They Were Hazel
I remember my first real crush.
He looked liked Kurt Cameron. He had these incredible hazel eyes when I stood up from orientation. I had never seen eyes so magnetic.
He smiled and said hello to me. I'm telling you it was wonderful. I was 14. I liked that same guy for 4 years.

Oddly enough I think the way he treated me while I attended school their totally molded my idea husband. He was what you call incredibly sweet. He would buy me lunch, get stuff for me, talk to me and so forth. Then he had ideas about his future, about working, having a family, and an amazing desire to attend this Christian college.

I guess I came to expect that I would marry a good looking hard working guy who is generous, loving, fun and loves Christ.

I remember this one day I was walking back to class and he was in the chapel playing the below song on the piano. I felt something when he played that song, something so close to heaven.

As the deer panteth for the water
So my soul longs after Thee.

You alone are my heart's desire
And I long to worship Thee.

You alone are my strength, my shield,
To You alone may my spirit yield.

You alone are my heart's desire
And I long to worship Thee.

As the deer panteth after the water brooks,
so panteth my soul after thee, O God.