Megan's listing in the Obituaries as it appears
in the Cincinnati Enquirer:
PHELPS Megan Mae (nee Borgman), devoted mother of Cora and Clare Phelps. Loving daughter of Jack (Donna) Borgman and Gay Widmer,
Granddaughter of Betty (late Frank) Widmer, Virginia (late Ray) Borgman, Ray and Lillian Ehrhardt. Dear sister of Merry Hicks, Veronica
Viera, Jennifer Nally, Ray Borgman and Alek Widmer. Saturday, October 30, 2004, age 27. Memorial service will be held on Saturday,
November 6, 2004 at 12 Noon at Frederick Funeral Home, 2553 Banning Rd. at Pippin. In lieu of flowers, memorials may be made to Putz's
Creamy Whip (c/o 3498 Oakmeadow Lane, Cincinnati 45239) for benefit of Cora and Clare Phelps.
We are deeply sad and hope that Megan is well wherever she may be, her memory will always remain in our hearts.
Farewell Megan
~Rex and Janis~
Every Blade in the Field, every Leaf in the Forest, lays down its Life in its Season as Beautifully as it was taken up. (Thoreau)
You were taken from us too soon, Megan; but you will live on in the lives of all those you touched.
We miss you so much.
Betty & Nikolai
"What the heart has once owned and had, it shall never lose." (Henry Ward Beecher) But it still hurts. I miss the little girl that I used to babysit, and the woman that I talked to about babies and kids. You were beautiful. I will think about you and talk to you every day.
Love, Tracy
I'M THERE INSIDE YOUR HEART
RIGHT NOW I'M IN A DIFFERENT PLACE, AND THOUGH WE SEEM APART, I'M CLOSER
THAN I EVER WAS... I'M THERE INSIDE YOUR HEART
I'M WITH YOU WHEN YOU GREET EACH DAY AND WHILE THE SUN SHINES BRIGHT,
I'M THERE TO SHARE THE SUNSETS, TOO... I'M WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT.
I'M WITH YOU WHEN THE TIMES ARE GOOD TO SHARE A LAUGH OR TWO, AND IF A
TEAR SHOULD START TO FALL... I'LL STILL BE THERE FOR YOU.
AND WHEN THAT DAY ARRIVES THAT WE NO LONGER ARE APART, I'LL SMILE AND
HOLD YOU CLOSE TO ME...
FOREVER IN MY HEART.
Megan, you will always be in my heart. I love you.
Jill
Dearest Megan
You will live on forever in our hearts. I miss you very much. I promise you that I will do everything I can to help your children live a happy life like you wanted them to. I love you Megan. Until we meet again.
Love Joy
Dear, dear Megan
Over the years I've seen you grow from a little girl playing with your cousins to a young spirit filled woman with a beautiful smile. Being part of a large family is a special blessing that is bestowed on all its members. It is that family that shapes us and makes us who we are. During family gatherings as I sat back and watched, I saw a lot of your mother in you. You always had that spark, that special something that made you stand out.
Your daughters, Cora and Clare, will be surrounded by their wonderful family who will shape, protect and support them in everything they do. Your spirit will live on in them and I know for certain they will make you proud. You'll be their own special guardian angel watching over them and guiding them along the way.
I know, too, that you are at peace with our heavenly Father, who for reasons unknown to us, thought it was best to call you home at this time. You and your family will be in my prayers daily. We will all miss you.
Ginger, Herb, Eric, David, Beth, Paul & Emily
Dear Megan
I miss you so very much. I loved our lunches together. You are very special to me, and I hope we can have lunch together when we meet again.
All my Love, always
Grandma Betty Widmer
Dear Megan
I miss you. You were a very nice person, and I feel bad for you. Everybody in this family misses you and feels bad for you. But I think the people in this family that miss you the most are Cora, Clare, Gay, and Merry.
Love
Sam
Dear Megan and Ray
I Love You! I hope you are safe. I miss you. Our last day was fun. You care for us. I will always miss you and be with you. You stay in my heart with love and care.
With Love
Clare and Eve
Dear Megan
I will always regret not keeping in touch. I will always remember the times I babysat you and your sister. I can still picture how funny I thought you were when you showed me that you could bite your toe nails. I thought that since I have been so far away that I would not be affected by anything that happens back home. But this tragedy has made me realize how very important it is to me to let the people I care about know that I love and miss them. I wish I could tell you. Thanks for being Megan. I know you will be watching over your kids, and I hope someday I will get to know them.
I am so sorry Megan
Love Roy
Megan
You are thousand winds that blow. You are the diamond glints upon the snow. You are the sunlight on ripened grain, and You are the gentle autumn rain. When I awaken in the morning's hush, You are that swift uplifting rush, Of quiet birds in circled flight. You are the soft star that shines at night.
You'll be missed.
Llhih & Jennifer Barnes
Dear loving Megan
I think about you so, so, soooo much. I miss you and wish you were here. I love you dear. But the good thing is, I will be waiting until the day I see your loving, caring face again.
I loved our last day on earth together!! I hope you are waiting for me in heaven!!
With love
Ana Hicks
Dear Mom and Dad
Nov. 13, 2004
We all miss you so much! You guys are the best parents in the world. It's so Sad that you went so fast. We all will miss you so much. I'm glad you will be In my heart forever. Just remember we love you so much! I want to see you but I can't.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
Love Always
Cora Phelps
Dear Megan
I know there were reasons for this tragedy, even though we do not understand them yet. I am comforted knowing that you are with God in a wonderful, peaceful place. We will miss you here on Earth, but the memories of you will forever be with us.
Much Love
Dawn
Dear Megan
I've been thinking of you a lot. I was very lucky to have Cora in my first grade class. What a wonderful, intelligent, beautiful young lady she's become. You were such a great Mom to Cora and Clare and an awesome asset to have in my class as well. You were a PAL every week and you helped all the children with reading, writing and math skills. You were so patient and caring with them, especially C.M. He needed you and loved you like a mom, too. I picture you in the classroom, on our field trips and at our parties. As you look at us from Heaven, continuing your care for Clare and Cora, glance at your old first graders and know you made a big difference.
Love
Paula Dangel-Mitchell
Take a lump of clay, wet it, pat it, Make a statue of you and a statue of me Then shatter them, clatter them, Add some water, And break them and mold them Into a statue of you, and a statue of me Then in mine, there are bits of you, And in you there are bits of me Nothing ever shall keep us apart.
-Kuan-Tao-Sheng
Megan
Thank you for sharing you life and for showing me that it is ok to be yourself. You are and always will be unique and I will treasure you always. Nothing can ever be the same again but we can take in your life and your leaving and allow it to change us and become a part of us. Your warmth, and your smile, and your love is still felt.
I will love you always.
Barb
Dear Megan
I remember how good of friends we were when we were kids. You are a great person and I regret we didn't hang out as much as we got older. We are all going to miss you.
Love
Carson & Michelle
You will live on forever through your beautiful girls. You were a terrific mother and a friend and will forever be missed. I'll never forget the times when we were younger and nobody could understand us except for each other (we were bubbies). I will cherish those days always.
I love you Megan.
Summer and the rest of the Jones Family
Dear Megan
I miss you. The last time you saw me before you went out was at 7:11 (I saw the time) You saw me doing the thing I love doing most, horseback riding. I was on Chewy and we jumped. You applauded.
Mom says once you took me out shopping and when we came back mom asked if I had fun. Obviously I said yes, Then she asked was I good. I hesitated to say yes, then you said "aww, she learned how to lie."
My favorite movie is Spirit Stallion of the Cimmarion and my favoite song is Sound the Bugle And it reminded me how I shoud react to this situation. This is how it goes:
Sound the bugle now - play it just for me As the seasons change - remember how I used to be Now I can't go on - I can't even start I've got nothing left - just an empty heart
I'm a soldier - wounded so I must give up the fight There's nothing more for me - lead me away... Or leave my lying here
Sound the bugle now - tell them I don't care There's not a road I know - that leads to anywhere Without a light feat that I will - stumble in the dark Lay right down - decide not to go on
Then from on high - somewhere in the distance There's a voice that calls - remember who you are If you lose yourself - your courage soon will follow
So be strong tonight - remember who you are You're a soldier now - fighting in a battle To be free once more-Yeah that's worth fighting for
I MISS YOU MEGAN
Miss you alot
Veronica Viera
"SOME PEOPLE COME INTO OUR LIVES AND QUICKLY GO.... SOME PEOPLE BECOME FRIENDS AND STAY AWHILE.... LEAVING BEAUTIFUL FOOTPRINTS ON OUR HEARTS.... AND WE ARE NEVER QUITE THE SAME BECAUSE WE HAVE MADE A GOOD FRIEND!!!"
You will never be forgotten Megan! Tell Grandpa "HI and I miss and love him"
Until we meet again
Love Patty and Family
Dear Megan
I miss you and your smile and cheer. You came into my life just becoming a teen; half woman half child. You always wanted everyone to be happy and did your best to make that happen. You loved all creatures especially the defenseless and was the first to nurse a wounded animal and find it a home.
Whenever we met, you would always ask if I was happy. I was, but always smiled as we met to assure you that I was. Soon I was smiling just thinking of you. Before long, whenever I was down, thinking of you would bring a smile.
You will be with us in all of our happy moments and time will bring everything together.
Paul
Dear Megan
It's been a while since you used to come to our home for Labor Day picnics, but we have happy memories of those gatherings. We hope that happy memories and your continued love and caring will now be a source of consolation and strength for all those you loved and left behind. Each is sorrowing in his or her own way because they love you. It's a good thing that love transcends time and space.
And so we say - we love you!
Uncle Firm and Aunt Connie
Happy Thanksgiving Megan. I love you and miss you so much.
Joy
Megan, I am thankful for the many memories
Janis
Megan I don't even know where to start. I am so sorry that this happened to you. The hardest thing is I keep thinking that I can call you up or that I will see you again. I am struggling everyday now knowing that I can't apologize for everything that I have said or done to hurt you. Megan, I truly miss you and I have always loved you. I keep thinking about the time we spent together when we were pregnant with Devin and Clare. I am so grateful that you were there for me and was able to share the most important time in my life. I couldn't of done it without your love and support. I just wish I had a chance to fix things and have that friendship again with you. I am so sorry for everything. I will never forget you or the many memories we shared.
Love
Tara
To Megan, my kindred spirit
I was born the day I kissed you, I died the day you left.
Here's to Good Women May we know them May we be them May we raise them
As soon as forever is through, I'll be over you. I love you all the way to the moon and the stars and the sun,
Mom
When I kiss you good night I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer. It is then, that I will thank God for you, and ask him for nothing, except one more day.......
Merry Christmas, Megan
I Love You
Mom
When the warmth of the sun touches my face, I see your smile and feel you embrace.
I hear the whisper of love in the wind And I know that you are close to me again.
The rain speaks of tears and the thunder of pain, But soon the sun comes the earth to reclaim.
As the days come and go and the world moves on, I know you're still here, you'll never be gone.
On the night the Angel came and took your hand, We cried as you left for an unknown land.
But Heaven rejoiced as you came into sight, For your soul was a diamond, shining so bright.
Merry Christmas Megan. I think about you everyday. I love you and miss you.
Tracy
As you hold me close in memory, although we are apart, my spirit will live on , within your heart...
I am with you always.
