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Behind These Hazel Eyes
April 22, 2005
Seems like just yesterday...
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: iTunes
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
*Kelly Clarkson
____________________________________________________

I am at a loss of words...nothing is the same...I'm torn...

Staring at all the things
That remind me
All the memories in front of me
I don't wanna pack them away
But I did
Cause I cry, every time
Every single time
I stop to think about what I've done
I just needed time to think
Nothing else
NO ONE that could mean as much
Although you think there is
I'm in love with someone that I just threw away
My eyes are filled with tears
What else
Rationalizing, analyzing
Instead of following my heart
Time will heal...or won't it?
Just wait til' next week
Will things be better?
Or harder?

Memories
Packed in a box
But not out of my head, my heart, or my soul
Roses, froggies, Presque Isle, My first real kiss, being in love, polka-dot halter matching your foot stool, fighting our 3 sec. fights, parties, movie nights, frizzy hair, camp, lying in bed melting into each other, calling me beautiful, Abercrombie, Hollister, Frank, May 4th, the dark, JHS, 11, stealing a lei out of your locker, Steve, Jill, Mari"hoe", my name engraved in a heart box, angel hands, my pink watch, cards, chocolates, my cupcake candle holder, my flower necklace, your bed/bedroom, brownies, Hawaii, Elle from the musical, bathroom at the Reg, Drum Line, "My Girl, my girl, my girl, talkin' bout' my girl", Beauty and the Beast, my green shirt, curly hair, "alwats", all your spelling mistakes, my blue scrapbook, Cellular, Paparazzi, 8th grade formal, Homecoming, lady bug bracelet, picking pea pods, acquiring a second family, crying, laughing, hugging, sleeping, snow, Christmas, Erie, LOVE...memories I've had with you, ALL with you. I love you, that'll never change, it hasn't yet, and if you think it has...all I have to say is, I'll love you forever my baby.



Posted by stars5/imagination at 6:49 PM EDT
Updated: April 24, 2005 5:31 PM EDT
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April 4, 2005
It's Been A Long Time
Mood:  chatty
Now Playing: Nothing, waiting for my love to call...
Topic: My favorite...
I know it's been a long time since I've updated...but I've been busy with school. This is all for now!

"You have the hands of angels"




I love Erie...and backseats!

Have a Nice Day! :)

Posted by stars5/imagination at 1:35 PM EDT
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February 28, 2005
Summary of my Break
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: Memory by Sugarcult
Topic: hum de dum...
Hey again...I wanted to write about my mid-winter break and what I did during it. I don't remember in order of all the things, but I don't care.
OK, so I went to the Phantom of the Opera with Kristen and it was sooooo good! Ahh, the music was phenominal! I can't wait til' it comes out on video so I can see it again. I also went to Jake's house with Kristen and Danny and we watched the Grudge and hung out there. Hmm, I also went to Erie to visit my grandpa and I went to the mall with my mom for an hour and a half. I got some shirts from Aero there. I also went to our mall and got some stuff...jeans at American Eagle and a blue tank with lace from Old Navy. I am a shopaholic. lol. Oh, and I also went to Kelsey's house with Kristen and we played Monopoly! (haha I won!) And another ball game thingy. Then we just talked the rest of the time. It was fun! Then, just this past Saturday, I had Jake over from 7 to 9:30 to watch "Cellular". It was really fun, and I hadn't seen him in a week. So basically, that was my break. It was fun overall...I just didn't want to go back to school and homework. BLAH! :( Well, I'm gonna go listen to more of my music, and pack my swimsuit b/c I have pool tomorrow. Ick, again!
TTYL
~Ashley



Posted by stars5/imagination at 7:22 PM EST
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February 21, 2005
What I've Been Doin'
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Michelle Branch
Topic: Jake's house... etc.
On Saturday the 19th I went to Jake's house with a couple of people at 7 pm....Kristen and Danny. We watched the Grudge and then hung out upstairs for awhile and talked. Then we all left at around 10 pm. and I had to take Kristen and Danny home.
Then, on Sunday, I went to Erie with my family to visit my Grandpa in the hospital. Jake ended up going with his family too. I went to the mall with my mom while Adam and my Dad stayed at the hospital. I saw Ashley Martin and Katie Ingerson at one of the restaurants there. I found some clothes at Aero. and I looked in Hollister too. We ate dinner at Max and Erma's then came home.
Today I had a dentist app. at 10 am. in Warren and I ate lunch with my mom and Adam at Dairy Queen. After I came home and called Kristen but she couldn't come to the mall with me because she was grounded from the mall because she "has been spending too much $$ lately" so I called Jake and was gonna go with his little sister (10 years, Olivia) and she called her Dad but he wouldn't let her go. So I ended up going with Meggie!! It was really fun and I got some Capri's, 2 Cami's, a little "cowboy" blouse from Aero, and a free lip gloss I had a coupon for from Bath and Body. Then we went to Sears to see her mom and that's where I got the Capri's and Cami's, they are so CUTE! lol. Alright, so that's about it.
Tomorrow, hmm, I think I'll end up doing something with Jake alone, or in a group. Maybe a movie...I hope so. I miss him!



Gotta Go Though, Bachlorette is on tonight!!
~*Ashley*~

Posted by stars5/imagination at 6:41 PM EST
Updated: February 21, 2005 6:45 PM EST
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February 18, 2005
Poem for a friend...
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Nick Lachey
Topic: Another poem:
Is There Something There?

She wants it so bad
Something that so many have
Valentine's is approaching, and she's still alone
She wonders if she'll ever find the one in time
She cries at night, wishing he would come
Her knight in shining armor, to come and whisk her away
To a place she'd rather stay
And be held in his arms
Comfortable and dreamy
In a fairy-tale world
So far, she's scheming
She sees this one
She feels his pain
Alone and tired of untrusting souls
His eyes show his pain
Tired of people who break his heart
Love had captured him
And suddenly would flee
Leaving his heart open
No sign of locking it up
No sign of a key
She's the only one that can close him up
He needs that again
So does she,
the security of someone's arms
Is there something there?
A new beginning
For both needy souls
A chance to regain trust
It's all there, the verge of an opening
To a new path of emotions
Is something there?
I can see it in their eyes
The way it all plays out
There's no reason to doubt
Just open up, and let her in
There's something there.



