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ShotDownAStar: are you really moving to chicago?
MOOsaidTheKitten: yes! that is my biggest hope
MOOsaidTheKitten
: though i have no goals in mind when i get there...so i don't know
ShotDownAStar
: its not set in stone yet? why do you want to move there?
ShotDownAStar: are you not planning on going to law school anymore?
MOOsaidTheKitten: i just need to get away from l.a. for awhile...and i have family in chicago so i won't be completely alone
MOOsaidTheKitten
: i don't want to anymore, no :-(
ShotDownAStar: what made you change your mind?
ShotDownAStar: what would you rather do instead?
MOOsaidTheKitten: it's just not what i want to do...i realized that i didn't want to go through with something that i didn't really love
MOOsaidTheKitten
: i have no idea! lol
MOOsaidTheKitten
: i want to fall in love and buy a dog
ShotDownAStar
: i honestly think you would be a great writer
ShotDownAStar: :-) what kind of dog?
MOOsaidTheKitten: ohhh, well i disagree lol...i have nothing to write about except whining
MOOsaidTheKitten
: i don't know...maybe all different kinds of dogs! lol
ShotDownAStar
: sorry. i got booted from the internet.......but you write beautifully. you have a talent, and i bet if you could get past your "whining", then you would probably be a best selling author...
MOOsaidTheKitten: lol oh maybe a long time ago when i had aspirations for earth-shattering insights into humanity...but i like writing just for the sake of writing
MOOsaidTheKitten
: the sake of words the way they sound and look
MOOsaidTheKitten
: but not really what they mean lol
MOOsaidTheKitten
: what about you? what are you doing and what are your plans?
ShotDownAStar
: oh my gosh, i have no idea.... i'm so lost in just being a mom.
ShotDownAStar: i've really lost touch with myself, so i don't even know what i would like to do with myself.
ShotDownAStar: i really don't want to have to go back to work.
MOOsaidTheKitten: well of course...right now is all about your daughter, but as she starts growing older, you must get to know yourself better so that you can show her about HERself
MOOsaidTheKitten
: well do you have to?
MOOsaidTheKitten
: couldn't you be a stay-at-home mother/artist/artsy person?
ShotDownAStar
: i'm going to need to for us to ever progress with our lives. chris doesn't make enough money on his own.
ShotDownAStar: i wish i could. its hard to find inspiration in myself to create, tho. i lack ideas.... and motivation to do them.
MOOsaidTheKitten: would it be possible to work part-time...so you could still have time for isabel and yourself?
MOOsaidTheKitten
: i'm sure it's because you just started being a mom
ShotDownAStar
: i'm really out of practice. i was thinking of getting some licenses and becoming a financial advisor, because if i did that then i could stay at home most of the time, except for meeting up with clients.
MOOsaidTheKitten: then why don't you take some classes?? you could get financial aid, too, i bet, so you wouldn't have to worry about money matters
ShotDownAStar
: i wish you could see her... she's such a little gem. she's starting to smile a lot more.
ShotDownAStar: classes for..... what kind of classes?
ShotDownAStar: i think it would be nice to get my sign language interpreter's license, but i would have to get financial aid for those classes.
MOOsaidTheKitten: like many community colleges have certification programs...like paralegal...financial advisement
ShotDownAStar
: i wish i had just waited to start college.
MOOsaidTheKitten: is she a happy baby?
ShotDownAStar
: brb. little miss is waking up.
MOOsaidTheKitten: k :-)
ShotDownAStar: she is somewhat. she throws a lot of fits. she loves to play.. like standing up and bouncing and whatnot... she's a morning baby... and she hates to sleep
ShotDownAStar: she's very alert.
MOOsaidTheKitten: then it sounds like she has a lot of energy...she's going to be very bright and creative
MOOsaidTheKitten
: responsive to everything around her
ShotDownAStar
: she likes to look at things... i think she might be athletic... and she's very strong willed
MOOsaidTheKitten: hahah! those are the best kinds of babies...a real handful, but always interesting
MOOsaidTheKitten
: and you know that she'll think for herself...since she's already doing it from the crib
ShotDownAStar
: she's definitely a handful, but i really enjoy her.
