Tango

How dare you try to point the finger at me

As if it were my fault 
That your dog went astray

Fuck you

And all your insecurities

I could care less about you
And your dilemmas

But to blame me 
For actions I didn’t do alone
Is 
Ridiculous

Is it my fault 
That you don’t know
How to tame a wildcat

Is it my fault 
That you cant make
A clown laugh

Is it my fault
Your attitude wrenches
Worse than the stench
Of rotting corpses

and

Is it my fault
You cant control 
What u think is yours

No

its not

to dance the tango
you need but 2 

2 to lick
2 to suck
2 to devour
2 to fuck

Insanely

Roughly

Over and over again

on the bed
on the floor
biting and pulling
we BOTH wanted more

and you act 
like it was all done
by me

out of force

as if
twisted arms 
exist
and
guns to heads
made the kiss

no one is to blame
here

but yourself

I am but a new life
Brought forth
By your killings

so don’t you try to 
fucking blame me
for a creation
you made

and don’t you try to
yell at me
for something you lost 
on your own

and don’t  
Be mad at me
For actions I did not do alone


Its not my fault

You should have known

Dirty Talk

I want to smear mud on your white wall

And let your fine oak soak in water until 
mold embeds itself in it

I  want to take your shoes off
after you have been in the hot sun 

I want to take those persperated socks
and wipe your dinner table with them 
before you eat


I want to drop Spaghetti sauce on your white shirt

And spill juice all over your carpet

let me drench it in

Grape
Orange
Cranberry
Apple

And get Gray all over your new shoes


submerge you in re-usable sweat 
after you have taken a nice long shower



can I splatter rotting food on your freshly mopped floor
and kill the
lemon 
lime-ony 
pine sol smell 
hidden beneath your feet

can I get ketchup all over your hands
and softly rub barbeque sauce on your face

can I leave you with that feeling you get 
after having your hands in the sand

with  a dark color under your nails


I will make ur head feel icky


I will make your skin crusty



I will leave your bathroom

Enclosed in droplets of 

urine
feces

infested with bacteria

I will...

   
   im sorry.. but your time is up. 

please deposit $4.99 for the next 3 minutes.

Strange Little Girl

Strange little girl
Strange little girl
So exotic
Perfect circle pearl

Crooked whiskey smile
Striking different style
Dizzy pinky hair
She don’t really care

Awkward thinking ways
Her eyes are in a daze
Agitated gaze
Her mind is like a maze

Goddess of the moon
Feeling any tune
Her visions make you stare
This girl is very rare

Thoughts are all deranged
People think she’s strange
Her other name is weird
Ideologies are feared

But she has no concern
With those who cannot learn
That peculiar things are normal
Logic-ally formal

Who’s to set the norm?
Sociological reform
Who defines what’s odd?
Falsifying facade

Her eyes are unconstricted
Mentally addicted
Psychologically convicted
Arduously predicted

Prolonged contradiction
Articulating diction
Holding her own identity
An unknown amenity

She is not the same
Not seeking categorized fame
Just wants to be alone
Not part of the clone

An incomparable being
Not giving a fuck who’s agreeing
An entity that’s unique
Separated from the weak

She’s from a different world
Where mysteries unfurled
From misunderstanding
Unstigmatized branding

Oblivious critique
She’s seemingly oblique
Yet direct like the sun
Her legends yet begun

Waiting 
Waiting
Waiting 

For when bizarreness will premier
And average will disappear
Things wont be un-understood
And shyt will b all good

But until that day arrives
Shes stuck in unequal hives
Living a life that’s unfair
Where people judge everything you wear

Do say or hear
That time is not near
What to do till then
Is something left to zen

Perfect circle pearl
Awkward thinking ways
Feeling any tune
Thoughts are all deranged

Strange little girl
Strange little girl
A girl who just wants to be
How do I know?
Cuz that girl is me.

My Cheese Is In The Freezer, Yours Is In The Fridge: Are There Any Preservatives Left?

The cheese in the fridge is rotting…
rotting away I say.

You however,
claim that it is much like wine..

aging

delicately

only growing more beautiful in taste
as time passes by.