Merry Christmas Megan
Tara
Dear Megan
Valentine's day is coming and I want you to be my valentine, PLEASE! And I want you to remember me no matter what. I can remember your beautiful brown, sparkling eyes. And your red shining lips. And your dark black hair, just like the night. You were a night queen to me. I love you soooooooooooooooooooooooo much! I remember when I always went to your house and when you took me swimming, and to Putz's. I wish I could talk more, but I have to go. Lots, lots, lots of love
Ana
Happy Mother's Day Megan.
Love,
Summer
Grief fills the room of my absent child
Dear Megan,
I will love you forever.
Mom
Megan,
Not a day goes by that I don't think about you or your children. Even after 6 months, it is still hard to believe.
I read a poem today that made me think of you and your sister Merry.
I ASKED GOD FOR WATER, HE GAVE ME AN OCEAN
I ASKED GOD FOR A FLOWER, HE GAVE ME A GARDEN
I ASKED GOD FOR A FRIEND, HE GAVE ME ALL OF YOU...
Give Grandpa a hug.
Love,
Aunt Patty
"Bees come buzzing from lilac trees Butterfly's day is through Birds splashing at last bath And I start thinking of you"
We all miss you so much and you are thought of daily!
Love, Aunt Patty
7/8/05
Megan:
Light of my heart
Do not forget me
I will never forget you
Mom
7/20/05
Dear Megan,
When you hear me singing, I am really crying for you.
Love,
Mom
7/21/05
Dear Megan,
I still can't believe that you are no longer with us here on Earth. I think about you so often. I hear your voice clearly in my mind. You had a wonderful demeanor. You were a great mother, daughter, sister, and friend. Your birthday is coming up, and it is hard. I know you are at peace. I pray for your mom, your dad, your brothers and sisters, and your little girls. I pray that your presence in our hearts will help us to eventually heal a bit. You touched so many in your lifetime. We were all blessed to have known you and to have had you as part of our family. We miss you and always will.
Love,
Tracy
7/25/05
"One must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star."- Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche
I am chaos,
You are my dancing star!
Happy Birthday Megan
Love,
Mom
7/25/05
Dear Megan,
Happy Birthday! I think about you every day. So
many people miss you
and love you. Memories of you are a comfort, but
will never be enough
to replace you. You are so special. I will
always keep you in my
heart.
Love,
Jill
7/25/05
Hello! We had Cora at our house last night, I was
so happy to see her and spend time with her. I
worry so much about her and I miss her terribly.
It's so bittersweet to be with her but in being
with her I can still see you living. It's
incredible. Time has not made us well in losing you guys
it only makes it seem more of a dream. But you are
still here through your children and my prayer is
that they can keep on living the lives that they
are meant to live and that your influences may
help them to grow into strong, caring, confident
women.
Happy Birthday Megan!
Stan, Cindy, Nora, Claire, Benjamin and Maryann
7/25/05
Dear Megan,
I gather your spirit around me and feel the
warmth of your smile, the beauty
of your laughter, and the kindness and acceptance
of others - that you
shared. Each moment we have a choice of how we
will be in this world - I
choose to smile, to laugh, and to accept others
as they are - just as you
did.
Happy Birthday and thank you for the spirit and
life you brought to me.
Love Barb
7/25/05
Dear Megan
As your family and friends think of you today on
your birthday, we all have mixed emotions about
everything that's happened. We think about all
the wonderful times we've enjoyed with you and it
makes us very sad to know you're gone. Yet all
those memories keep your spirit and your life fresh
in our hearts, minds and prayers.
We wish you were here to celebrate with us in all
those special ways we each think of when it comes
to celebrating birthdays. But I'd like to think
of your birthday celebration this year in a
different way, it helps me, maybe it will help others.
I think of you celebrating a different kind of
"birth"day, I think of it as a rebirth. You are
there with family and friends who have gone before
us. All of you are experiencing what lies ahead
for those of us who believe and have a faith in
God.
You must be having the grandest celebration of
them all! You are not alone, you are surrounded by
friends, family members and best of all God, He
is there and has you enfolded in His arms. What a
comforting thought for all of us to envision.
Megan safe and secure in Our Father's arms.
Happy Rebirth, Megan!
Ginger
7/25/05
I think about you every day. I miss you and love you more than anyone knows.
7/25/05
Hi megan its Veronica um happy birthday how old are you now? 28? Yeah thats right. i love you and i miss you. cant wait to see you again. i think no one can and i love you, did i allready say that? allwell. i cant wait to go to school. i might be in advanced science from all my sciency scills. and we have to read treasure island and... well lets not get into that story! I love you ! & I miss you!
With all the love in the world,
Veronica
7/25/05
Who could forget your birthday - July 25th.
Every 25 speed limit sign
we saw you always reminded us that it was your
birthday.
Happy
Birthday. I miss you.
Summer
7/26/05
Dearest Megan,
I know you heard me sing Happy Birthday to you
yesterday. At first I
felt really sad then I knew you were smiling down
on us and you made me
smile. Thank you for being a part of my life and I
thank your wonderful
mother with all my heart for allowing you to be
with me always. Somehow
it makes me feel better. Also thank you for
bringing your beautiful
children into our lives. They have added so much
to mine. I Love you
Megan and I will never stop missing you and
loving you. Happy Birthday.
Love forever Joy
7/28/05
"My life is almost normal, running its course with all the responsibilites of home and family, I feel in some ways that despite all this, it is still a masquerade. I will never be myself, I will never be whole. I am still walking around with some part of me broken, longing for her return."
Sister to Sister
8/1/05
Was just thinking about your memorial Sunday and thought how much more fun it would've be with you there! All your family and friends around trying to have a good time, but missing your spark. We all try to carry on, to make live as normal as possible for your girls and family, but there is a huge, empty hole.
You touched our lives more than you know. I felt I knew you much better than I did---we were definitely both non-conformists (in our own ways)---you always reminded me of the best in me. Every time we met you were happy and smiling---I always felt we were friends, despite our age difference. We were also family in an extended way---at least I always thought of you as family. Your girls, tho we always considered them family, are now grandchildren! You know we've always loved them, and now get to spend much more time spoiling them. The more time we spend with them--the more I see you in them. Tho they will always miss you (and their dad I'm sure), we're all trying to make their lives as happy and normal as possible. They are surrounded by so much love!
I Miss You! Larry misses your time together! I watch for your aura, and hope you find us again!
Cheryl
8/2/05
Megan,
I felt like we were just getting to know each other again.... growing up is so hard, and it takes people in
different directions, but I always admired you. You had such a wonderful spirt, you were so full of life. I've always loved you and Merry more like sisters than friends. You were always family in my heart and always will be.
I miss you, and think about you all the time. I think about Merry and how hard this must be for her. I wish I could do something to make it easier.... but that's crazy, there's nothing I could do or say that would make it easier, so I hug her alot! I know your with her you'd never truly leave her alone. She's so strong, your girls will always know and feel
your love through her and your family and friends. YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN !! Your spirt lives on Megan!!
Forever...
UNO sometime??? I never did get to join you guys....
I Love you and miss you,
Jenny
If Only I knew .....
I was about to lose your smile,
I would thank you
for all the joy you've brought to my life.
8/11/05
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you,
sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you,
and in those dreams, whatever they be,
dream a little dream of me.
the Mamas and the Papas
Megan,
I dream of you always.
Mom
9/2/05
Hi Megan
Your always on my mind and in my Heart. I love
you and miss you
something fierce.
Joy
10/11/05
The soul is healed by being with children."
~ Fyodor Dostoevsky
Dear Megan,
Thank-you for giving us Cora and Clare.
Love,
Mom
10/11/05
dear megan,
i have gotten to meet your daughters
these past two weekends
and want you to know that you have done a
wonderful job with them. they are
also in great hands with your sister. as things
are going, they are turning
out to be what i will regret leaving the most
when i head back to portland.
i will do my best to keep in touch with them.
again you should be very proud
of them and yourself.
love roy
10/13/05
Hi Megan
Its been almost a year now since you've been gone. I
still am having a hard
time about it. Everything I see, or do, or hear
reminds me of you. Mom
tells me you're in a better place. I hope shes
right. But that doesn't seem
to help any of the pain in my heart. Mom also
says I need to let go of
some of the pain so you can be in peace. Maybe I
am selfish but I can't
let go of you. I try to have moms faith but its
just not there when it
comes to you. You were happy whenever I saw you.
So to me you were happy
here with us. You cherished your girls and you
were a wonderful mother
and nobody can take your place. You have 2 of the
most beautiful and
wonderful children on earth. Lets face it Megan
you have the most
amazing family anyone could ever ask for. So much
love coming in from
everywhere for you. I see it and feel it
everyday. I am sorry if I am
holding you back from moving on to someplace
better but I miss you so
much.
I know you loved halloween so I have dedicated
our yard to you. I am
decorating more than ever. Both Sam and Leyna
have been helping me which
they have never done before. I hope you like it.
Again Megan I am sorry but I will never, ever let
go of you. I love you
too much. I love you to infinity and beyond and
back. Stay happy.
Forever Joy
10/19/05
Megan,
It's getting closer and closer to almost being Halloween. There isn't a moment in the day I don't seem to think about you. Everything reminds me of you. We miss you so much. Our family has become so much closer in the past year. I wish it could have been in a happier way. I am positive you are in a safe and wonderful place. And I am waiting for the day I can see your smiling face once again.
With all my love,
Brittany
10/21/05
10/23/05
As long as I can I will look at this world for both of us.
As long as I can I will laugh with the birds,
I will sing with the flowers,
I will pray to the stars, for both of us.
~ Sascha
I miss you so much Megan,
Love,
Mom
10/27/05
Megan,
I hear the brush of your angels wings as they
softly touch the faces of
those you have held dear. Your energy and spirit
are always with us to
protect, comfort, reassure, encourage, and love.
You are not and never will
be forgotten - but greatly loved by many.
Barb
10/30/05
Look at the stars, look how they shine for you
My life has changed.
That first day in this new dark world has now become the first year.
I can’t believe you’re really gone.
How I long to see you one more time, hear your voice, touch your face.
I miss you more every day, my heart still breaks, my tears still fall.
You will never be alone Megan, a part of me went with you when you died.
The day which we fear as our last is but the birthday of eternity
~ Seneca
I say farewell to you,
the summer of my life,
as the wind of change carries you
to a new and beautiful life.
Love you so much,
Mom
10/30/05
It's hard to believe that you've been gone from
us for a year.
You are still so deeply loved and
missed. You are not forgotten . . .
you never
could be.
Love,
Summer and family
11/15/05
Megan always on my mind and in my heart.
I love
you. Joy
11/23/05
Happy Thanksgiving Megan,
Thank you for all the
love you have brought
into my life.
I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH.
Joy
12/1/05
Merry Christmas Megan!!
As I watched the first snow fall today I couldn't
help but wonder if you
were dancing in the clouds...
your free spirit now
an angel watching over us all..
You are missed.
Love You
Jenny
12/2/05
Dear Megan,
Hi! I want to wish you a Merry Christmas even
though I don't know if you still celebrate the way we
do. The sun is shining brightly here but it's
supposed to snow later today. I love you and miss
you so much.
Love Grandma Betty
12/2/05
Leyna Loves Megan
Sorry that I miss you. I am going over my dads.