~Ashley

Posted by stars5/imagination at 2:03 PM EST
Updated: February 18, 2005 2:06 PM EST
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Snow Day!
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Kelly Clarkson
Topic: What's been going on...
Well, today is the last day before our split up "spring break" and we got a snow day. Which is kinda good b/c I had a long musical practice last night and I didn't finish my spanish homework. But, on the bad side of things, I don't get to see Jake or any of my other friends. I guess a lot has been going on, I went to Megan's house the other night to hang out with a small group of people. Jake came over after Guilder's. My best friend also wrote a note to Ryan, and told him that she liked him, and that was kind of stressful. People were turning it in to something that was retarded, and they just were being stupid about it.
I'm not sure what I'm doing today, I guess I'll just wait until someone calls me. I'm not sure if Jake was going to have a movie night at his house tonight or tomorrow. I hope so, because I am bored, and I miss him. But, I guess I'm gonna get on another site, so I'll write again some other time.



Posted by stars5/imagination at 9:51 AM EST
Updated: February 18, 2005 6:11 PM EST
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February 12, 2005
Songs from Ry...
Mood:  surprised
Now Playing: Come On by Ben Jelen
Boulevard of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone
Read between the lines of what's
Messed up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk away!

Breathing

Eyes are feeling heavy but they never seem to close
The fan blades on the ceiling spin but the air is never cold
And even though you are next to me I still feel so alone
I just can't give you anything for you to call your own
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking like a wave
Something I've been keeping locked away behind my lips
I can feel it breaking free with each and every kiss
I couldn't bear to hurt you but it's all so different now
Things that I was sure of, they have filled me up with doubt
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking like a wave
I can feel you breathing
It's keeping me awake
Could you stop my heart? It's always beating.
Sinking like a wave
How am I supposed to feel about the things I've done?
I don't know if I should stay or turn around and run
I know that I hurt you, things will never be the same
The only love I ever knew, I threw it all away
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking like a wave
I can feel you breathing
It's keeping me awake
Could you stop my heart? It's always beating.
Sinking like a wave

Shellshocked

Lies won't save you from the bomb that you just dropped
I'm standing shellshocked but I'm still here
And this to you is what I'm saying
All that's false will
Fade away
You run away from what you know will surely come
I will remember everything that you have done
And this to you is what I'm saying
All that's false will
Fade away
I'll say it again because
Who are you
To say to me
That I'm not all right
You don't know it's like
I'm shellshocked
And ripped apart inside
No I'm not all right
You don't know what it's like
Well yeah a change in character is great
And if it's what you need to say
It's probably what I need to hear
But never again in that way
I don't care what I'm doing that turning you off of me
It's my care for pursuing our friendship responsibly
That's why I need to reconstruct what happens subconsciously
So we don't continue to treat our silence so obnoxiously
Lies won't save you from the bomb that you just dropped
I'm standing shellshocked but I'm still here
And this to you is what I'm saying
All what's false will
Fade away

"Rank-N-File"

I'm standing with the rank-n-file,
I'm marching with the underground,
Our black hearts worn on our sleeves!
Let my imagination go and drop me where i feel most scared.
Snap back already giving thanks, i'm not trapped working in a sweatshop somewhere.
This songs for those less fortunate, locked in a world where both ends aren't meant to meet.
I'm standing with the rank-n-file,
I'm marching with the underground,
our black hearts worn on our sleeves.
I'm standing with the rank-n-file,
I'm marching with the underground,
our black hearts worn on our sleeves!
Let my imagination go and drop me where i feel most scared.
Synaptic flashes in my head then total thanks again, I'm not soldiering somewhere.
This songs for the countless souls, who died in vain for someone else's gain.
I'm standing with the rank-n-file,
I'm marching with the underground,
our black hearts worn on our sleeves.
I'm standing with the rank-n-file,
I'm marching with the underground,
our black hearts worn on our sleeves.
Left my birthplace for forgeign streets to strange places, new faces i flew.
Shoeless kids stood on the corner, their eyes they were transfixed on you.
So i'm standing with the rank-n-file,
I'm marching with the underground,
ohhh my black heart worn on my sleeve.
I'm standing with the rank-n-file,
I'm marching with the underground,
with our black hearts worn on our sleeves, ALRIGHT!
I'm standing with the rank-n-file,
I'm marching with the underground,
our black hearts worn on our sleeves.
I'm standing with the rank-n-file,
I'm marching with the underground,
our black hearts worn on our sleeves.
I'm standing with the rank-n-file,
I'm marching with the underground,
our black hearts worn on our sleeves.
I'm standing with the rank-n-file,
I'm marching with the underground,
our black hearts worn on our sleeves.

There will be more, but I don't know the titles, so I have to get them.
BYE!





Posted by stars5/imagination at 2:05 PM EST
Updated: February 18, 2005 10:21 AM EST
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I'm 15!
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Topic: 12:29 THIS AFTERNOON
Hey again! I had my party last night. It was lotsa fun. I opened my gifts:
Kristen: 3 lotions from Bath and Body
Little Bottle of hairspray
Perfume
Really adorable heart socks

Kristin: $10 to Claire's

Danny: money

Ryan: $5

Megan: money

Joella: money

Jake: 1/2 dozen roses, sterling silver heart box with my name engraved, and a box of chocolates.

Adam (brother): Frog pillow, and frog stickers.

We talked and ate lots of candy and cake. And at 12:29 today, I turned 15! Yay!