Ralph

oh the churning in my stomach 
twisting 
dizzily
into a hurl 
that yells out the name 
of mixed liquids
thick and yellowy

where chunks dissolve 
inside the tartar 
of decaying vinegar
and this need 
to tickle my uvula 
increases 
as the seasickness cradles 
my imperfect
homeostasis.

come out, come out, where ever you are!

choking on the acidic unchewed pieces 
of what makes 
my intestines
scream.

hear yee enemy! 

and surrender to the soldiers
of cells dressed in white!
let them drown you
into the porcelain coffin 
that sucks you
and swirls you 
away into a place 
where an orchestra of water
plays
to the movement of bowels.

biotics of the anti come! 
tear down the walls!
make the infected supplement
pour like Niagara Falls.

regurgitation and saliva
up my slippery esophagus
landing 
and splashing 
into the sea of defecation

floating
and floating
down they go 


until the next time
my third phase of digestion 
disagrees
once
again.

That Kid Kris

so you call ur self that kid kris
the anonymous voice
that once stalked me

so you say you want to go out
eat a pastrami sandwich perhaps
or maybe watch a movie

or attempt too
as I run away because my boyfriends sister is there and doesn’t recognize me


and so I left you

ya it rained
ya u bitched at me
so fuking what?

let me out of ur car then
Ill walk home…

Again

But that kid kris didn’t

we drove and drove
up the big hill we went

looking at city lights
and u telling me
how u THOUGHT i was like everyone else

its wierd to u
how i didnt even bother
doing what most people would do
in situations like that

shocked u were i bet

and up the other hill went
it was my first time
up this one

so kind of you
to be determined
to show me the universe

despite being kicked out

hidden behind the bushes 
I was

laughing so hard
yet silent
because we got caught

behind the trash can 
I came out


I was ur girlfriend right
We got into an argument 

Supposedly..ha


and ur mother asks why I am hurting you
that u want to see me but I reject you

and ur mother wants me to marry you
and tells me to tell u to go to college

and your mother is in the room
while u bug me to spend the night at ur house

but I make u take me home instead

4am

and you fucked ying yang


yet u say that in the end it is you 
and you alone
for me

like the time when ur phone rang
And you became anonymous once more

What
Who
When


Because she was there 

So do u regret it oh “one and only’ one

Do u regret not opening ur mouth
Because now u don’t know where the fuk I am

Because u called me over and over 
before telling me not to go through with it 
and I ignored you


Because you told me to meet you by the bus benches
When I hadn’t the slight idea as to who u were

Your name slipping at the ATM

And the vision of you 
That one night
in the street
when she said
“That’s him… isn’t he fine.”

and when I asked
if that was you
you denied it

Because u wanted me
with no problems
no haunting history

A clean slate

u thought id never find out right

that you were once
hers

but i knew it was you
the one in the darkness
when the stars shone
over the marina

and then we kissed
when you hugged me tightly
as we listened to a 
5 string serenade

the blue light
disappeared
as our hearts beated
into the night

you held my hand
and picked me up off the ground
you tried to throw me into the fountain
but failed

but the cigarette holder you gave me
still sits 
do you ever wear what i gave you
that winter night you stopped by
and took me to videoland


oh the act we played
behind everyones back

fooling around
with kisses
hearts
minds

the "i dont know you"
attitude

and then u never took me home
when i sat in the front seat

before you stuck ur head 
and yelled out
to all the slow drivers
as if we were in new york 

and acting gay in the theatre
with ur hisssing accent
and flexed hand

Going down a road
In ur red car
That u wanted me to drive 
The first day we met


How
Enchanting it
Can be for
Two people who hardly know each 
Other……. 
Right?