Grandma Joys tree is pretty and I decorated it.
Me, Sam, Grandma Joy, and Grandma Betty decorated
the tree. Theres a medium tree too.
Megan We,re going to a reptile show with Llhih
tomorrow. Are you ok Megan?
Love Leyna
12/2/05
Megan Mae
Megan is a star that lights up the night sky.
She
helps us spread our wings and fly.
Megan is the bright yellow sun
the one who makes
our life so fun.
Megan is the wind who blows through our hair.
She
gave us the life we all share.
She is the waves of the sea.
Her spirit will always flow free.
We Miss you Megan
Samantha Barnes
12/3/05
I just wanted to share this with all the people who loved Megan.
I have archived online chats between Megan and I. This is one of the last ones. She is do1ci, and I am bad0000kitty. We were arranging for the two of us to have lunch downtown, and she wanted to be sure to get back in time for the Halloween party/parade at Cora’s school. (Cora, she was so excited about going and seeing you.)
I have more archived messages; and, when I read them, it's like having her here again. Even if it is a brief and insignificant conversation, it is a piece of time when she was alive… laughing and talking. I treasure this greatly, and I wanted to give everybody two minutes with Megan.
Happy Holidays!
Betty & Nikolai
do1ci (10/28/2004 11:49:19 PM): hey
bad0000kitty (10/28/2004 11:49:28 PM):
do1ci (10/28/2004 11:49:32 PM): do you think i could be back by 1ish?
do1ci (10/28/2004 11:49:36 PM):
bad0000kitty (10/28/2004 11:49:39 PM): sure thing
bad0000kitty (10/28/2004 11:49:44 PM): be there at 11
bad0000kitty (10/28/2004 11:49:47 PM):
do1ci (10/28/2004 11:49:52 PM):
do1ci (10/28/2004 11:49:54 PM): k'
bad0000kitty (10/28/2004 11:49:56 PM): what's wrong?
do1ci (10/28/2004 11:50:02 PM): me
do1ci (10/28/2004 11:50:04 PM): on time?
bad0000kitty (10/28/2004 11:50:07 PM):
do1ci (10/28/2004 11:50:11 PM):
bad0000kitty (10/28/2004 11:50:15 PM):
do1ci (10/28/2004 11:50:18 PM): i can't wait
do1ci (10/28/2004 11:50:22 PM): see ya tomorrow
bad0000kitty (10/28/2004 11:50:28 PM):
leave now
bad0000kitty (10/28/2004 11:50:30 PM): be early
bad0000kitty (10/28/2004 11:50:31 PM):
do1ci (10/28/2004 11:50:42 PM): i'll start getting ready
bad0000kitty (10/28/2004 11:50:46 PM):
do1ci (10/28/2004 11:50:46 PM):
do1ci (10/28/2004 11:50:49 PM): bye
bad0000kitty (10/28/2004 11:50:50 PM):
bad0000kitty (10/28/2004 11:50:52 PM): bye
do1ci (10/28/2004 11:50:57 PM):
12/4/05
Hi Mommy
I love you
Clare
12/4/05
Dear Joy,
This is mainly for you-I know you sometimes feel powerless to help me, but you do more than you will ever know. This is also to a select few others who continue to be a source of strength to me.
With love to you all,
Gay
The day my child died, I fell into the pit of grief.
My friends watched me struggle through daily life, waiting for the person I once was to arise from the pit, not realizing "she" is gone forever.
The pit is full of darkness, heartache and despair, it paralyses your thoughts, movements and ability to think. The pit leaves you forever changed, unable to surface the person you once were.
Some of my pre-grief friends gather around the top of the pit, waiting for the old me to appear before their eyes, not understanding what's taking me so long to emerge. After all...in their eyes, I've been in the pit for quite some time.
Yet, in my eyes, it seems as if I fell in only yesterday.
Not all of my pre-grief friends gathered at the top of the pit. Some are helping me with the climb out of the darkness. They climb side by side with me and from time to time, but mostly, they climb ahead of me, waiting patiently at each plateau. Even with these friends I sometimes wonder, if they are, also, waiting for the pre-grief me to magically appear before their eyes.
Then, there are the casual acquaintances, you know the ones who say, "Hi,How are you?" when they really don't care or really don't want to know.
These people are the people, who sighed in relief, that it was my child who died and not theirs. You know, the "better you, not me" attitude.
I have a few friends, (JOY, Merry, Tracy, Patty, Betty, Bert, Yvonne) the ones who climb with me, side by side, inch by inch, out of the pit of grief. They are able to reassure me when I need strength. They have no expectations of how I "should" be. They want me to heal, to smile more often and find joy in life. But they've also accepted the person I've become.
The "person" who is emerging from the pit.
(taken from ‘The Pit of Grief’-author unknown)
12/6/05
To Megan's family,
I have never had the pleasure of meeting
the person you all write so
lovingly about. I truly wish I had though. I
saw pictures, ABSOLUTELY
BEAUTIFUL She sounds like the kind of person I
would have truly loved.
Just a fun down to earth real person. I sat and
read the entire
web-site,after reading the website, I felt
compelled to write and share my
thoughts and feelings, please forgive me if I am
out of line. I didn't know
that I was capable of feeling such emotions about
one of GOD"S children
that I never even meet in her lifetime. I felt
pain in my heart and
released a bunch of tears every time I read one
of Gay's letter to her
beautiful daughter, I felt overwhelmed with Joy
in my heart reading Cora &
Clare's words to their mother. We could only
wish as parents that our
children would feel this way and say these words
while we are here on GOD"S
green earth. All the family, all of her friends,
the words, the outpouring
of maybe wishing they had done things a little
differently, spent more
time, laughed a little longer, hung out a little
more. It will be a lesson
learned for me. I will remember always now and
forever her birthday, every
time i see a speed limit sign (25),That brought a
smile to my face. I will
share this with Megan's family. I have met Cora,
Clare and Eve, I have yet
to meet Anna. I refer to them in my world as the
four little sisters. I
share a cubicle at work with Gay, I was envious
of her cubicle, she had
colorful, smilely, dangly, with all the shapes
and sizes artwork you would
ever want to see. Now I am HONORED to say my
cubicle has as much life as
hers. The girls came thru like no bodies
business. They made pictures and
books and suns and mermaids, and they wrote
letters. I think the biggest
thrill I got was they thought I was COOL. They
said it, Out of the mouths
of BABES. Bert you are so cool. As an outsider
into your world (MEGAN"S
FAMILY) it is a beautiful thing you do. Keeping
her memory alive. thru
words, thru memories, be it good ones or not so
good ones. Now they say
everything happens for a reason in God's time,
and no one will fully
understand this event, however Megan's family
comes closer together thru
love, in spirit, someone referred to a song, in
poetry, in everyday
situations. Keep the love flowing, keep your
hearts open for her
daughters, keep a smile on your face as big as
the one Megan has, cause she
is still carrying that big beautiful smile. (you
can't hide or lose a smile
that big) Somewhere in this lifetime we may come
to understand why this
happen to one of GOD"S beautiful children, and
then again we may not, but
it will be a much better place with all the love
and Joy going on in
Megan's memories. I am blessed for being able to
share in your sorrow, but
to see a family/friends come together in
remembrance of such a beautiful
individual. Gay you have done an awesome job as
well as Megan has with her
daughters, and you know I am partial to little
girls, because the man gave
me 2 sons to raise, I can only hope when it is
said and done that my sons
are as beautiful loving people as your daughters
are. You too Alex.
Your mother's lifetime FRIEND
ROBERTA SHARP
I HAVE BEEN TRULY TOUCHED BY AN ANGEL
YOUR FRIEND BERT
12/9/05
Dear Megan,
Yesterday we had our first big snowfall of the year. It was beautiful, but then again I'm sure you and grandpa were building igloos and snowmen!
Saturday was the Borgman's Christmas Party. It was a great. Your daughters are beautiful people! You must be so proud of them and Merry. She is doing a terrific job!! Your love shines through her. Your presence was felt in the Christmas celebration but you were missed by all. Your dad still seems lost at times but he knows you live through Merry and the kids.
Until we meet again......
Love,
Aunt Patty
12/22/05
Dearest Megan,
I am sending you my best wishes for a very Merry
Christmas and Happy
New Year. Thank you for sending yours. I see it
shining through your
beautiful daughters.
Love you forever and ever.
Joy
xxxooooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoooxoxoxoxoxxooooooooooooooooooooooxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
12/23/05
Missing your smile, sense of humor, and caring nature. Always thinking of you.
Wonderful memories of you are carried in all of our hearts and minds.
Merry Christmas.
Love,
Tracy
12/23/05
Merry Christmas Megan.
Still missing you.
Love,
Summer
12/25/05
A thousand words cannot bring you back, I know because I've tried.
A thousand tears cannot bring you back, I know because I've cried!
Author Unknown
All of the Christmas's, all of the birthdays, all of the holidays are now gone forever.
I miss you so much Megan!
Love,
Mom
12/29/05
Dear Megan,
Thank you so much.
I love you with all my heart. Happy New Year. Joy
12/31/05
Hi Megan,
I've just been thinking about you as usual. I was so glad to see your mom on Christmas Eve. She said she got a kick out of Gage when we were trying to leave... he was clinging to me and hanging onto the outside of the car for dear life. He was definitely not ready to leave! She said it reminded her of you when you were little. It's silly, but it makes me feel a little closer to you and your mom. I wish you were here all the time, but you do truly live on through others. ~ in actions, in memories, in a glance... The last time I saw Cora at my Mom's there was a moment when I thought "Whoa!" She resembled you so much! It was such a good feeling.
You are missed so much but continue to be loved greatly.
Forever.
Tracy
1/1/06
Megan,
Here’s to you
And a dance to the music of time
Congratulations for a life well lived
Happy New Year
Mom
1/5/06
I've been left with such guilt and so many
regrets for letting you drift so
far from my life when you were here. But now you
give me the strength to
live life to the fullest and be the person I
should have been. I always
loved you and forever will. You ARE the wind
beneath my wings.......
1/8/06
Inside the snow globe on my father's desk, there
was a penguin wearing
a red-and-white striped scarf. When I was little
my father would pull
me onto his lap and reach for the snow globe. He
would turn it over,
letting all of the snow collect on the top, then
quickly invert it.
The two of us watched the snow fall gently around
the penguin. The
penguin was alone in there, I thought, and I
worried for him. When I
told my father this, he said "Don't Worry, Susie;
he has a nice life.
He's trapped in a perfect world."
I read this in a book and it made me feel better
about Megan being in Heaven and away from all of
her family and friends.
Summer
2/2/06
Don’t Think I Do Not Grieve
Don’t think I do not feel; because you see no tears.
A river rages deep inside of grief, and loss, and fears.
Just because I do not cry now, Don’t think my heart’s not broken.
I keep inside the misery of words not to be spoken.
Sometimes I smile, or crack a joke, so you won’t see the pain;
or notice how my hands will shake, or how I’ve gone insane.
Each time I chance to think of her, my heart is ripped asunder.
The loss I feel is mine alone. you will not see my thunder!
Brenda Penepent
Megan,
I miss you so much!
Love,
Mom
2/14/06
Thinking of you Megan.
With all our love...
The Ginters
Happy Valentine's Day
2/17/06
Dear Megan,
I will always, always love you.