Posted by stars5/imagination at 1:16 PM EST
Updated: February 18, 2005 10:25 AM EST
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February 11, 2005
YAY!!
Mood:  party time!
Now Playing: Skye Sweetnam
Topic: Almost time for my party!
Finally, it is almost time for my party to begin!
I have been waiting for this forever!
I have invited:
Kelsey (unfortunately she couldn't make it)
Kristen
Kristin
Jake
Ryan
Danny
Megan
Joella
And of course myself!

*We got an ice cream cake and pretty yellow and pink streamers! I have to get ready pretty soon. It's at 7:00 pm. and it is 5 min. of six! I can't wait, it should be fun. We're going to play Taboo, and watch Napolean Dynamite! Probably go upstairs to my room and listen to music and then hang out and talk for awhile. I'm having it until 10 pm. Jake is gonna give me my Valentine gift tonight too, so I get a two for one deal. lol. Aww, he's so sweet! I love him! Gotta go!



WBS
*Ashley

Posted by stars5/imagination at 5:56 PM EST
Updated: February 18, 2005 6:13 PM EST
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February 9, 2005
Please Read
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Girl All the Bad Guys Want
Topic: Poems I made in math 2day
(Well, this one is supposed to be a song.)

(I guess it doesn't have a title yet.)
The windows seem to fade away.
The floor caves in beneath my feet.
Running as the darkness sets in behind me.
Oh, whyyy me.
I'm runnin' and I and I can't escape from what is chasin' me.
Ohhh, I can't seem to run away to leave this sorry world behind me.

Chorus: Help, please stay away
Take me to a far away world;
A world where flowers bloom, and everything will go away...just go away, hey-ay.

You tell me yes, you tell me no.
But I can't run away from my own past.
You're chasin' me, just get away, and leave me as a stray.

Chorus: Help, please, stay away.
Take me to a far away world;
A world where flowers bloom, and everything will go away...just go away
Hey-ay!

Just leave me as a stray and go away, cause I don't need you anyway.


Shadow
I just can't talk, the way I want
It's all because of you
You make me crazy
The words and thoughts cross
It's not your loss or my loss
It's all because of you,
The way you look, how you percieve the world
My words spill out in front of you
You turn and stare, not knowing what could've been there
"You are everything to me"
My eyes widen
As the voices I've kept in my head are released
"All I ever wanted was you"
Your eyes, like stars, the words cut deep
"You never knew I existed"
My stomach feels hollow
I want to flee but I don't want to leave
I want you ro take me in your arms, tell me it's alright
But you never will...
I wake up from my fantasy dream
It never was true
It never will be
I'll never have the courage to even walk up to you
I'll always be a shadow to you

Time

Staring at the windows
Looking through the door
What is her purpose here?
To feel the world through one peice of glass?
Her purpose is lost in space
She's lost all hope
Her painless heart
That's all that's left of her
No one tried to see her pain
They said, "There's no one but her to blame"
A lost cause
A poor innocent suol
One that's crawling on the floor
If someone had helped her
She might have seen,
the hope, the peace, the serennity
But the judging eyes, wandered wistfully
Past her presence, blissfully
So now there's nothing left of her
Nothing but the eyes that see the world
Now she's looking from above Through a skewed piece of glass
Just waiting for the time to pass

Thanks for reading...please do not copy without my permission. All of the previous were written by me, Ashley. Thanks!
I'll write later.



Posted by stars5/imagination at 5:07 PM EST
Updated: February 18, 2005 10:52 AM EST
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February 7, 2005
February 7th, 2005
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: absolute silence, AHHH!
Topic: Yawn
Wow, yesterday and Saturday were very busy weekends. I ended up babysitting Mr. Lydell's kids on Saturday from 6-midnight. I was very, very tired. None of the kids would go to bed. Then on Sunday, I had choreography at CRYB from 1-5 and then I had to babysit again from 6-9. No I didn't watch the Super Bowl. I know, I know what you must be thinking. Is she crazy? Well, to tell you the truth, I hate football, unless I go to see a high school football game. I don't understand it whatsoever! lol. Sorry to disappoint any of those gung-ho football fans. :0 I have Math homework to do tonight. It's pretty easy...so I won't be pulling my hair out while I'm doing it. I also have to take pool now, I have it on Thursday, and I don't want to take it at all and I am gonna look like a total train wreck!! lol. Well, I have to make Valentine's ahead of time for all my Valentine's!! Gotta Go!
~Ashley~

Posted by stars5/imagination at 5:42 PM EST
Updated: February 7, 2005 5:44 PM EST
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February 5, 2005
Writing
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: A decade under the influence!
Topic: Just writing stuff
Today is Saturday, and I am bored b/c I'm grounded. I got a call from Mr. Lydell though and I'm babysitting tonight from 6-12pm. and tomorrow night from 6-9pm. I have musical choreography practice from 1-5 too tomorrow. I am going to be VERY tired! I have a lot of Math homework over the weekend, and Earth Science too.
I have a predicament, and I can't write about it, but I just wanted to say it. OOOKKAAY, So, the Valentine's Day dance was cancelled, so my beautiful red dress gets to sit in my closet until another dance. :( I am sad. Plus, I don't get to go to dinner that night b/c I got grounded. So I will not be doing much on my official b-day. Friday though, I am having my friends over to the house to watch a movie and stuff for a "party" I guess. Then on Sunday, a day after my b-day, my family is coming over for my family party. I'm kind of excited. I hope I get the Kelly Clarkson CD for one of my gift's because I love the song "Behind These Hazel Eyes". ~Ashley...I love froggies!!

Posted by stars5/imagination at 11:28 AM EST
Updated: February 5, 2005 11:23 AM EST
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February 2, 2005
Hi again...
Mood:  amorous
Now Playing: The Calling
Topic: What does amorous mean?
Ah-ha! Amorous: Indicative of love or desire; Of or associated with love; Being in love
Great! I learned a new word!! Yeah!

Before I start, if this is the first time you've been to this web page, read the whole site from the bottom, up. I'll explain further into my entry. Okay, continue.