Oh kid kris…….. how I reminisce

lovesinsanity

Pull me, take me apart, hate me, break my heart.
Push me, put me together, love me, mend me forever.
Starve me, leave me astray, burn me, stay away.
Feed me, the right direction, soothe me, become my reflection.
Judge me, poison my soul, murder me, bury me in a hole.
Accept me, fill me with affection, liven me up, bring resurrection.
Tangle me, till I get lost, forget me, let your love exhaust.
Entwine me, find what is true, recall me, love like u intended to.
Forbid me, destroy what I feel, blind me, deny what is real.
Allow me, let us indulge, see me, let our love divulge.
Control me, stimulate what is crazy, rattle me up, make all this hazy. 
Unrestrain me, bring me peace, keep me calm, let the clarity increase.
Suspect me, I’m full of insanity, blurred cries, screaming profanity.
Trust me, I’m all there, focused smiles, whispering prayer.
Ignore me, don’t even stare, pretend not to hear me, contradict that I’m there.
Know me, look at my face, listen to me, know my place.
Doubt me, think what you want, feel bothered, let my image haunt.
Believe me, faith makes decisions; let me smother you, satisfying envisions.
Capture me, intake my breath, leave me gasping for air, turn me over to death.
Set me free, remove the bounds, search high and low, till I am found.
Displease me, dehydrated needs, oppose my emotions, don’t plant your seeds. 
Pleasure me, fulfill the craving, feelings have immunity, let out what you’ve been saving.
Punish me, unwritten provisions; rearrange the norm, continuous revisions.
Reward me, unblock the laws, welcome unrestrictions, oversee my flaws.
Sympathize me, feel sorry and bad, if I make a mistake, please get mad.
Empathize me, understand what I mean, if something is wrong, don’t leave it unseen.
Annoy me, change my love, impact desires, give my hormones a shove.
Enjoy me, increase this devotion, neurons impulse, third law of motion.
Torment me, start with an incision, crumple the immaterial part of me, and end the excision.
Devour me, enamour your eye, touch me softly, don’t ever say goodbye.
Deceive me, lies in collision, questioned moments, such indecision.
Stupefy me, with your drunken infatuation, bewilder me, mystic flirtation.
Agonize me, turbulent sorrow, disappoint me, don’t be here tomorrow.
Delight me, rapturous immobility, your future presence, brings tranquility.
Dissipate me, evil damnation; don’t cure my addictive, repetitive fixation.
Collect me, holy commendation, worried creation, attentive ovulation.
Ruin me, orbits with tears, make me dark, become my fears.
Un-wreck me, reconstruct the joy, let the sun shine, so we can deploy.
Decay me, turn me sour and ugly, void my complacency and do it smugly.
Preserve me, entrapped by your heart, harbor my laughter, I wont impart.
Detest me, demonstrate deploration, tell me I’m a failure, do it with no hesitation.
Adore me, benevolent concern, attach to me, so you’ll no longer yearn.
Disgust me, I’m despised and hated, spoiled and rotten, controversially debated.
Admire me, as a pure aesthetic, sweeter than candy, you’ll turn diabetic.
Regret me, I’m danger and confusion; I’ll leave you lost in your own illusion.
Cherish me, bonded for all time, if loving you is wrong, I have committed a crime.
Denounce me, make me feel like shit, hurt my feelings, provoke me 2 hit.
Rejoice me, as the queen that I am, a rare find indeed, like a black pearl in a clam.
Lure me, into your perfection, abandon me with a disconnection.
Entice me, inhibit mental rejection, swallow me whole, interconnection.
Suspend me, a hold on ecstasy, animated bliss, fulfill our fantasy.
Taste me, my love collection, synchronized rhythms, hypnotic erection.
Hold me, in contempt of elation, define what we have, no more contemplation.
Throw me, away and far, damage me smoothly, leave a scar.
Hate me, I don’t fucking care, suicide answers questions, life wont dare.
Love me, now and forever, here or there, it don’t matter, wherever.
Remember me, as the one who hated, the one who loved, the one you mated.
Forget me, the dreadful flower, a miserable scent, torturing your waking hour.
Leave me, a sad star in the sky, wishing very hard, to one day fly. 
Bring me, to every sound and sight, pledge me, with respectable plight.
Call me, clearly say my name, light and obliterate, my inner burning flame.
Reach me, let marvelous things occur, intoxicate me, with your liquer.
Protect me, every day and night, dont ever let me get away from your sight.
Respect me, our love will endevour, let us be one, end this never .
Break me, an action thats clever, love me now, let me live forever.

Can you end
a million
ramblings

of 
chortling
elegy
springing out 
from the blackness
of what once brought
light?

Could a cold heart
scrambled 
from beautiful envy,
verse
literature
found 
in a grave
of love's desire?

Could a thought
rewrite syllables
that laugh 
death to life phrases

causing
an explosion of
full heart poetry

into a flower
pure
soft
and dear?

n e v e r 

The Truth

no such thing as love is true 

its plainly something that people do

a situation that will make u break 

the attitude of caring is always fake 

people just hurt and bring you pain 

leaving ur heart stuck out in the rain 

only to fulfill what they want 

then they leave u nonchalant 

what you feel may be affection 

but they will want a newer selection 

what others feel is egotistical 

if u fall in love ull b statistical 

and in the end, it is you who pays the price 

just because u thought the other person was nice 

little did you know that ur "love" was full of shit 

and everything that happened, they will never admit 

for something that is non existant, 

i suggest that u abstain, 

cuz what you think is love.. 

is an emotion that is vain