Mom
2/22/06
Hey Megan,
I am sorry I haven't gotten to you lately. I hope
you don't think I
have forgotten because there is no way I could
have. You and your family
are always on my mind. Too much is going on
lately thats all. You have
no idea how much I have needed you since you have
been gone. I do need
something now from you if you don't mind. I need
you to wrap your arms
around Grandma and hold her for awhile. I don't
think I can do what you
can do for her. She has always loved you so much.
Just give her a warm
hug. While you are at it give your mom a great
big hug too. She really
could use it also. Thanks I know you will do that
if you haven't
already. I know you were with Merry, Reyna and
Tara the other night when
they all went out. It sounds like it was so much
fun and good for them
to get together. I am so happy that Reyna is
finally talking about you
and working on writing down all the wonderful
memories of you she has so
they can be passed down to everyone. Those 3 love
you so much as do so
many others. You have done so much for all of us
and you keep on doing
things for us. I wish I could do the same for
you. I am so grateful
that you are a part of my family and my life. I
love you Megan all the
way to the tips of my toes and you know thats a
lot. Stay happy and
thank you for everything you do for us all.
Love
always and forever
Joy
2/24/06
Megan,
Sorry I know I haven't written you in a while but I know that you hear my thoughts of you. Joy and I were talking yesterday and she mentioned that you point things out to her. Was that you the other day? Sorry I didn't realize it until after talking with her. Thank you. I know that when you left our relationship wasn't the best but thank you for forgiving me and staying with me. Please keep pointing things out to me and show me ways to help your mom and the girls. Reyna and I are going to get together with Cora soon. I am soo excited. I can't wait to get to know her again and bond with her. Thank you for all the memories.
Miss & Love ya
Tara
2/24/06
Dear Megan,
I'm so sorry that I haven't written to you in a
while. But I hope you know that I think about you
all the time. That will never end. Whenever I
think about you, I think about your beautiful
smile and how much love you had for everyone. You
will always be in our hearts and for that I'm
grateful but we'd all rather have you here. I miss
you Megan. I know you are with us in spirit, but
if you can, give your mom a hug. She could really
use it. I love you! Keep smiling on all of us.
Jill
2/24/06
Gay,
I want to tell you that I'm sorry if you think
I've forgotten Megan. I think about her every day
and will never forget her. I know that I can't
take your pain away, but I will always be
available to you if you ever need anything. You did a
wonderful job with Megan and when I saw Veronica at
Christmas I was surprised what a beautiful young
lady she is growing up to be. I see Megan in her
with her sincere and beautiful smile. And Alek,
boy is he going to be a lady killer! Anyway, I
just want you to know that you all are always on
my mind and in my heart. I love you!
Jill
3/3/06
Megan,
I miss you so much. There are no words to
describe how much you are
missed. It hurts so much. Stay with us Megan. It
helps to feel you
nearby. Today is just one of those days that I
want to scream how unfair
life is. Always remind us that you are happy and
ok. I need to be
reminded of that now. I LOVE YOU. Thanks for
telling people that I
helped to make good memories for you during your
childhood. To me that
is why we are here. Good memories is all we have
to hold onto and never
lose. Thank you for the ones you have given me.
You truly made a
difference in my life.
Joy
3/5/06
Dear Mom,
Mom you are always going to be the best mom
Even though we can’t see you we know you are here
Gone in the wind we can’t wait to see you again
Anytime is fine
Now we want to be with you badly
Love,
Cora
3/5/06
Hi
mommy and daddy,
I love 
you
Love,
Clare
3/7/06
Megan,
I got to spend the evening with your girls Saturday night. They have grown up soo much. It was too funny. I call Devin my little monkey all the time and Clare said she was a monkey. I know we always talked about how cool it was that they were going to be soo close in age. I am glad that they are starting to get to know each other now. I hope that they will become good friends. Cora is such a beautiful little girl. When I look at her I see you. We talked about getting together and sharing memories of you and just hanging out. You have done such a great job raising them when you were here and I am soo glad that they have you as a guardian angel. I also want to thank you for all of the advice on being a mom.
Miss you always,
Love
Tara
3/10/06
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3/13/06
Dear Megan,
How do I live without you?
I do not!
Love,
Mom
3/14/06
Megan,
I was going through pictures last night and I came across some that I had taken of the girls while they were at my house. The amazing thing is that in several of the pictures there appear to be orbs. I know that there are many theories about what orbs are but what I would like to believe they are are our guardian angels. I know that you are still here with your girls, watching over them.
Love always,
Tara
3/17/06
Meganfly,
I love you with all of me. And to my Cora, Clare,
Merry, and my sister
and best friend in this world, Gay, I love you
all so much. I also want
to thank you, Tracy for making this wonderful
place for us to let Megan
know how much we love her. I love you. Ok I love
everybody and thank you
Megan for helping to bring us all closer. We all
miss you so much. Megan
you are a remarkable spirit and I have no doubts
about where you are. I
am sending you all my hugs and kisses.
Forever with you
Joy
3/29/06
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4/2/06
Before you were conceived, I wanted you
Before you were born, I loved you
Before you were here an hour, I would die for you
Megan,
I miss you so much
Mom
Roy Joseph Widmer
March 13, 1965 - April 16, 2006
http://www.angelfire.com/planet/roywidmer
4/18/06
Megan (aka Doe-G):
The memories I have of you are the sweetest that
anyone could ever ask
for. I miss our 'pickling' days behind the old
Dilly Deli where we had
burping contests. I miss the times that we got in
trouble together. You
were the best accomplice to any 'crime'. I miss
our long days during the
week spent together with Lucas (while the men
were at work) appreciating
what it was really like to be stay-at-home-moms.
I still laugh out loud
when I think of the time when Lucas had a problem
going to the bathroom
and you broke out the lube!! I just miss being
with you. I cut my bangs
because we said we would be bopsy twins when my
hair grew out. I hope
you like it.
When I think of all the changes I've made since
you crossed over, I know
you'd be proud of me. I was supposed to be going
through all these
changes with you and you were supposed to be my
strength. I've had to do
it alone, but in my heart, I know you're there. I
couldn't have done it
without your spirit flowing through me. I love
you girl. I always will.
Janis (aka Home Skillet)
P.S. Thanks for helping me when I hit rock bottom
emotionally. Your
visit in my dream did wonders for me. I love you.
4/18/06
Dear Mom,
I love you so much
I miss you so much
I hope you welcome Roy
He would welcome you
I can't wait to see you
Even if everyone else will miss me
I want to be with you so bad
You are so special
And you will stay in my heart forever
Love your first baby,
Cora
4/24/06
Dearest Cora and Clare,
I know how much you must miss your mom and dad but please remember you are their pride and joy. You mean everything to them. You were born for a special reason and there are so many people who LOVE you both so much. You both have been so brave through everything and still are. I am so proud of you. You both have a large piece of my heart and always will. I am so happy you are in my life. Sorry it has been so hectic lately but I never stop thinking about you. Please stay strong and remember all the love that surrounds you. I am hoping with all my heart to someday take you to Portland to do the things we were all going to do with Roy and I am sure both Roy and Megan will be with us. We will celebrate all of us.
I love you all the way to the grocery store and back.
Moldy Joy
4/24/06
Hey Megan,
I know I am late but Happy Easter. I hope you and Roy are having a wonderful time. I have to think that you are both happy. Tell Roy or you do it, let me know you are both ok. I feel good knowing you both are playing with Tracy's babies too. Happy Happy Easter to you all. I miss you sooooo much.
Love always and forever
Until we see each other again
Joy
5/1/06
Hi Megan,
I just wanted to tell you what a wonderful mom you have. I am sure you know that anyway. How did you like the slumber party she had with me and grandma Betty last night? It was great wasn't it? Surprizingly nobody called the police on us. We are all so messed up its not really funny. We toasted you and Roy. We ordered Larosas I felt in honor of Roy because he always ate there or skyline when he came to town. Then we sort of sat on the porch doing nothing. Sort of like an Annette Funachelli ( or however you spell it) party. I really did have a great time. Its so nice to have her around. I have always wanted to help her in any way possible with the pain she has missing you. Now she is trying to help me. I wish I was as strong as her. I wish you were here with her. I heard you where with Cora when she jumped the other day. I wish I had seen her. Your girls are the best. They are beautiful, caring and so much fun for me to have around. You would be proud of them. I know I am. I miss you Megan more than you know. Please give Roy a hug for me.
I love you very much.
Joy
5/1/06
Dear Mom,
We all miss you very
much. Everyone
wishes that you were
still here with us where
we could see you.
BUT..... We can put a smile on!
I love you so much!
Cora
5/7/06
Hi Megan,
I was just sitting here thinking about you and Roy. It does my heart good to know you are together. Only I wish you were here with us. Have I told you lately what wonderful girls you have? I think Cora is wise beyond her years. When I look at your picture I can't help but think what a beautiful young woman you grew up to be. Inside and out. I don't know if I ever told you that or not. I hope I did. You really should know that. I hate that you are gone. I really really really hate it. But I am also glad you were there to meet Roy. You gave me comfort knowing you met Roy with a big smile on your face and gave him all the hugs we all wish we could have done. Megan have I told you how wonderful you are lately? You are more wonderful than words could ever describe. I miss you Megan so much. I have been working on statues for your garden. I am trying to get them perfect for you. Rabbits, turtles, frogs, all kinds of creatures that I know you love. Someday I hope you visit your garden and we can sit and talk. I will be waiting for you as much as I can. Let Roy know that there is a bench there for him as well.
I LOVE YOU.
Joy
5/14/06
I never knew how much love my heart could hold until you called me "mom"
Happy Mother's Day Megan
I Love You So Much!
5/14/06
Dear Megan,
Happy Mothers Day to a most wonderful mother ever. I wish you were here with us.
I hope you have a great day with your girls.
I love you so very very much.
Joy
5/14/06
Dear Mom,
Happy Mother's Day!
I love you.
I miss you so much.
You are and always be the the most best
mommy in the world!
That is so very true!
I love you,
Cora
5/14/06
Happy Mother's Day Mommy!
I love you
Love,
Clare
5/14/06
"A mother gives of her hand and her heart for her
children, she will sacrifice all with her heart,
she will comfort and soothe all the hurt with her
hand, pick you up where you fall."
Happy Mother's Day Megan.
Miss you!
Summer
5/14/06
Happy Mother's Day to the most maternal person I know!
I am a better mother because of you. I watched the wonderful example you set and strived to achieve that for Nikolai. Without a doubt, so many others who read these words can say the same.
I miss you so much, Megan. The effect you have had on my life is as deep as the hole you left in it.
Betty
5/21/06
Hi Megan,
I wish you would let me know how you are doing. It seems like its been along time since I felt you around me. I have a huge lump in my throat right now and trying not to let my tears start to flow. I miss you. Anyway sorry. I want to tell you that your bench in now out in the garden with a rabbit next to it just for you. Remember the rabbit you found on the side of the road with a broken leg? I will never forget that. There is also a bench there for Roy and I am working on one for grandpa so tell them both to meet us there. Let me know when your coming too so I can be there. Ok? Your mom has found a book that is helping her with everything and she told me about it. I ordered it today in hopes it will help me. Its a good thing that we have each other because we aren't dealing with things very well which I am sure you know. Give your mom a big hug everyday along with your kids and your sisters and brother. Merry is doing a wonderful job with your girls. Friday I went to take Clare to catch the bus for school and she was going to eat lunch at school to get used to it for next year. She was so excited. She told me she was going to buy vanilla milk but she packed her lunch. She was just so cute and sweet to me. I hated seeing her get on the bus for school. But she is growing up so fast.