ShotDownAStar: chris is still adjusting. yeah. i'm really looking forward to her toddler years when she really starts doing her own thing. she's going to be fun to get to know. she talks a lot... grunting and whining and cooing.
ShotDownAStar: if you wanted me to, i could send you some pictures
MOOsaidTheKitten: how many months is she now?
MOOsaidTheKitten
: YES!
ShotDownAStar
: she's only 6 weeks
ShotDownAStar: she's still an itty bitty
MOOsaidTheKitten: oh goodness...and she's already doing all that? you've definitely go a little spitfire
ShotDownAStar
: :-) i think she's a typical redhead
MOOsaidTheKitten: you know what they certification for, that you might enjoy? i think it's called 'dispute resolution'...it's like counseling but not so psychotherapeutic
MOOsaidTheKitten
: she's a redhead???
MOOsaidTheKitten
: awwwwwww!
ShotDownAStar
: she LOVES to stand up.
ShotDownAStar: is that a real job?
ShotDownAStar: yeah.. like strawberry blonde kind of
ShotDownAStar: with dark blue eyes
MOOsaidTheKitten: yes! you work for people with negotiations, mediation, etc.
MOOsaidTheKitten
: please PLEASE send me pictures lol!
ShotDownAStar
: what's your address?
MOOsaidTheKitten: 866 Lachman Lane
Pacific Palisades, CA 90272

ShotDownAStar
: i would love to start keeping in touch with you via regular mail again
ShotDownAStar: is there any time frame for chicago, or is it still a dream?
MOOsaidTheKitten: me too! for some reason it just seems so much more personal...i'm not very much at all for emailing heartfelt letters
MOOsaidTheKitten
: well i graduate in march...after that, i'm just gonna take it as it comes
ShotDownAStar
: i like email for quick fun thoughts
ShotDownAStar: you're already graduating?
MOOsaidTheKitten: yes :-)...i kinda barrelled through all my classes, hoping maybe i would get tolerably through my horrid major...but now it's backfiring on me
MOOsaidTheKitten
: i only have one quarter left, but i've lost all will to finish anything
ShotDownAStar
: what was your major?
MOOsaidTheKitten: english...but there was absolutely no free-thinking or creativity involved...at all
ShotDownAStar
: what was it all about then? just straight up literature?
ShotDownAStar: what do you think you could use that for? (writing writing!!!)
MOOsaidTheKitten: hahahahahah...it was basically listening to stuffy professors expostulate about the themes of things...and then asking us to spit it back up on written exams
MOOsaidTheKitten
: i took one creative writing class...and it was a complete disaster
ShotDownAStar
: why was it such a disaster?
ShotDownAStar: so you didn't have much room to think your own thoughts?
MOOsaidTheKitten: it made me self-conscious of my writing...and contemptuous of the other students who took their writing so tootin' seriously
MOOsaidTheKitten
: no, not muchly no lol
MOOsaidTheKitten
: i'm envious of you because you are so much a part of the REAL WORLD now...not this facade of academia that has no real substance
ShotDownAStar
: sorry. i got kicked off again
ShotDownAStar: what was the last thing you got from me?
MOOsaidTheKitten: darling, i have to go...but i just want to tell you to stop putting pressure on yourself to "be creative"...you don't have to create anything to be creative...just interpreting the little things around you into signficances and beautiful things is being creative
MOOsaidTheKitten
: and i know you are good at that
MOOsaidTheKitten
: lol i don't remember...but i'm gonna save this convo and paste it up onto LJ later
MOOsaidTheKitten
: i'll talk to you later sweetie! *hugzz*
ShotDownAStar
: alright. do you want my address?
MOOsaidTheKitten: yes
ShotDownAStar
: 1005 cherry tree rd, st. augustine, fl 32086
ShotDownAStar: i hope we can talk again soon. take care, okay?
MOOsaidTheKitten: ok got it
MOOsaidTheKitten
: you too dearie