Okay, so I had another thrilling day at school. When we went back on Tuesday we got a list of all our new classes. Now I have English, Earth Science, Spanish, Chorus, Lunch, and Algebra. Yuck, I am going to have so much homework. English is not cool, I have like a whole bunch of "lower level" kids in that class and I am like sooooo far ahead of them, THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY'RE DOING! IT'S SOO FRUTRATING!
Alright, I'll explain what I put at the top, because I realized this the other day. The entry I put in first, goes to the bottom, so you should really read from the bottom up, because my autobiography is at the bottom. Okey dokey? K.
Well, I have play practice from 6-9 @ the Reg Lenna so I have to go work on other stuff I have to get accomplished. TTYL Mwaaaa!
*Ashley
PS. I made a quiz for you to take Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com!">MY QUIZ!



Posted by stars5/imagination at 4:24 PM EST
Updated: February 18, 2005 6:15 PM EST
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January 31, 2005
Web Sites I Recommend
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Nothing
Topic: Links

virtual pets site with cool games

Make your own quiz and send it to your friends to see how well they REALLY know you

clothes, accessories, and anything imaginable

Great for searching or starting your own email account

Customize
your own music based on your preference...listen to the latest hits.


My best friend's web page

take any quiz imaginable and see your results

Posted by stars5/imagination at 4:49 PM EST
Updated: February 18, 2005 2:13 PM EST
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Quotes
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Hanson
Quotes:

**A girl asked a guy if she was pretty, he said no.
She asked him if he wanted her, he said no.
She asked him if she left would he cry, he said no.
She turned to leave, he grabbed her arm and said..you're not pretty; you're beautiful. And I don't want you; I need you.
And I wouldn't cry if you left; I would die.

**Life was so simple when boys had cooties.

**If you love someone, put their name in a circle, not a heart because hearts can break but a circle will go on forever.

**The best and most beautiful things in the world
cannot be seen or even touched.
They must be felt with your heart.
-Helen Keller

**It is love, not reason, that is stronger than death.
-Thomas Mann

**A hug can heal even the deepest wound.

**Listening is more important than talking.

**Love has more to do with letting go than holding on.

**Let us be grateful to people who make us happy; they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom.
-Marcel Proust

**Reflect upon your present blessings-of which every man has many-not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some.
-Charles Dickens

**Two kinds of gratitude: the sudden kind: we feel for what we take
and the larger kind: we feel for what we give.
-Edwin Robinson

**Always look at what you have left.
Never look at what you have lost.
-Robert Schuller

**You won?t be happy with more until you?re happy with what you?ve got.
-Viki King

**The highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them.
-John F. Kennedy

**I am beginning to learn that it is the sweet, simple things of life which are the real ones after all.
-Laura Ingalls Wilder

**Who does not thank for little will not thank for much.
-Estonian proverb

**When translated into Chinese, the Kentucky Fried Chicken slogan ?finger-licken good? came out as ?eat your fingers off.?

**Ahhh, I?m so tired I could fall asleep on this very keyjkasfhdsfk.

**I wear black because I am mourning that you exist.

**Friends are like bras: close to the heart and all about support.

**If one night a huge man climbs through your window, and stuffs you in a bag, don?t stress, I told Santa I wanted you for Christmas.

**Time is the best teacher, unfortunately it kills all of its students.

**I didn?t lose my marbles, I sold them on Ebay!

**A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you?ve forgotten it.

**Out of my mind, be back in 5 minutes.

**When we talked; we talked about everything. When we laughed; we laughed about nothing. When you were here, we were always together. But now your gone and it feels like forever. I won't talk with anyone the way I talked with you. I won't laugh with anyone the way I laughed with you. Nobody understands me the way you did. But I will always be to you, just a kid. Your interest have changed and mine stayed the same. Your mind is all blank and your heart is shattered. If you had only known how much you mattered. The people that hurt you will go on lie. But it is me, the one who loves you that you leave here alone to die.

**A friend will bail you out of jail, but a best friend will be sitting next to you saying dude that was awesome!

lol...I hope you liked them.
~Ashley

Posted by stars5/imagination at 9:48 AM EST
Updated: February 18, 2005 10:56 AM EST
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Hmm, I'm not really sure what else to put in...
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: well, starting to turn on my launch player
Topic: Poems maybe?
OK, I have made several poems, that several people have seen, but some haven't so I guess I'll put them in.

Believe
How am I supposed to contain these feelings?
They're ripping me apart inside.
I can't hide them from anyone, no matter who.
I can't ignore the fact that I can't sleep at night.
I can't forget about my endless plight.
The one that never goes away.
The one I am forced to fight.
I will never be able to until I can be with you,
day and night, cold or warm, dark or light.
The memories are with me everyday.
I have you but somehow I don't.
When you're away, I become someone I'm not.
The smile that you see and the glint in my eyes fade.
And when you're not with me, I can dream dreams
that help me stay alive.
But it still hurts.
And when the tears fall, you're not there to dry them off my cheek.
Mommy and Daddy take you away from me
because they are forced to face the fact that we are young.
Which is a fact we've faced too.
But we believe, we believe that we love each
other and that nothing can take that away.
So the only thing thats stopping me is the truth being hidden from people
who refuse to believe.
But I'm begging you, please believe, because memories
and a few precious moments cannot keep me going forever.

Eyes
I used to wonder why no one was for me, then I saw your eyes.
They say the eyes are the window to the soul.
So when I got a glimpse I knew you loved me.
All those years as friends seemed to make sense now.
The pools of blue are drowning me, will you save me?
The answer will always be yes, because you?d do anything amd everything in your power to make me happy.
You said it yourself, you told my best friend, in that letter you wrote, remember?
It was that day I saw your eyes, your soul, your heart, and mine at the same time.
I realized that I only needed you, not anyone else to make me shed tears.
You?re like a drug, keeping me alive and well.
?Cause I used to wonder why no one was for me, and then I saw your eyes.
I drowned in them, but at the same time I was rescued.