I love you Megan and please come see me soon.
Joy
5/27/06
to all of you who love Megan, please be comforted with the understanding that "energy can not be created nor destroyed. it simply changes form". Megan's energy lives on in all of you who love her
5/30/06
Thank-you Megan!
I love you,
Mom
6/7/06
Hi Megan,
I hope you like the sunflowers I put in the garden. I will be making some more for you. I didn't think any of the seeds I put back there would grow but now I see alot coming up. So there should be plenty sunflowers back there just for you.
I miss you and Love you so much.
Joy
6/7/06
This is the hardest, most painful journey I have ever taken. My soul burns with the power of my grief. My heart is filled with an unbearable weight. I cry. I want to scream. The nights are so dark, I feel as if I have gone mad.
I will never be the same again. I will never get over, but I will go through.
I have loved you as truly as can be and I will try to live as honestly and genuinely as you have.
I love you with every ounce of my being.
Mom
6/17/06
Hi Megan,
I am still amazed at the friends you have. I have never seen so many people that are not blood related but are family to you and your mom and girls. You must have been a true friend to alot of people. How rare is that? Chris and your mom came through for me again. Chris did my Roy tattoo and it is beautiful work. I am so proud to be able to meet with some of your friends. They all seem like wonderful people. Let me tell you that your girls never stop making me proud either. Oh my gosh they are great. There aren't words to describe them. You did good Megan and Merry is doing a great job keeping things normal and happy for them. I am really proud of her too. You couldn't have asked for a better sister. I don't even know what to say about your mom. I don't know how she does the things she does. How she keeps going on. And how she manages to put up with me and help me. She hugs me with such love that it makes everything bad disappear. I only hope I do the same for her. But Megan it sure would be great if you would hug her. She misses you so much. How is Roy doing? I sure do hope you are all having a wonderful time. Save me a place with you. Save all of us a place. Its so hard to wait to see you again. They say time heals everything but I know thats not true. I miss you Megan. I love you so much and I know I count on you to make sure Roy is ok. I am glad you are together. Two goofy people. Thank you Megan. I love you.
Joy
6/17/06
Dear Megan,
I feel like I need to talk to you now. For some strange reason you give me strength. Silly isn't it? I know how beneficial it is to your mom and Cora and Clare to see people write to you. I find it helps me to write to you and Roy. But I am having such a hard time right now. I am feeling like your mom did at one point that people forgot you. Megan I will never forget you. Never as long as I live. I am feeling like people have forgotten Roy. I know everybody reacts to things differently and it doesn't mean they forgot or don't care. But I guess I use Roys web site to help me and it just doesn't seem like very many people are writing to him. Except me of course. (The one that probably shouldn't be writing.) Anyway it does hurt. So I am sorry that I don't write to you more often than I do. Sometimes I just feel like you already know how much I miss and love you and are probably getting sick of hearing it. But I do mean every word of it. Thanks for listening to me Megan and thank you for always helping me. You are wonderful to me. So again I love and miss you sooooooo much.
Joy
6/21/06
The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved - loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves.
~Victor Marie Hugo
Dear Megan,
I know you love me unconditionally and completely.
I wish for you all the joy that you can wish.
I miss you so.
Love,
Mom
6/22/06
Hi sweet Megan,
I love you very much. I just wanted to tell you that again.
Love forever and ever
Joy
6/26/06
Nikolai was sitting quietly with his head down. When I put my hand on his shoulder to ask him if he was okay, I saw tears running down his cheeks. I asked him what was wrong; and he said, "I'm praying to Megan".
7/1/06
Dear Megan,
Hi. I think I didn't thank you for the birthday gift you gave to me. I will cherish them forever. Thank you Megan. They are beautiful. I wish you were here to give them to me yourself. And so we could celebrate your birthday too. Did you go out with Merry, Reyna and Tara again the other night? I hope you all had fun. Its great to see you all getting closer to each other.
How did you like that trip we all took to White Water the other day? Your girls are a trip. They were like little monkeys jumping all over into the paddle boats. It was really a fun day. Did you help mom when she was changing seats? No fair she didn't paddle.
Megan I miss feeling you around so if you get a chance let me know you are here. Ok? It always makes me feel alittle better.
Well I will talk to you later. Again not a good day. Thank you very much for the wonderful gift. Take care and I will talk to you soon.
I love you with all my heart.
Joy
7/1/06
mom,
we miss you lots.
cora
7/3/06
Dear Megan,
I miss you so much.
Please take care of Cora & Clare.
Please let Merry know what a wonderful sister she is.
Please let Joy know you are ok.
I will love you forever.
Mom
7/8/06
Hi Megan,
How are you doing? I wish you were here to be with your mom. She looks so beautiful lately. You would make her even shine. She seems alittle happier than she has been. She misses you so much. You are what she really needs. But its good to see her looking happy. Shes wonderful and I really don't know what I would do without her. I am really happy that Gay and Jill and Tracy and me are trying to spend time together. We need memories together. All of us. Stay with your mom Megan and make sure she is ok. I really hope someday soon we can all be together having fun. And sharing hugs. I love you Megan. Come see me in the garden soon.
Joy
7/8/06
Hi Megan,
I haven't written to you on here in a while, but you know I think about you so often. I've been able to spend some time with your girls and the rest of the gang lately. They are all so adorable. I love that the boys are getting to know them as well. Family is so important. We all love and miss you so much. Continue to watch over us...
Until we meet again,
Tracy
7/12/06
I try very hard to fill the void for her… its impossible. Some voids cannot be filled. She needs you, she needs your
strength and guidance. I see the pain in her eyes everytime we're together… she tries to be so strong. But she can't hide
From me I know a part of her is dead inside… she goes on for you and those beautiful girls. They need her as she needs them
I know your always watching over her. Your not but a thought away. One never really truly understands loss until they loose a part of their soul.
I watched it happen and I was powerless to stop it… If only I could turn back time.
Until we all meet again…
7/15/06
Hi Megan
I hope to see you tonight at your moms party. I am sure you will be there. I feel good inside knowing you will be with us all.
I love you very much.
With all my heart
Joy
7/16/06
Hi Megan,
How did you like your moms party last night? How about the mouse incident. Too funny. I hope he is ok now. Pretty good turn out. How are you doing? Are you happy for her? I hope so. I love you Megan. Take care. See you soon.
Joy
7/25/06
Happy Birthday, Megan! We think of you a lot,
but today is a special day. We all remember you in
different ways on your birthday.
Your Mom probably has it the toughest remembering
the day you came into this world. Give her a
special hug today to let her know that you're OK.
She knows you're in a better place, but sometimes
it's hard to remember that.
I think of your birthday as Christmas in July!
You know that feeling you get around Christmas?
When everyone is usually in the holiday spirit
and everyone treats everyone nice. Some how, I
think that's the way you always were. I didn't know
you well, but all the things I hear about you
convinces me you were and still are a spirit filled
person. One who radiates life and good feelings!
Christmas in July, that's YOU!
My boys always went to Boy Scout camp during this
week in July and they always celebrated Christmas
in July complete with Christmas trees at their
campsite. I will always think of July 25th as
Megan's birthday, Christmas in July personified!
Happy Birthday, kiddo!
Ginger
7/25/06
Happy Birthday Megan!!
Love ya,
Tara & Devin
7/25/06
Happy Birthday Megan.
May the stars shine bright for you tonight.
Love,
Summer
7/25/06
Happy Birthday Megan. I love you. Joy
7/25/06
Happy Birthday Megan! Forever in my heart.
Jennifer
7/25/06
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEGAN!!!
YOU ARE ALWAYS IN OUR HEARTS AND AND IN OUR THOUGHTS
AND MISSED MORE WITH EVERY PASSING DAY......
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN
LOVE,
AUNT PATTY
7/25/06
Happy Birthday Megan.
dennis
7/25/06
Happy Birthday, Megan.
Love,
Tracy
7/25/06
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEGAN!
Megan,
I miss you so much, but I still felt that we got to celebrate your birthday together.
Lucas absolutely loved all the female attention at Merry's!! I truly feel your presence around them.
Miss ya!
Janis
oh yeah... I know that you're busy watching over them, but a woman could use a haunt, ya know...
7/25/06
I see you in the sun and the moon and the stars!
Happy Birthday Baby!
I Love you so much!
Love,
Mom
PS-Momma could use a haunt too
7/29/06
Hey Megan and Roy,
I want to tell you what I just saw. I went back to the garden and was weeding and something moved in the corner. Have you seen them yet? 2 really little rabbits. They are so cute. I left because I scared them but went back in the yard later and they are still there. I bet you Megan is having alot of fun with them. I didn't know they were there. I guess the sprinkler doesn't bother them. They made the garden complete. I miss you two so much. Take care and come see me soon. I love you both more than words can say.
Joy
8/2/06
I wish you would just come home.
I miss you so much!
8/3/06
Hey Megan,
Spread your wings. I need a haunt too. We all do. Embrace us in your wings and we will surely embrace you back. I Love you.
Joy
8/15/06
dear megan dear roy
i love you. you are special.
love leyna
8/15/06
Hi Megan,
Just wanted to share a piece of my dream the other night...
I was talking to your mom through a window. I was on a bus I think, and your mom was outside. When I turned my head a bit, I saw you in the reflection of the glass, standing right next to your mom. You were smiling a big smile, and I remember thinking in the dream how beautiful you looked. It was very nice and peaceful.
I Love you,
Tracy
8/16/06
Megan,
Today i sat looking at pictures and thinking of how much i really do miss you!
You always made every day so much fun! If we could not go swimming at grandpa jacks you would make something fun to do like go to the park or play at the kellys, whatever it was it was fun because you were!!! You would bye bright coler (like green,blue and others) hair dye and my mom would say just a stripe, but you would do a big stripe! Well i have to go i love you!
Ana
8/16/06
dear mom,
a few nights ago,
i saw a shooting star
but i didn't tell anyone.
i made a wish. a special wish.
isn't this cute?
it is a baby angel just for you!
you are the best mom in the world!
Cora
8/17/06
Megan,
Your spirit touches me more than anyone would understand. I wish I had a chance to know you.
dennis
8/17/06
Megan,
My life, my heart, my love:
Still hurting, still miss you, still cry for you.
Your desperately hurting mom
8/23/06
Dear Megan,
I miss you more than you know. Do you like the baby turtle I put in the garden for you? Shes so little and I thought maybe you could take care of her and watch her grow. I watched the movie Dragonfly again tonight. It just makes me think about you. I don't know why I feel like you are truely my Meganfly. I love you Megan with all my heart. Maybe you can give us some signs that you are happy and free.
