can't believe i didn't see you trapped by me. your ball and chain i will remain until more separates us than this. i left it to you to go to escape from my shadow and walk in the sun once more, rediscover what you missed. i should have made the first move but i needed you to prove that there was nothing there. i watched your pain i let you writhe, and now that you're gone i'll survive as long as i have my anaesthetic. i'm still a useless pathetic apologetic. sorry is what i need to say, i trapped you 'til i'd had my fill, i still don't know how and i probably never will.