The following wasn't made by me, but by a friend of mine...I love it.

Drunk Driver
One day I got this email
Some drunk driving chainletter
It really would have meant something
If I hadn't read sixteen others
It said that I should pass it on
To as many people that I could
It said that I could save some lives
Like writing that means that I would
But I didn't feel like sending it
I only felt the rain
The thunder and the lightening outside
Made everything okay
But I did not delete it
I did not send it, either
I skimmed it maybe just once more
Before...
I got up to stretch
I looked out the window
I held my coffee cup
And you did not catch it as it fell
When I collapsed and could not get up
You did not hold me when I beat the glass
You did not whisper love
You had not done anything
Since I was six feet above
That night you left...
I asked you to
I needed sugar, if you can believe
You didn't want to
But I convinced you
I made you think you had to leave
And I was in the kitchen
When I heard the horn's last cry
I was making dessert, love
As you began to die
I wish that I could hate that kid
That-what? Sixteen year old, was it?
But I only hate that liquor store
And the clerk that was in
Who would believe that fake ID?
Why would he give that KID a six pack?
I ask you, how dense could you be?!
Or at least wait until my love came back...
So the email's in my Inbox
It's with it's sixteen other twins
I never did send one of them...
Why should I?
It won't bring you back

Kinda like Seasons
You were everthing that I wanted, but one day you stopped looking.
That thing that you do, how you look at me like I?m beautiful.
Your kinda like the seasons, changing when you want to, coming and going when you feel.
Your kinda like seasons, you change from green to red.
When that happens, it leaves me stumbling.
Sorry for touching your hand, the touch you once needed, and wanted.
Sorry for grabbing hold of your backpack as it swung back and forth.
Sorry for trying to hug you in the lunch line, and sitting close to you at the table.
Sorry for not sharing all my secrets, sorry for not doing something I was supposed to.
Your kinda like seasons. Fading, getting colder as the months pass by.
Cause I notice, your not looking anymore.
So I?m sorry I can?t be perfect, or that I get too in love for what you can handle.
I?m sorry you used to feel it too, and then you changed your mind.

What Happened
Some kind of secret language.
I don?t know how to talk to you anymore.
Ever since that day you changed, I?m not sure when it was.
My thoughts are jumbled in my head, not knowing what to do.
Losing all the closest people I always used to run to.
Love me like you used to baby, wrap me in your arms.
It?s been so long since I?ve felt that way.
Beautiful as I may be, there are others,
the one that?s a flirt and the one whos picture you have, means nothing as you say.
I doubt sometimes how you feel about me.
Look into my eyes and pull me close, I don?t wanna cry anymore.
No one else is there for me like you, I can?t run to my friends 24/7.
Please tell me, or get away, something to make me forget
all the pain everyday, the ones I thought I trusted, the ones I thought I loved.
But wait, I?m trapped in this again because I can?t leave you.
No matter how hard I try, you?ll be a part of me,
my little voice, my soul inside.
Let go some say, it seems as if your not worth it some days,
the days I talk to walls looking for comfort.
But then I get a kiss, a hug, when I can, however sparse it may seem.
And I look at you and wonder once again?What Happened?

One Step Further
One day spent with you is a day in heaven.
Heart feels full, smile as big as the sun.
Your touch, it sets me free.

Come on, kisses can?t carry me forever.
The smell of your shirt, your hands in my hair.
Come on, lets take it one step further.
Lay by me, hold me tight, never let go.
I wanna touch you forever, make ya never forget me.
Run your arms down me, make shivers crawl down my spine.

I?ll love you ?til the world comes crashing
down, I?ll hold you ?til you fall asleep.
Brush past me, hold my hips. Lets take it one step further.
Lay me down, kiss me crazy.
Let me show you me.
The real underneath, the one you haven?t seen.

Let me set you free.
Tantalize you with everything I?ve got.
Shake me, make me, everything I?ve always wanted to be.

The smell of your shirt, your hands in my hair.
Come on, lets take it one step further.
Lay by me, hold me tight, never let go.
I wanna touch you forever, make ya never forget.
Run your arms down me, make shivers crawl down my spine.

Only 3 days ?til you go. I wanna make it memorable.
Just do it, set yourself free.
Just wait, when no one?s around, be yourself.
I know you feel the same as me.
Just do what you feel.
I won?t jump, or move away.
I wanna be close, but no one knows.
So lets just get together and hold each other tight.
Lets take it one step further.
I love ya, forever.

There are more, but I'll leave it at that.
Thanks, and I hope they weren't too sappy.
~Ashley


Posted by stars5/imagination at 9:23 AM EST
Updated: February 18, 2005 6:17 PM EST
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January 30, 2005
Favorite Inside Jokes...
Mood:  lucky
Now Playing: Ryan Cabrera
OK, these probably might not make sense to some of you reading this, but that's OK, 'cause they make sense to me! lol. Read Ahead...

"Tu-lips are gals best friend, think about it."
-Jake, added on to by me!


"Bananas make the heart grow fonder."
-anon.

"Couches are not just a comfortable place to sit."
-anon.

"Hawaii, think of the possibilities!"
-Jake and me

"I heard sex only takes 15 min..."Oh, well we were up there for 13." Ah-ha, I guess you can do it in 13 min. then."
-haha, that will remain anon.

"Chocolate, not just for eating out of the wrapper."
-anon.

"Snow, useful for many other things than just playing in."
-anon.

"Lipstick is good for leaving marks where you WANT to leave them."
-anon.

"Sharpies have endless possibilities."
-inspired by Taylor Scott (ish!!)

"Snow mobile stores can turn into great obsessions."
-me, provoked by Kristen

"WIGGLY BENCHES!!!!"
-Jake








Posted by stars5/imagination at 8:10 PM EST
Updated: February 18, 2005 6:19 PM EST
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Favorite Songs:
Mood:  hungry
Now Playing: Diana DeGarmo
Topic: SONGS:
Favorite Songs: This'll take me awhile...