Joy
8/30/06
Hi Megan,
I know for a fact now that I will never ever stop missing you. But I knew that anyway. Its still seems like yesterday the last time I saw you over here. Sam was showing you her halloween costume and you were taking mom out to see your new house. You had such a big smile that day. Your kids and Sam were going crazy about halloween and just being nutty kids. I wish I could see that again. Your girls are beautiful but not quite the same. I know none of us are though. I wish you could see my iguana. You would love him. Actually he's going on 2 years old now and today I found out for sure hes a he and not a she. I was hoping that he was a boy since they get bigger than the girls. He sort of showed me his manly parts today for the first time and if I hadn't just look at a picture of that it would have scared the pants off me. They normally stay on the inside and wow I hope he keeps them there.
Anyway so many things are going that I just keep thinking boy if Megan were here she would know how to handle this. Like mom. I know you would know how to talk to her and keep her calm and just deal with her. And all the kids we have been dealing with lately. I know you would be loving helping with them all. So hey how about coming around and helping me with all of it?
Sometimes I get really jealous that you and Roy are having so much fun together and I am not there too. I am sure that the 2 of you would be a riot. So many useless people in this world (in my opinion) why you and Roy? But then only the good seem to leave us.
Sorry I haven't been in the garden lately. I have more things to put out there but everytime I go outside I get bit up and I hate it. So as soon as the bugs go away I will be there again..
I love you Megan. Thank you for being part of my life forever.
Joy
9/6/06
Not a day goes by that I don't think about you
Megan.
Miss you.
Summer
9/9/06
So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees
I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
So I wondered how she hung around this place
Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me & Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight
She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge
Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think her death it must be killin' me
-Jakob Dylan-
9/22/06
I'm too tired to make it to the end of the street
Where are you Megan?
I am here and I am alone
9/23/06
Megan
I promise to always love and respect your mom. While I hold her in my arms at those times she is at her lowest I realize NOTHING will comfort her but the knowledge that
you are well and you love her. Try to pay her a visit if you can.
dennis
9/30/06
The Sunday after there was laughter in the air
Everybody had a kite
They were flying everywhere
And all our trouble went away
And it wasn't just a dream
All our trouble went away
And it wasn't just a dream
In the middle of the night
We try and try with all our might
To light a little light down here
In the middle of the night
We dream of a million kites
Flying high above
The sadness and the fear
Little sister just remember
As you wander through the blue
The little kite that you sent flying
On a sunny afternoon
Made of something light as nothing
Made of joy that matters too
How the little dreams we dream
Are all we can really do
In the middle of the night
The world turns with all of it's might
A little diamond colored blue
In the middle of the night
We keep sending little kites
Until a little light gets through
forever sister
10/4/06
Megan
Not a day goes by that I don't think of you.
I miss you still and always will.
Love, Tara
10/5/06
Dear Megan,
I have not written, BUT I have not forgotten you.......
I think of you always!
Please take care of those that are left behind...
Especially during this difficult month!!
Give grandpa a hug and kiss from me.
Till we meet again,
Love always,
Aunt Patty
10/13/06
Okay Megan. Diggsy contacted me, then he came to visit. When he and I went out, he turned to me and asked "Where's Megan when you need her?" Without a verbal response, I just cried at first because I didn't know, but then I started laughing because I know you're right here. You're in my heart, my memories, your girls, and even my tattoo!
Now I can finally have peace with Jes. You know how much that meant to me. You tried to make it happen so many times over the past 5 years, but life got in the way then. Thank you!!
BTW, I know you're working hard and making all kinds of things happen for those who love you, but I think you need a little "therapy" time too (and you know what I mean). I'll meet you tonight, Friday the 13th... at 9:00 p.m. Please be with me! We've had some good memories on this day before. Let's not stop them now!!
Love you, homeskillet!
Janis
10/22/06
Adieu, mes amis. Je vais la gloire
10/29/06
It's been said in so many different ways already,
but what it always comes down to is that there is
a sadness in the hearts of all who knew you and
miss you. That will never change.
For those whose lives you touched there will be a
gladness in their hearts as well. You brought
such happiness to all. The memories of you should
fill us with gladness. We celebrate your life
and the times we had with you.
We know you are happy where you are now. Its
difficult for us to understand, but just knowing
that you are happy should give us strength to move
forward.
I think of you and your family every day.
Prayers go out to all.
Ginger
10/29/06
Two years later you are still gone but not
forgotten.
I know that I will see you again some day.
Miss you!
Summer
10/30/06
Dear Megan,
I can't believe it has been two years. It seems as if is were a life time ago, but then again it seems as if it were just yesterday our life as we knew it ended.
You are missed more with every passing day!
Please continue to take care of Cora, Clare, your mom and dad, and Merry. My heart breaks for them every time I think of them, which is always.......Please continue to give them, and all your loved ones, the strength to go forward each day.
You are always in our thoughts!
Until we meet again,
Aunt Patty
Please give Grandpa a hug for me!
10/30/06
Hi Megan,
I love you! I think about you all the time and
always will. Someday we'll
all be together again. Until then............You
are loved very much!
Jill
10/30/06
Two years. Sometimes it seems like only yesterday, and other times it feels like a lifetime. Regardless, I think of you every day.
Words of wisdom from Nikolai (the ancient soul) when he saw me cry. First he hugs me. Then he tilts his chin down to deliver eye contact more closely and directly. With one hand on my shoulder and the other over my heart, he says:
“Don’t forget, most importantly, she is in your heart. So don’t worry, that means she is alive inside of you.”
11/13/06
"The scent of death surrounds me
And I am overwhelmed by it's beauty."
-Arlyn I can no longer find the world I once knew.
Sometimes, it seems too hard to go on.
Sometimes, I want to give up and join you.
I miss you so much Megan!
Do you know the depth of my love for you, the pain of my sadness?
11/23/06
BLESSED BE
I am thankful for many things, especially for being your mom
Thank-you
11/28/06
Not only is another world possible, she is on her way. On a quiet day, I can hear her breathing. Arundhati Roy
Please come home Megan!
11/30/06
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal
12/3/06
it is often said "glory be to those who are to come"
something in me whispers "glory be to those who have been"
Glory Be to you Megan
12/3/06
A rich man asked a Zen master to bless his family.
The master said, "Grand-Father dies, father dies, son dies."
12/7/06
It snowed today Megan. It was beautiful. I can only image how beautiful it was from your side of heaven!
Kiss Grandpa for me.
We love and miss you!
Aunt Patty
12/8/06
Dear Megan,
We are having the Borgman's Christmas Party Sunday. I know you will be there with us!
If you could give us some "orbs", it would make the party complete.
Until we meet again....
Love, Aunt Patty
12/10/06
In the solitude of my mind I whisper,
"Good-bye, my friend, good-bye."
Megan,
I will always, always love you.
Mom
12/15/06
Merry Christmas Megan!
Miss you and wish you were here.
Peace and love. ~ Tracy
12/16/06
Thanks for helping my ex-hole look like a complete peon this week. When I mentioned you, he folded.
It was classic. I love that you still have that power!
Go Girl!
Janis
12/24/06
In her arms, she holds hope for the world.
Merry Christmas Megan!
Love,
Mom
12/25/06
Dear sweet Megan,
Merry Christmas. I Love you with all my heart.
I will love you forever.
Joy
12/26/06
MERRY CHRISTMAS MEGAN!
LOVE,
AUNT PATTY
12/27/06
Christmas wasn't complete without you here.
Miss you.
Summer
1/15/07
Thank You Megan!
I was so scared but I knew I had you and Grandpa on my side listening to me/helping me. Thank you.......
Love,
Aunt Patty
1/22/07
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free.
Blackbird fly Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.
Blackbird fly Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
1/25/07
Think of you often. You are not forgotten
2/10/07
Dear Megan,
I miss you so much.
Love
Mom
2/11/07
Megan,
If you are there please help
3/2/07
I meant, said Ipslore bitterly, what is there in this world that truly makes living worth while? Death thought about it, Cats, he said eventually, Cats are Nice.
T. Pratchett
Dear Megan,
Dennis, the kids and I have moved to our new home. Felix was out catting around when I brought the rest of the cats home. I stopped by everyday to see if Felix had come home. I was so sad and afraid I would never see him again.
But he is home now and we are all happy.
I love you,
Mom
3/13/07
Thinking of you. With love, Tracy
3/23/07
Megan,
If Cora and Clair could not be with you, trust they are in the most capable hands they could be in. Merry and Jesse are two of the finest parents I have ever known.
4/2/07
These are the ordinary days
And all I need is you
4/8/07
dear megan
happy easter to you. you are the best ever. you are my favorite. i will never forget you. i love you.
love leyna
4/8/07
Dearest Megan,
Happy Easter. I love you very much and wish you were here with us all. A day doesn't go by that I don't think about you. I miss you.
Love Joy
4/8/07
Easter says you can put truth in a grave, but it won't stay there.
~Clarence W. Hall
Happy Easter Megan,
Love you
Miss you
Mom
5/4/07
Hi Megan, I want to thank you for the wonderful welcome you gave Paul. I felt it Saturday night. It was such a warm and happy feeling I had out of nowhere and I just knew you and Paul were hugging each other. It made me smile and feel that Paul is ok. The world has lost another wonderful person. But with you, Roy and Paul and dad and your grandpa its going to be a great place to come to. Megan thank you for sharing that with me. You are such a special person. I miss you and love you more than you know. Joy
5/6/07
Megan,
Just had the privelige of spending the evening with Cora and Clare. What beautiful sweet children. You should be very proud! Along with Ana and Eve they all make such a beautiful family. Jesse and Merry are wonderful parents, and the only thing missing is you. Think I saw you smiling down last night and wanted to say hello.
5/13/07
Happy Mother's Day Megan.
I wish you were here to celebrate it with your
beautiful girls.
Love,
Summer
6/5/07
Hi Megan,
I hope you like what I am doing to try to help animals. You are a big inspiration to me to do this. I will never forget the rabbit you found with a broken leg and took him to the vets and visited him everyday. I miss you Megan and your beautiful smile. I love you so much it hurts. Help me with the animals Ok?
Forever love
Joy
6/8/07
I miss you so much, Megan
Love
Mom
6/11/07
Dear Megan,
I have not written lately, but you are NEVER forgotten!
Please give Grandpa a hug for me.
Love always......
Aunt Patty
6/17/07
Dear Mom,
How are you doing? We all miss you lots!!
I love you so much. I wish you were still with us.
Love,
Cora
Oh here is a flower just for you!!!
6/27/07
Hey Mom just wanted to say hi and I love you!
Love,
Cora
7/3/07
Your absence has gone through me
Like thread through a needle
Everything I do is stitched with its color.
~W.S. Merwin
Megan,
I think about you always.
I will miss you forever!
Love,
Mom
7/6/07
Dear Megan,
I saw Merry, Cora and Clare at Summer's birthday party Saturday. You must be so very PROUD of them!
Your daughters are beautiful....inside and out, just as you are. Merry is doing such a terrific job!! Your love shines through all of them.
Eve was there also looking just as beautiful. (Anna had previous plans but was surely missed)
Such a wonderful, blended family with a such a great love for you and each other that holds them all together!
Give Grandpa a hug and kiss for me please!
Until we meet again.....Love always,
Aunt Patty
7/14/07
Hey Megan and Roy,
Please Please do me a huge favor. I am sending Sydney your way soon. Please take care of him for me and reintroduce him to Rocky. If at all possible let me know you have him with you. This is so hard but I feel alittle better knowing you are there for him. I miss you so much. No words in this world can express how much I love and miss you both. I have to go now. I will talk to you later.
