I dedicate this site to the memory of my 4 Heavenly Angels...my 4 Angels with wings, Ashleigh, Charlotte Grace, Ellie Mae and Megan Beth. My 4 babies who made it into my world, who touched my life in a way I would never have believed possible.

A touch on my life for a fleeting moment, but one that remains etched forever on my heart and in my memory. A touch so deep that it will never fade, never be forgotten. And as I walk through life as a grieving parent of four precious Angels I know that one day I will be reunited with them and when that day comes I will hold my Angels in my arms and I will never let them go again.

This site has been a long time in the making, not only because my story starts before the loss of my first baby in 1992 but in that it has taken me all this time to get to this stage to be able to face the losses I have had in my life.

I am filled with a deep sense of guilt, a guilt that my babies are not here with me, where they should be, that I as their Mummy was not able to protect them. And guilt that it has taken me all this time in dealing with my feelings and facing their losses and the associated pain. I know the feelings that engulf me each and everyday will never go, the pain and sadness, the loss and emptiness, the guilt and longing. They will always remain with me...since losing my babies I walk a different path...I walk a path as a grieving parent. I walk a path that no-one would choose to walk or ever wish to.

If you are visiting this site as a parent who has suffered a similar loss, you will understand. I wish I could take away the pain that fills our hearts, but then to do that would take away the love and longing for my babies. To have been touched and to have lost however painful is better to have not been touched at all. I know one day we will be reunited.

Up until last year I had never faced the losses I had had, had never believed that I had any right to grieve over the losses of my Angels. I have learnt that that is not the case...I have learnt to accept the feelings I have and to grieve for the babies that should be here with me.