you stuck your big nose in again, your briefcase banging awkwardly against your leg you froze, ignored the dog's uzi yapping, peered over the fence and stopped treading water, fell to earth for the thousandth time, sank on until that night, with smoke unspooling towards the ceiling you forced a smile, failed to convince yourself, and fell unconscious to a car alarm shivering through your head, without making love, dreamt of her instead