Love forever
Joy
7/25/07
To the angel
who watches over all of us, with all our
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEGAN!!
Ginger
7/25/07
Happy Birthday Megan!
We love you and miss you.
Remembering your smile, your sense of humor, your voice, and your gentle way with the little ones...
Your memory lives on...
Love always,
Tracy
7/25/07
"Fly free and happy beyond birthdays and across forever, and we’ll meet now and then when we wish, in the midst of the one celebration that never can end."
Richard Bach
All that is missing from my life is you
Happy Birthday Megan,
Love
Mom
7/25/07
Happy Birthday Megan!
Love,
Aunt Patty
7/25/07
Happy Birthday to You
Happy Birthday to You
Happy Birthday Dear Megan
Happy Birthday to You
Wish you could celebrate many more.
Love,
Summer
7/25/07
Happy 30th Birthday
Megan!!
I love and miss you soo.
Love,Tara
7/25/07
Dear Megan,
Happy Birthday. I love you so very much. I saw a dragonfly a couple of days ago. I always think that they are you. Fly high Fly free.
Love always
Joy
7/25/07
Megan,
You have been on my mind a lot lately. If birthdays are a reality in heaven, I hope yours was as special as you are. Your mom could use a howdy. She misses you deeply. Come to think of it, we all miss you deeply
dennis
7/30/07
Megan:
I don't always write to you here, but I have countless of conversations with you in my mind. Okay.... sometimes out loud. I still catch Nikolai, laying on the floor, cuddling up to your picture, and asking questions beyond his years. And sometimes I still cry... a little more often than I wish.
I miss you. But you already know that.
Love,
Betty
8/17/07
The priest who I work for at St James of the Valley Church uses this poem and I want to share it with all of you.
I'm sure this is the kind of message Megan would send to all of you. May it bring peace and comfort to you all.
Ginger
If You Could See Where I Have Gone
If you could see where I have gone, the beauty of this place
And how it feels to know you’re home, to see the Savior’s face
To wake in peace and know no fear, just joy beyond compare
While still on earth you miss me yet, you wouldn’t want me there
If you could see where I have gone.
If you could see where I have gone, had made the trip with me
You’d know I didn’t go alone, the Savior came with me.
When I awoke He was by my side, and reached down His hand and said
“Hurry, You’re going home, to a grand and glorious land.
Don’t worry over those you love, for I’m not just with you
And don’t you know with you at home, they’ll long to be here too?”
If you could see where I have gone, and see what I’ve been shown
You’d never know another fear, or ever feel alone.
You’d marvel at the care of God, His hand on every life
And realize He really cares, and bears with us each strife.
Add that He weeps when one is lost, His heart is filled with pain
But Oh! The joy when one comes home, a child at home again.
If you could see where I have gone, could stay a while with me,
Could share the things that God has made to grace eternity.
But, no, you couldn’t ever leave once heaven’s joy you’d know,
You couldn’t bear to walk earth’s paths once heaven was your home.
If you could see where I have gone.
If you could see where I have gone, you’d know we’ll meet some day.
And though I’ve parted from you now, that I am just away.
And now that I am home with Him, secure in every way,
I’m waiting here at heaven’s door, to greet you some sweet day.
9/2/07
Dear Megan,
I know its been awhile since I wrote to you. Sorry. Its hard to do. I would like to let you know that I will be letting the 2 coons I have lose soon. I did a bad thing and loved on them so much I think it might be hard for them on their own. I will keep a watch on them everyday to see if I see them. But if you could help them if they need it would you? Your so good with animals and I couldn't think of a better person than you to help them out. I haven't been hugging on them as much the past few days but it makes me sad and I always go and do it again. They really think I am mom. I figure in about 2 more weeks I will let them go and see if they want to leave. Have you seen my room from them? Wow especially today they have torn it apart. I give them toys and I made things for them to climb on but no they have to go after my stuff. Some how they made it to the window sill and knocked over everything. But I can't get mad at them because they are so cute. I hope you are doing great in your new journey. But boy do I wish you were here with us. I really do miss you. Fly high and fly free Megan. I will always love you.
Joy
9/12/07
Dear Megan,
I miss you so much!
Love,
Mom
9/14/07
Hi Megan,
I turned loose my 2 raccoons the other day. I also put fresh food and water out once a day for them. But everyday the food is gone and the water is dirty but they are still sitting up in the same tree. Can you make sure they are getting down to eat and move on to a safer place? I told them to listen to you so you could make sure they are safe. Thanks alot. I know I put alot on you but I know you love animals and you will help out. Your a wonderful person. Only I would rather have you here with us to touch and hug you. Ask God to help protect us here from anything bad. I am so paranoid about something happening to another one of us and leaving me behind. I can't handle any more losses. I know you and Roy and Paul and Dad are all happy and that helps me some. But it still hurts so bad not seeing you. And it doesn't help me miss you any less. I truely Love you and Miss you.
Joy
9/14/07
Wow Megan you work fast. Thanks. At least now I know they can get out ot the tree by themselves. But now help make them afraid of people. They were all over me and its hard to leave them. So help them move now. Thanks for letting me know that it is them that is eating the food and not something else. I love you so much.
Joy
9/15/07
Ok Megan that was too funny. I know you Roy were in on this. You had to be its got Roy written all over it. Good to see you both still have a sense of humor. But now lets get real ok? Megan when I asked you to take the coons someplace safe that didn't mean send them to me so they would sit up and cry momma at me. Now they are back in my room again and I already started disinfecting it. You goofballs. I am going to try again later today and this time please lead them someplace with a pond and trees in the wilds where they can live like raccoons and not my pets. Roy you go with her since you think its so funny. Ok? You guys are so silly. I miss you and that really was funny. Just like the old days.
Love Joy
9/28/07
I don't understand!
How can this be?
What happened?
How did it happen?
Why?
Why are you gone?
I miss you!
Love,
Mom
10/8/07
I sing softly to the wind, "Remember my child"
Dear Megan,
I wish you were here.
Love,
Mom
10/14/07
10/14/07
Dear Mom,
I miss you lots and love you lots.
It's almost halloween ^_^
Love,
Cora
10/23/07
God gave us memories so that we might have roses in December -- James M. Barrie
Remembering you and sending my love.
Tracy
Take care of my babies...
10/29/07
Dear Megan,
It has been three years and I have changed so much, I wish you could see how much i am like you. Everything about me is just how you were. I'm almost 18 and I'm still getting a tatoo and I'll bring you with me i promised you that and I'll keep it. I am going to hang the last picture of me, you, Merry and Jen in my cube at work I hope you don't mind. I miss you and love you sis and you will always be in my heart. I'll take care of the girls when I am with them. I like the little things you do to show me you are there do'nt stop please.
I love you,
your brother, Ray
10/30/07
I am an old woman now.
Often I rise at dawn and sing to you.
Sometimes in the evening, I sit and look.
I see you in the shadows, hear your laughter.
But it is only an old woman's dream.
And I cry.
10/30/07
Dear Megan,
Not a day goes by that you aren't thought of and
missed.
Love,
Summer
10/30/07
Dearest Sweet Megan,
Even with all the hustle and bustle going on right now you are always on my mind. I miss you with all my heart. I am wishing you a very very Happy Halloween. I love you ssssssooooooo much.
Joy
10/30/07
Megan:
3 years? Really?! Seems like just yesterday we
were throwin 'em back
and laughing at life. You taught me how to laugh
at life, thank you...
And thanks for looking over my boy when you can.
I know he talks to
you in his sleep. I can hear him. He misses you
as much as I do.
Love you.
Janis
10/30/07
Megan:
A lifetime ago just yesterday.
Missing you,
Betty & Nikolai
11/1/07
Dear Megan,
I am sorry I was unable to write to you Tuesday, but as always, you and your loved ones are always in my thoughts and prayers. Where has the time gone?! I can still see your smile and hear your laughter. But you continue to live thru all of us. You touched so many lives and we are all better people because of having known you.
Thank you for the dream the other night. It was BEAUTIFUL (and in color too) !!
Please continue to embrace us with your love and help us find a piece of the calm, happiness and peace you have found.
Continue to take care of your daughters, mom, dad, sisters and brothers and all of us who love you so very much....I know I speak for all when I say we could use it!
Please give Grandpa a hug and kiss from me!
Till we meet again,
Love always,
Aunt Patty
11/12/07
Dear Mom,
I miss you lots. We are leaving for Florida in a few days. I wish you were here to come with us.
Love You Lots,
Cora
11/22/07
... I'll meet you 'round the bend my friend, where hearts can heal and souls can mend...Riverbend
Happy Thanksgivings Megan,
I love you and miss you
Mom
11/22/07
Happy Thanksgiving Megan,
Fly free Fly High.
I love you.
Joy
12/2/07
We missed you tonight!
Your girls are beautiful. They remind me of you.
Summer
12/3/07
It's happening Megan
I'm so sorry.
I will never forget!
I miss you so much!
12/16/07
Merry Christmas Megan.
I think about you all the time.
Love and miss you!
Tracy
12/16/07
I remember when I was pregnant with you. I woke one night and saw a small child of about 2 standing next to my bed. I wasn't frightened, you were just looking at me and I was looking at you. The next day, I told grandma about it and she said, "That's your baby looking to see who his new mother is." (I thought the child was a boy)
After that day, I never thought about it again. Until......When you were 2 years old, you were bitten by a dog. The top teeth went in the top of your head, and the bottom went in your forehead. The doctor shaved the top of your head so he could stitch you up. The next day, I cut the rest of your hair very short. You looked like a little boy, except that your ears were pierced. A few days later, I caught you out of the corner of my eye. OH MY GOD! You are the child I saw by my bed! Grandma was right!
Please visit me now. I miss you so much.
12/17/07
i met you in my very first semester of college. i remember how you thought it was so cool that i was going to school. you would encourage me to go, ask me how my day at school was, then ask what homework i had. after i lost you i didn't want to go back. i knew, though, that you would want me to keep going. megan, i kept going and yesterday i finally graduated!
12/23/07
Megan, I don't know if anyone else felt your presence last night, but I know you were with us. I sensed your warm smile. I sensed your delight at how well your babies are adjusting and growing. I sensed your motherly love. Please visit us often as it warms my/our hearts.
12/25/07
"It is Christmas in the heart that puts Christmas in the air."
- W. T. Ellis
Merry Christmas Megan!
I love you
Mom
12/30/07
A Morning Wish" W.R. Hunt
"The sun is just rising on the morning of another day, the first day of the new year. What can I wish that this day, that this year, may bring to me?
Nothing that shall make the world of others poorer, nothing at the expense of others; but just those few things which in their coming do not stop with me but touch me rather, as they pass and gather strength:
Happy New Year Megan
Love
Mom
1/31/08
I miss you Megan,
Love,
Mom
2/14/08
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY MEGAN....!
Love,
Aunt Patty
2/14/08
"If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you've made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand."
-Unknown
Happy Valentine's Day
Love,
Mom
2/19/08
Megan,
It's suppose to snow again tonight. Make it a BIG one but please keep everyone safe!
We all continue to miss you! Give grandpa a hug and kiss for me.
Love,
Aunt Patty
2/29/08
From delusion lead me to Truth
From darkness lead me to Light
From death lead me to eternal life.
3/12/08
Dear Megan,
I wish that you were here or that I were there, or that we were together anywhere!