Blue Skies by Diana DeGarmo
Thank you for blue skies
When my head is down you remind me to look up
And thank you for all those times
You believed when others couldn't see
Oh without you where would would I be?
I wake up every morning to another crazy day I have to face
And when I'm losing my direction your the one who points me in the right way
You always know when I'm about to fall
Its like you're standing there when I hit that wall
Because of you my eyes are open
And instead of always hoping I have faith today
So thank you for blue skies
When my head is down you remind me to look up
And thank you for all those times
You believed when others couldn't see
Oh without you where would I be?
Oh thank you
Thank you
Thank you
Oh without you where would I be?
Thank you for blue skies
When my head is down you remind me to look up
And thank you for all those times
You believed when others couldn't see
Oh without you where would would I be?

Dreams by Diana DeGarmo
Dreams are just dreams
When it's dark inside to hand
And all it takes is a little help from you
You know it's true
That dreams are for real
When you see what I see
And you feel it too
We took the longest road
Just to make it harder
Let's do it all again
It only makes us stronger
Dreams
I guess I just made a dream
Nothin' else matters
As long as we believe
I'm lookin' at you
And I see my life
Passing before my eyes
And when the journey's over
And all my dreams come true
I'll dream of you
You're the one
That keeps my hope alive
My vision clear
I'll spend my life with you
Conquer fear
We'll make it through
Nothin' else matters
As long as we believe
I'm lookin' at you
And I see my life
Passing before my eyes
And when the journey's over
And all my dreams come true
I'll dream of you
I'll dream of you
I'll dream of you

Behind These Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

When you say you love me by Josh Groban
Like the sound of silence calling,
I hear your voice and suddenly
I'm falling, lost in a dream.
Like the echoes of our souls are meeting,
You say those words and my heart stops beating.
I wonder what it means.
What could it be that comes over me?
At times I can't move.
At times I can hardly breath.
When you say you love me,
The world goes still, so still and silent.
When you say you love me,
For a moment, there's no one else alive.
You're the one I've always thought of.
I don't know how, but I feel sheltered in your love.
You're where I belong.
And when you're with me if I close my eyes,
There are times I swear I feel like I can fly
For a moment in time.
Somewhere between the Heavens and Earth ,
And frozen in time, Oh when you say those words.
When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still and silent.
When you say you love me
For a moment there's no one else alive.
bridge:
And this journey that we're on.
How far we've come and I celebrate every moment.
And when you say you love me,
That's all you have to say.
I'll always feel this way.
When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still and silent.
When you say you love me
In that moment I know why I'm alive.
When you say you love me.
When you say you love me.
Do you know how I love you?

The Prayer by Josh Groban
I pray you'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go
And help us to be wise in times when we don't know
Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way
Lead us to the place, guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe
I pray we'll find your light, and hold it in our hearts
When stars go out each night,
remind us where you are
Let this be our prayer, when shadows fill our day
Help us find a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
A world where pain and sorrow will be ended
And every heart that's broken will be mended
And we'll remember we are all God's children
Reaching out to touch you
Reaching to the sky
We ask that life be kind, and watch us from above
We hope each soul will find another soul to love
Let this be our prayer, just like every child
Who needs to find a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
Needs to find a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe

Ocean Avenue by Yellowcard
There's a place off Ocean Avenue
Where I used to sit and talk with you
We were both 16 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night
There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both 18 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night
If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away
There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight
If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away
I remember the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me not tonight
Not here, not now
We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
Be together for one more night
Somewhere, somehow
If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

Miles Apart by Yellowcard
If I could I would do all of this again
Travel back in time with you to where this all began
We could hide inside ourselves and leave the world behind
And make believe there's something left to find
We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
Now we've all grown up, gone on and moved away
Nothing I can do about it, nothing I can say
To bring us back to where we were when life was not this hard (life was not this hard)
Looking back it all just seems so far, so far away
We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
Give it up for just one more day
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
Give it up for just one more day
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
Give it up, give it all away
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
I need you now, we're miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
I need you now, we're miles apart
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart

I Have Loved You by Jessica Simpson
Remember that blue crystal sky
The sun reflected in your eyes
Kissed me unexpectedly
A moment I just can't forget
We filled the air with promises
Took them up so tenderly
But life never asks you what you want
It's just gonna have its way
Sometimes it doesn't give like it takes
If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
And tomorrow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumbling down
And crumbles all around us
Fate turns cruel
You're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you
Don't think I'll write another letter
Watching there the pink sunset
Without thinking about you
I take a walk along the blue seaside
How will I sleep at night
How will I wipe the tears from your eyes
If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
And tomorrow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumbling down
And crumbles all around us
Fate turns cruel
You're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you
Without a single hesitation
Without thought or reservation
Baby, I'll be waiting
Even if I never see your face
And wings take you away from me
And tomorrow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumbling down
And crumbles all around us
Fate turns cruel
You're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you
I have loved you
If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
With all my heart and all my soul
The world comes tumbling
And crumbling all around
I have loved you
If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
I have loved you

8th World Wonder by Kimberley Locke
Woke up early this morning
Made my coffee like I always do
Then it hit me from nowhere
Everything I feel about me and you
The way you kiss me crazy
Baby you're so amazing
Seven days and seven nights of thunder
The water's rising and I'm slipping under
I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder
I guess that I'm just falling
Deeper into something I've never known (yeah)
But the way that I'm feeling
Makes me realize that it can't be wrong
You're love's like a summer rain
Washing my doubts away
Seven days and seven nights of thunder
The waters rising and I'm slipping under
I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder
It's only been a week but
It's coming over me.
It's making me believe that
You're the one for me
Seven days and seven nights of thunder
The water's rising and I'm slipping under
I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder
Seven days and seven nights of thunder
The waters rising and I'm slipping under
I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder
Seven days and seven nights of thunder
The water's rising and I'm slipping under
I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder
Seven days and seven nights of thunder
The water's rising and I'm...
I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder

