the results today...in the present..ermmm...still dun get wut i meant?
ok ...let say if i accept the offer to study abroad taking economics...whut would my life be now?am i appy with it or regretting it every second that it takes to breath?and then i realized human knowledge is limited..we could not predict ...presume may be...but have no rite to a prediction..
and wut if i were to be born in another family?am i happier or not...i love my present family...they are like an eternal gift for me...but still i dun get it...when they are around i feel like i wanna get them outta my sight ...but whenever they are not wth me...i feel like i've lost my soul..
especially mom...i love her more than any other things in this world but then at the same time i feel like i wanna have some sort of option..which i could choose my own mother..but i knew if i were to be given the choice...i'll choose her...no doubt..
may be we need some space to mend our relationship..yeah...distance makes existence appreciated...erm...gr8 quotation...who says that? hihih i did..ok...
think i'm gonna stop ere...wanna rite many things ,everythings...but let it happen gradually...or else i'll have no idea for the next writing...