I feel bad for not updating here more often. I know, I suck. I somehow can't seem to stick to something for a long time. Like online journals.

I hate knowing that I've left these people that have comforted me, given me much needed advice and much, much support.

I know no one will probably see this. It's a long shot. But I hope at least you guys will know that I'm so grateful. :)

So many people have given me advice to open up to my friends, my family or to at least someone (cos I don't). But I was born stubborn - I don't know who I got that from, I don't hate you or anything - and I can't make myself do something that I have no confidence in or do something that I will have to go out of my comfort zone to get done.

If I wasn't me. I'd probably hate my guts right now. And I do. Even when I am myself.

I'm going to try and enjoy the remaining days of the Summer holidays. Cos I dunno. I should I guess.