She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Out of My Heart by BBMak
I feel fine
Now the rain is gone
and the sun has come to shine
Nothin can get me down today
Head over heals
Got my mind made up
as i'm driving through the fields
Nothin can get me down again
Catch me if you can
I gotta make a getaway
::chorus::
As the sun goes down
Wakin' up my dreams
And in my mind you're with me once again
Outta my heart Into your head
And inside my heart there's a place for you
And in my mind i'm with you once again
Outta my heart into your head
Chasing the sun
Tryin ta get away
from the rain that's gonna come
Hope I make it all the way
I'm lost in a crowd
Tryin' ta find my way
but the rain keeps fallin' down
Doesn't matter anyway
Catch me if you can
I gotta make a getaway
::chorus::
As the sun goes down
Wakin' up my dreams
And in my mind you're with me once again
Outta my heart Into your head
And inside my heart there's a place for you
And in my mind i'm with you once again
Outta my heart Into your head
Take a look
At the sky feel the sunshine
In your heart, In your head
In your own time
::chorus::
As the sun goes down
Wakin' up my dreams
And in my mind you're with me once again
Outta my heart Into your head
And inside my heart there's a place for you
And in my mind i'm with you once again
Outta my heart Into your head
Outta my heart Into your head
Outta my heart Into your head

Breakthrough by Hope 7
If there?s a word of kindness from you, I never heard it
And nobody else but me
Can spin around this lousy day untill it?s perfect
Just you wait and see
Whoa whoa
I?m gunna breakthrough
I?m gunna have some fun
That?s what I?m gunna do
Whoa whoa
I?ll go without you
I?m gunna have some fun
That?s what I?m gunna do
Lalalalala Lalalalala
Don?t bother me
I?m to busy having fun
Lalalalala Lalalalala
Don?t bother me
I?m to busy
If there?s a key to this hidden door I?m gunna find it
And no one can keep me out,
Of the sun and when the rain starts to come I?ll never find it
There was never a doubt
Cuz I have the power to change my life,
One day at a time
And hour by hour I?ll be fine and I?ll be alright
Whoa whoa
I?m gunna breakthrough
I?m gunna have some fun
That?s what I?m gunna do
Whoa whoa
I?ll go without you
I?m gunna have some fun
That?s what I?m gunna do
Lalalalala Lalalalala
Don?t bother me
I?m to busy having fun
Lalalalala Lalalalala
Don?t bother me
I?m to busy
Cuz I have the power to change my life,
One day at a time
And hour by hour I?ll be fine and I?ll be alright
Whoa whoa
I?m gunna breakthrough
I?m gunna have some fun
That?s what I?m gunna do
Whoa whoa
I?ll go without you
I?m gunna have some fun
That?s what I?m gunna do
If there?s a word of kindness from you, I never heard it
And nobody else but me
Spin around this lousy day untill it?s perfect
Just you wait and see
Whoa whoa
I?m gunna breakthrough
I?m gunna have some fun
That?s what I?m gunna do
Whoa whoa
I?ll go without you
I?m gunna have some fun
That?s what I?m gunna do
Lalalalala Lalalalala
Don?t bother me
I?m too busy having fun
Lalalalala Lalalalala
Don?t bother me
I?m too busy

White Houses by Vanessa Carlton
Crashed on the floor when I moved in
This bungalow alone with some strange new friends
Stay up too late, and I'm too thin
We promise each other it's til the end
Now we're spinning empty bottles
It's the five of us
With pretty eyed boys girls die to trust
I can't resist the day
No, I can't resist the day
Jenny screams out and it's no pose
'Cause when she dances she goes and goes
Beer through the nose on an inside joke
I'm so excited, I haven't spoken
And she's so pretty, and she's so sure
Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her
The summer's all in bloom
The summer is ending soon
It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's black leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last
It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses
My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake
Maybe you were all faster than me
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
So I go, and I will not be back here again
I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses
I lie, put my injuries all in the dust
In my heart is the five of us
In white houses
And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep
In white houses [x3]

Breathe by Michelle Branch
I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
Said I've been driving crazy
Cause its keeping you away
So just give me one good reason
Tell me why I should stay
Cause I dont wanna waste another moment
Saying things we were never meant to say
And I
Take it just a little bit
I..
Hold my breath and count to ten
I..
I've been waiting for a chance to let you in
If I just breathe
How do you fill the space in between?
Oh no, everything is alright
Breathe
Everything little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
Well it's ours, so overrated
Not saying how you feel
So you end up watching chances fade
And wonder in which way
And I...
Give you just a little time
I...
Wonder if you realize
I...
I've been waiting till I see it in your eyes
If I just breathe
How do you fill the space between
Oh no, everything is alright
Breathe,
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
Breathe
So I whisper and I'm,
Hoping you hear me
Do you hear me?
If I just breathe
How do you fill the space between
Oh no, everything is alright
Breathe,
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright

Underneath by Jessica Simpson
Sometimes it's hard when you're so deep inside
To see all you can lose in a blink of an eye
Dreams could be shattered
You could be gone
How would I survive
Cause you're where I belong
My soul-believer
Without you, I don't know who I would be
Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you go
Sometimes I listen to a voice that isn't mine
I disconnect from everything inside
And I have made choices
And wasted all the days
I could have been with you
Where my heart stayed
I know you've waited faithfully
Blessing our love even stronger
Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you go
And I've been blessed
For every kiss
For every breath
(How could I let you down)
And I've been touched,
By hands I trust
My love is risen
Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you
How could I let you go

Over by Lindsay Lohan
I watched the walls around me crumble
but its not like that will build em up again
so here your last change for redemption
So take it while it lasts because it will end
goodbye
Chorus:
I cant live without you
can't breathe without you I dream about you honestly
tell me that its over
because the world is spinning and I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know
Don't want to be the one to chase you
But at the same time your the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
and the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
(chorus)
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
(chorus)

Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine ahead has caught my eye
And roped me in so mesmerizing
It's so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so
Isolated so
Motivated I am
Certain now that I am
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself
So tired of the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment for forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim
Against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself
My hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption

All You Wanted by Michelle Branch
I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away
I didn't know that
It was so cold
And you needed someone
To show you the way
So I took your hand
And we figured out
That when the tide comes
I'd take you away
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away
From here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
Was somebody who cares
I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have
To keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go
When you're gone
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away
From here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
Was somebody who cares
All you wanted was
Somebody who cares
If you need me
You know I'll be there
Oh, yeah
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away
From here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
Was somebody who cares
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go
When you're gone

Our Lives by The Calling
Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Of a better life
In this world
Divided by fear
We've gotta believe that
There's a reason we're here
Yeah, there's a reason we're here
Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
See the truth all around
Our faith can be broken
And our hands can be bound
But open our hearts and fill up the emptiness
With nothing to stop us
Is it not worth the risk?
Yeah, is it not worth the risk?
Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
We can't go on
Thinking it's wrong
To speak our minds
I've gotta let out what's inside
Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Can we get it right?
Yeah, well can we get it right?
Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Because these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

Back Here by BBMak
Baby set me free
From this misery
I can't take it no more
Since your ran away
Nothings been the same
Don't know what I'm living for
Here I am so alone
And theres nothing in this world I can do
Chorus:
Until you're back here baby
Miss you want you need you so
Until you're back here baby, yeah
Theres a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go
So I told you lies
Even made you cry
Baby I was so wrong
Girl I promise you
Now my love is true
This is where my heart belongs
'cause here I am so alone
And theres nothing in this world I can do
Chorus:
Until you're back here baby
Miss you want you need you so
Until you're back here baby, yeah
Theres a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go
And I wonder (wonder)
Are you thinking of me, cuz I'm thinking of you
And I wonder (wonder)
Are you ever coming back in my life
'cause here I am so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do
Until you're back here baby
Miss you want you need you so
Until you're back here baby, yeah
Theres a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't...
Until you're back here baby ('till you're back here baby)
Until you're back here baby ('till you're back here baby)
Until you're back here baby ('till you're back here baby)
Theres a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't...
Until you're back here baby (repeat until fade out)

Alrighty, if I think of more, I'll update this, but this is good for now. ~Ashley








Posted by stars5/imagination at 11:12 AM EST
Updated: January 31, 2005 3:50 PM EST
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My Friends
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: Diana DeGarmo
Topic: Meet my pals!
OK, now I will describe to you my friends. Enjoy!



Kristen V: My best friend, who may I add, is the coolest person on earth. She is always there for me when I need her. We have had some great times, and highschool has brought upon even more! I luv ya!

Jake S: The sugar pie honey bunch of my world. hah, if you may not already have guessed, he's my boyfriend. He also is the sweetest person alive and I love him to death. I hope we're together forever. Frogs rock!

Ryan S: My boyfriend's twin brother, now becoming sort of like my brother. You are the coolest! And by the way, "I better count as a friend!"

Kelsey T: Another one of my beloved friends. Me and Kristen and Kelsey, the 3 muskateers. Kels, I know that I can count on you for your green chair talks.

Megan H: OK, see this is one of the people that you can always count on to talk to about something important. She can definately help with all things concerning Math homework and in depth problems I may have. Thank her, cause otherwise I wouldn't have this awesome web page!

Danny W: Now, a very good friend, although we've had our problems. My boyfriends best friend, so I couldn't dislike you if I tried. You and your scary movies, geez, you're gonna give me a heart attack. lol. Friday nights are a blast!

Kristin M: You are the funniest person! I know I can always count on you to give me a laugh. lol. Gym class is the best, and shhh (5 days of Christmas) about Jake's house. lol. Love ya!

Breanna W: My far away friend. You crack me up girl! I hope we don't lose touch. Can't wait til you visit in the summer. lol, Global sucks! Mwaa!

Steph: STEPH!!! You are a great friend, and you always know how to make me laugh!! I love you to death!! WE HAVE TO GET TOGETHER..oh and remember, "Y-M-C-A!"

There, okay, I think I'm done, and for all those people that are reading this thinking, "hey she forgot me", I apologize, I have a bad memory and my hands are getting sore. Oh, and one more thing...all my Beauty and the Beast musical pals.
I love you all, you guys are the best!
Love, Ashley




Posted by stars5/imagination at 9:20 AM EST
Updated: February 18, 2005 6:31 PM EST
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January 29, 2005
All About Moi
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Katy Rose
Topic: My Life

Hey, this is my page, boring as it may be, I apologize. I made this today because my inspirational friend Meggie was over and we were bored. OK, I'll start with me:
My name is Ashley K. Johnson and I am 15 years old. I live in Jamestown, New York, a small uh, town in Western New York. My family consists of a little brother, (7 years) Adam, my mom Kristen, my dad Jeff, and my cat Molly!! I go to JHS, and am in 9th grade. My favorite colors are blue and pink and any other color I feel like experimenting with. I don't really have a style, mostly whatever fits my mood, anything off the American Eagle racks, or Pac Sun, or maybe even vintage. I like pop, punk, some rap and basically whatever is on the radio. I hope to attend a great college, something where I can major in English, or Health, or even fashion design. I am a fashion guru, although I don't really have the cash. People, I think, would describe me as girly, although not air headed, haha. I love singing, dancing, and I am a musical fanatic! Shopping, and hanging out on Friday nights with my friends and boyfriend are my favorite hobbies. And as I am writing this, I am suddenly realizing how boring a life I have. Oh well, I'm lovin life. SO, that basically sums up my life, I'll write later!!
~Ashley


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Posted by stars5/imagination at 7:52 PM EST
Updated: January 31, 2005 7:22 PM EST
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