This is my web page dedication to the woman I love! The woman who is my life! I am creating this dedication because I know that I have done her wrong with the things i've done, & I know that I have hurt her alot with what I have done, but I want her to know that I never meant to hurt her! I want her to know that my heart, mind, body & soul all still belong to her! I want to let her know that I am a stupid stupid man(written twice on purpose! :P hehehe) & that I am INCREDIBLY lucky to have a woman like her in my life....
I am lucky to have her, Not only because of her beauty & her intelligence, But because of her divine forgiveness & willingness to let me be the man that I once was.... To be the one who makes her happy again & makes her smile again & shows her how important she is to me! As I type this page.. plans are already being processed for me to take a trip to Brasil to be with her & Prove to her that she is the only one that matters to me! My trip will be from August 6th/7th until august 15th/16th! The excitement over this trip is overflowing as if it was a can of soda that had been shaken & opened.... & that excitement continues to grow as the days slowly creep forward towards this fateful day when we will be together at last!
Over the course of the time Heloisa & I have been together I have taken her for granted! I had grown so used to talking to her & seeing her online every day that I had thought that there was no rush to go & see her... I thought we'd have plenty of time.... I could have done this trip sooner, but I was lazy... & stupid! Then I fucked up & made a really big mistake! This mistake could have costed me my relationship with Heloisa.... But she gave me another chance... She cares enough about me to give me the opportunity to work things out & prove to her that I am serious about her! She is an angel... A saint... A goddess in a world of pure shit..... Myself being included amongst the shit.... For I am not worth of such love & such kindness after what I have done..... But she gives it to me anyway!! She still loves me & She still cares about me & she still wants to be with me after all I've done! This touches my heart in a way that i've never felt before & it makes me want to be the man I was before this shit happened.... It makes me want to push myself to make her happy.... It makes me want to do whatever I have to do finally give her what she deserves & make her as happy as she deserves to be!!!! That day is coming quickly.... The day I can be with her.... To look into her eyes & tell her how I really feel about her!
This trip is a blessing, But not as big of a blessing as Heloisa herself!! She has given me so much, I owe her my life.... & it will be hers forever!! I've made alot of mistakes in my life... None of which I have regretted.... Because I've considered them "learning experiences".. but the mistakes I've made with Heloisa.... I regret them more than anything i could ever think of!!! I regret hurting her & I want to prove myself to her.... I want to show her that I am a good man, & I am still the one who was meant to be with her!!!!
I love Heloisa with everything that I am & I will NEVER take her for granted again!! I will treat her as she deserves to be treated, because she is special & important & beautiful & wonderful! She is on a pedestal above EVERYONE & EVERYTHING, and she will be treated as such... Because I love her & I want to be the one who gives her everything she deserves & more!!!