I miss you so!
3/23/08
Happy Easter Megan.
Logan asked who you were when we went to the
cemetary today. I told him you were my cousin and we
were best buddies when we were little just like
him and Zane are now. He understood that. I
think of us when I see them together.
Miss you.
Summer
3/29/08
Hi Megan,
Lincoln's been reminding me of you when you were little. (I think your mom said you used to like baby wipes.) Well, he's cracking me up lately by trying to get at the baby wipes. He likes to play with them, then he'll suck on them (ooow!) and bite them into pieces. He just laughs when I play with him and try to pull them away from him. Then, when I tell him not to stick them back in his mouth, he smiles or giggles and puts them back in his mouth. :) I can just envision you doing the same thing with your mom and dad.
It's going to be a long, rough journey with this one...he's a handful, but he's wonderful! I know from stories that you put in your share of rough spots for your mom and dad too but look how you grew into such a wonderful, caring, and vivacious person!
You are so deeply missed, Megan. I realize that it is so important to cherish the journey, all the good with the not-so-good. I still cry for you and other loved ones, the hurt does not go away, but I do believe that God has a plan for us. I believe that this life on earth was given to us as a gift, and we were blessed to have you as a part of our lives. We will learn the answers in time.
My love always,
Tracy
4/4/08
“We will never forget them nor the last time we saw them as they prepared for their journey and waved goodbye and 'slipped the surly bonds of earth to touch the face of God.'”
John Gillespie Magee
4/14/08
Dear Megan
Please welcome Julia
Do what you can to help her family
Love
Mom
4/24/08
One day you and me are going to run and never stop.
You can teach me to fly and not look down.
5/11/08
Somehow, you always found a way to bring light to my life.
Somehow, some way, I will bring light to your children.
Love
Mom
5/12/08
Thinking of you and remembering you as such a wonderful mom.
I know you are a gentle presence within your girls now.
All my love Megan.
Tracy
6/20/08
Dear Megan,
Please help Walter to find his way home. Show him the light so he will find the peace he so desperately needs and deserves.
Give Grandpa a hug for me!
Love always,
Aunt Patty
7/20/08
Happy Birthday Megan, I know you are watching from above.
7/22/08
Dear Megan,
If you feel like crying, I will cry with you
If you want to run away, I will run with you
If you need me, I will be there
I need you now
Love,
Mom
7/23/08
Megan,
I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I miss you soo much. I wish we would have had more time together and I am sorry for all the stupid crap that went on between us. I can't wait til the day that we will meet again so that tell you how sorry I am & how much I love you and always have. I hope that you know that now.
Love,
Tara
7/24/08
Megan,
Please keep an eye on Grandma. Do what you can to make her feel more comfortable.
Maybe you could visit her at lunch just like old times.
Although, I guess you are visiting her. She doesn't seem to know most people, but when I mention you, she smiles and says, "Oh yeah! Megan."
Love,
Mom
7/25/08
There was a star danced, and under it you were born.
Happy Birthday Megan!
I love who you were
I love who you are
I love who you would have been
Mom
7/25/08
Happy Birthday Megan!!
Love, Tara & Devin
7/25/08
Happy Birthday, Megan!
Love,
Steve, Tracy, and the boys
7/25/08
Happy Birthday Megan.
I wish you were here to grow old with me!
Love,
Summer
7/25/08
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEGAN!
You continue to be missed more with each passing day!
Love always,
Aunt Patty
7/26/08
Sorry I'm a day late - HAPPY BIRHTDAY, MEGAN!
Love
Ginger
8/26/08
Dear Megan,
I miss you everyday!
Please help Ryan.
Keep an eye on Alek for me.
Help Veronica deal with school and Alek's leaving.
I love you so
Mom
9/20/08
Dear Megan,
I know you're probably already doing this, but I just wanted to ask that you watch over my mom. I know you were so great with her, and you had such a wonderful bond. She loved spending time with you. I can't stop thinking about her. I love her so much. Thank you for looking out for her from above.
All my love,
Tracy
9/24/08
Eadem mutata resurgo
10/16/08
It isn’t for the moment you are struck that you need courage, but for the long uphill climb back to sanity, faith and security-Anne Morrow Lindbergh
I'm working very hard to get there Megan.
That sanity thing just seems to elude me.
I love you
Mom
10/30/08
I have changed. I have become more restless, confused, and almost desperately curious about Pascal’s bet and the answer to Life, The Universe and Everything.
I don’t know who I am. I don’t remember who I was. I look in the mirror and I see nothing at all.
I thought I knew how much had been lost that day, but as I look back from this 'high hill of old age,' I see unlived dreams and the memory of laughter.
You left behind sisters and brothers who listen for your voice.
You left behind children and friends whose lives will always be emptier for missing you.
I want so desperately to tell them. To hold them close and whisper to them… I will be all right
I need to find the way to some quiet place where you are.
This life is so dark; the pulsing madness is deep and close.
My soul is now locked away in the room behind my heart.
The further out I walk the more peaceful my soul becomes.
Love forever
Mom
Tell me this welcome peace isn’t dancing with the ghosts of future tears. See how the flowers fall. See how the trees bend, hear the heavens hush. Feel how the earth fades
-Detweilel
10/30/08
Like a tree
She stands like a tree
with her roots in heaven
blossoms with shining jewels
in an arrangement of seven
Flowers of purple, yellow and white
glow from her with a brilliant light
her branches reach out to lonely ones
and gives them warmth from the distant sun
She whispers softly
pure and simple words
her voice is so gentle
like a sweet singing bird
She grows in love, peace and harmony
beauties that are both good and free
-David Brunner
10/30/08
Four years later you are still missed as much as you were the first day you were gone.
Love,
Summer
10/30/08
Dear Megan,
It's hard to believe it's been 4 years. You are missed more with every passing day. The sun is shining but a shadow of darkness covers all of our lives.
You will always be remembered and loved!
Until we meet again, Love -
Aunt Patty
11/2/08
Megan,
Pendant que le mystère de votre vie se non installe, la manifestation de votre vie s'étendra sur les générations
Tout ce que nous pouvons faire est font tout le possible pour suivre la lumière que vous avez allumée pour nous
La vie n'est pas douce pour ceux vous avez distancé. Envoyez s'il vous plaît à votre famille la force pour vous occuper de leur abysse
La vie n'est pas douce pour ceux vous avez distancé. Envoyez s'il vous plaît à votre famille la force pour vous occuper de leur abysse
11/21/08
Dear Megan,
Please welcome Walter.
Love always,
Aunt Patty
12/14/08
Tonight a star will shine for you.
The light of thousands of candles all around the world.
Tonight, thoughts will be of you and of all the children of my friends.
Tonight a star shines for them.
Love
Mom
12/25/08
Merry Christmas Megan!
I give you the only thing that lasts longer than time--My Love
Mom
1/1/09
“The beginning and the end reach out their hands to each other” Chinese Proverb
Happy New Year Megan
Love
Mom
1/15/09
I am missing you very much.
I wish I could give you a hug.
I am so sad and lonely.
I love you baby.
1/18/09
Megan,
Je sais que j'ai promis de soigner votre maman et la protéger. Je suis désolé qu'elle ne me permette plus de l'atteindre. Peut votre ascenseur d'esprit elle de son obscurité, libérer ses démons et lui apporter dans la lumière qu'elle mérite si vraiment d'apprécier.
1/29/09
My sadness is so large
It's too much for one person
2/22/09
Above all the grace and the gifts that Christ gives to his beloved is that of overcoming self.
St. Francis of Assisi
Dear Megan,
Please help me get this right.
3/14/09
Dear Megan,
As you know Thursday is my 19th birthday and this entire thing still doesn’t feel real. To me this isn’t real, I just want to wake up and everything be back to normal. I am having trouble facing the truth my sister is gone. That is why I never come to visit so please don’t be mad at me for that. As for that tattoo it’s coming and I’ll still bring you! Your girls are getting so big now. Every time I see them I think of you. It seems everyday something I see or a song I hear reminds me of you. We have the same taste in music and nothing will every change that. I have so much to say and can’t even put it into words. I know about three weeks ago I kept dreaming of you for about four days straight, if only I knew what you were saying. But for my birthday wish, I just want you to be able to tell me you are fine. I love you Megan and I always will sis.
Your brother,
-Ray
4/12/09
On Easter Day the veil between time and eternity thins to gossamer.
Douglas Horton
4/12/09
Happy Easter Megan
I love you and miss you so much
Mom
4/14/09
Megan,
Quand j'ai besoin de valadation et la force une visite à ce site apporte le confort à mon âme. Merci d'être là
5/10/09
For the hand that rocks the cradle-is the hand that rocks the world--William Wallace
Happy Mother's Day Megan
Kiss your girls softly as they sleep
They miss you so
I miss you too
Love
Mom
5/10/09
Dear Megan,
I think of you often. As I read the children's books that you gave me for the boys, I am reminded of you. Many things, some unexpected, spark memories of you. You are truly missed.
Happy Mother's Day to a wonderful mom.
Love,
Tracy
5/10/09
Happy Mothers Day Megan. Your spirit and your legacy continue to comfort and amaze me. Thank you for that.
6/7/09
Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell. ~Edna St Vincent Millay
Where are you?
I miss you!
Love
Mom
6/14/09
Have you heard?
Skydiving party for your birthday!
I'm sooooo excited!
You will be there won't you?
I can't wait!
I love you Megan Mae
Mom
7/12/09
Megan, your smile is infectious. Enjoyed chatting with you the other day. Please continue to watch over and pray for everyone.
7/25/09
Happy Birthday Megan!!
We love and miss you soo much.
Love Always,
Tara & Devin
7/25/09
Megan,
It has been a long time since we have seen your smile, heard you laugh, or had a good time with the family like we used to... there is not a day that goes by that I do not think of you... you are and forever will be missed deeply, not only by me but by everyone who you shined your light on... so today Megan is your day! Happy Birthday Megan! I miss you! And I will always love you!
Happy Birthday!
Love,
Your Brother,
Ray
7/25/09
May all your dreams come true!
Happy Birthday Megan!
Love,
Mom
7/25/09
Sending a birthday hug up to heaven for you.
Love,
Summer
7/25/09
DEAR MEGAN,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
LOVE ALWAYS,
AUNT PATTY
7/25/09
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEGAN
7/25/09
Happy Birthday, Megan!
All our love,
Steve, Tracy, and the boys
8/14/09
Serenity is not freedom from the storm, but peace amid the storm.
9/12/09
Hope you join us today for our visit with Ryan.
Bring Sarah too.
10/30/09
How I wish you didn't have to leave us
10/30/09
You can shed tears that she is gone
Or you can smile because she has lived
You can close your eyes and pray that she will come back
Or you can open your eyes and see all that she has left
Your heart can be empty because you can’t see her
Or you can be full of love that you shared
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday
You can remember her only that she is gone
Or you can cherish her memory and let it live on
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn you back
Or you can do what she would want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.
~David Harkins
Megan,
I miss you so much. I wish that we didn't waste so much time being mad or fighting over the stupid stuff. I would give anything to go back and change things. Thank you for all of the time that we did have together and the many memories. I will cherish them forever.
Until we meet again!
Love Always
Tara
10/30/09
Megan,
You are so missed.
Please watch over your girls, your mom, and all who love and miss you.
