Monday, 10 November 2003
Just
A Normal Day
Hey fellow computer friends. How are you doing this fine day? I'm not in the best mood that i can be in. But i think that i am going to make it through. Jay and Lauren are not doing the best they could be. I thought that everything would be Aight between the two of them but i guess that it isn't. They fought because he wanted to know something that she didn't want to tell him. So he thought that she was hiding something. She wasn't hiding anything. He got mad then i guess and she hung up the phone. That got him so mad. But in her mind she thought that she was doing the right thing, And he defiantly doesn't. I think that they talked out their differences but i am not sure i have to find out more later. Other than that i have been aight. I got a job at shop rite and i think that is going to be a great working expierence for me. I got to meet a lot of new people. There is a girl there who just moved here from Europe or something but i am not sure. Anyways, she is cool and she isn't like the other people. But i am not going to talk about that. HEY ROB! If you want your cell phone and class ring, i would suggest that you find a way to get it from me. I am not going to give it to anyone but you. I do not want to take that chance because i am not going to jail for something as stupid as that. The only people I Will give it to is you or the police. Because those are the only people i feel safe giving it to. Okay well i got to go i will talk to all of you at a later date. buh bye!
Sunday, 2 November 2003
....ummmm tasty
to all fellow friends of mine, this is one of the most boring days. i got in to a major fight with my bro and my father. i even admitted to myself that i have anger problems and i would never do that unless true. anyways, if i do one more thing to threaten my brothers life then i am being put in bording school. and no one wants that do they? i didn't think so. so what i am gonna do is move out. i am going to live with my father in bpt. but yet i am not sure when exactly. it will most likely be after i go to driving school so that i can finish it up. anyways on to other subjects. lauren is living with jason and that seems to be goin aight. i was praying for that for the longest time only becuase if it didn't i was going to kill both of them. all my other friends seem like their lives are goin good. and thank you for that one. i am not used to having no one at all complaining to me but i think i should ony because no one is. okay on to another subject. i realized that i have to accept who i am before i think that anyone else should. i am happy with how i am and with what i look like but i have not reached a level completely where i love myself. that is one of my accomplishments. :: have to do :: but before i get off the comp and stop talking ihave a question for all of you.......... how do you learn to love yourself when no one loves you for who you are to begin with?
Thursday, 30 October 2003
the bullshit poeple pull
i hate all this shit that goes on in my life. right when i am trying to get everything straight everything goes wrong. why do people, like youselves who seem like normal human beings, have to start trouble to make others miserable? i don't understand it. do you get a joy out of making me cry and making me want to hurt myself? i didn't think that you did but then again you do becuase you all start problems that i can't deal with on my own. my friends have to help me deal with them because there is nothing that i can do. i try and try but nothin works out. i am on my way up in life. i got a job, i have some new friends, and i am about to get my license. why do things have to go wrong at this point in my life? can anyone answer me? i didn't think so. i have only a few close friends and they try to help but i think that the only reason on why it doesn't work is becaue in some aspect god wants me to do it on my own. that is what i have to find out. if anyone has any comments on how to do this then i would appreciate the help. i am lost right now. if any on has things to say about me why don't they just say it to my face rather than tell my firneds? why do you then have to do things the pussy way? if you had something to say about some one would you tell them to their face? i thought you would. but if you will do that for some one you don't even know then why don't you do that for me. i know i am not accepted among all the people in the world but the ones who do acept me i thank very much. and for the ones that don't i feel pitty for you. on eof these days you will know how it feels to be like me and to walk in shoes like mine. i just hope your day comes soon. last but not least, from the great words of eminem, "dont ever try to judge me dude, you don't know what the fuck i've been through. " talk to all of you later. if anyone wants to talk you know where to find me.
Tuesday, 28 October 2003
life is aight
hey everyone this is the infamous chickie. i just got my job and i am thankful
for it. but i am still tryin to find one that pays more. but now i am getting my
license like real soon. thank god!
anyways on to another subject, to day there was more new of the white wolves and
i think that it is rediculois. only because they could do so many other things.
but if they keep doin this then there isn't anything else.
well everyone there is nothin other than what i have said that i have to say. if
anyone knows of any cool pics that i should put on my site then just e-mail me
s3x1d3adh1k69@aol.com
Thursday, 23 October 2003
just like
friday
today is a thursday but it is just like a friday. only because we dont have school tomorrow. and for resons unknown. i went to kim's house today to help her with her physics homework. that was cool. and later on tonight i am getting married to lauren. jay's ex. i don't know why. i think it is just becaue it will be fun. we are becomming better friends than we were before. but on to another subject. school is great. i am passing in physics and that is one of the things i didn't think i would be able to do this year. but it seems like i am going to be able to graduate after all. i saw the movie texas chain saw massacre. that was a great movie but it scared the shit out of mebut that is aight. i am probably going to go and see it again. well sorry homies but there is nothin i can think of writing to you so i will catch you on the flip side. peace out.
Wednesday, 22 October 2003
boring life
Still bored out of my mind. yet nothig is goind right. i hate that. today i tried to help kim with one of the problems she was having and it never seems to help what so ever. i dont know if it is just me or if it is because i am not giving her the right advice. anyways i am just going to deal with it if she talks to me. on to other subjects,,,,,,,,,,, i found out that i am pasing all my classes and that is the only good thing about it. the work sux so i am never going to like classes. but i got to go iwill talk to the little people later.
Monday, 19 October 2003
Life as it seems
today hasn't been great. i went to the eye doctor about losing vision in my left eye and they tole me that because of the complications in my eye that i might lose vision permanently. that sux ass. and there is nothin i can do about it. i wish that i could but i can't. other than that life has been okay. still haven't found a job but i knew that that was going to happen. i wish that life could be a little easier but i gues that this is the way it is going to be for now. anyways i will talk to you later if anyone wants to contact me, they know my e-mail. peace out homies
Wednesday, 15 October 2003
death
is the beginning of life
last night was the wake for my great uncle tony. and i realized that everytime
some one dies some one else is born. and i heard that the night that my great
uncle died a baby was born. that is the miracle of life for ya folks.
anyways, off the sad subjects, today was an interesting day. i found out my
grades and noticed that i am not going to pass senior year if i dont get my head
out of the clouds. that is why if anyone sees me not paying attention then
they have to smack the shit out of me. i talked to jay today. like always i have
to help him with lauren but the good part is that i dont care. only because if
it makes him happy then that is what i am going to do.
i still have to find a job and that isn't goin over too good. only because like
i said before no one wants to hire me. anyways if anyone reads this and hears
anything good then call me aight luv yah buh bye. oh yah the llama said hi to
everyone!!!
Tuesday, 14 October 2003
ThE
sTrEsS oF eVeRyDaY eXiStEnCe
finding a job has been one of the most stressful things that have been going on
in my life lately. no one wants to hire me and ihave tried everywhere. and i can
only get my license if i get a job. if anyone knows about anywhere in milford
that is hiring and is willing to hire a child with no experience that is 17 then
e-mail me s3x1d3adch1k69@aol.com
Monday 13 October 2003
Blah,
blah, blah!!!
hey everyone this is my first entry in the journal that yal can read to
understand me better. im 17 and i am very much in love. i wish i could spend
every day with my baby but i can't. anyways, life is aight other than that. on
the 13th my great uncle tony died, god rest his soul. we will all miss him alot.
i am getting my license hopefully on the 1st of November all of you should be
wishing me hope! im gonna need it. anyways, there really isn't much for me to
say other than the song of the day is: alanis morissette, ironic
EnTeR tHe oThEr DoOrS oF tHe FuNhOuse
