Mood:
irritated
I've never been accused of being patient. I've never been able to 'wait quietly' for something. Now is no different from any previous time. I've been waiting for something to happen... a phone call, a visit, an event; anything to change the way my life is going now. Life is becoming more exhausting, decisions more difficult, even breathing has become painful for me.
Don't get me wrong. I love life, I love living, and problems just let you know how alive you are... but at the moment, it doesn't feel like I'm living, I'm still waiting for my life to restart itself, I'm waiting for things to start to feel 'right'. I need to stop waiting, I need to make myself feel right again... but to do that, I have to wait until I have an idea, the timing... I don't know.
Let's wait and see what happens.
--Raye