'You Were Meant For Me'
Chapter 17- You Were Meant For Me
Dreams last so long/Even after you're gone/I know, that you love me/And soon you will see/You were meant for me/And I was meant for you
~*Amanda's point of View*~
.::Two Months Later::.
It's been a month now. You'd think that I would be over it by now, but here I was, sitting in my window seat, silent tears streaming down my face; 'Gone' playing in the background.
It kept playing in my mind over and over again like a horrible nightmare.
"Amanda, there's something that I need to tell you."
"What is it Ashley?" I asked, my brow furrowing in confusion.
"Last night I...I"
"What Ashley? What happened?"
"The guys and I went to a club, Shelli was there and well, there's no easy way of saying this so I guess I'll just come right out and say it. I slept with Shelli last night. I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I was so drunk and I didn't know what I was doing." He said, letting a few tears slip. I was in shock. There was no way that this could be true.
"Please tell me that this is some sort of cruel joke."
"I wish that it was Manders, I really do, but it's not. God, I'm so sorry."
"No. Ashley, how? Why?"
"I don't know, I was really drunk, I wasn't thinking. I love you so much, I never meant to hurt you."
" I don't even know what to say. I don’t even feel anything right now. I feel numb. I've never in my life felt numb."
" Manders, I'm so sorry. I didn't feel anything with her. I love you so much and I'm so sorry." I was starting to warm up. My anger started rising as his words sunk in.
" It's over." I whispered, just barely loud enough for him to hear.
"No. NO! Y-you don't mean that M-Manders, we'll w-work through this, we'll be o-ok. Everything will w-work out. W-we're strong we'll get t-through it. P-please Manda, I'm b-begging you, I l-love y-you so-o m-much." By now he was outright bawling and having a hard time talking.
"No, Ashley it's over. I'm sorry, but it's over. This is something that not even we can work through."
"Amanda. P-please. I l-love you so-o much. I-I can't l-lose you."
"You already lost me." I said, my voice cracking at the end.
"No. I-I can't h-have lost y-you. I-I need you A-Amanda."
" I think you should leave."
"B-but b-but..."
"Just go Ashley. Please, just go." He nodded and stood up from his spot on my couch. He walked over to my door and just before he left he turned around.
"I love y-you Amanda. D-don't ever f-forget that." He said, sniffling as he opened the door and walked out of my life. I started bawling the second the door was closed.
That was over a month ago now. The guys were on tour now, so I hadn't seen or talked to any of them since a few days before then.
~*Jacob's Point Of View*~
It's been a month since "the incident". Yes, as dumb as that may sound, we have to call it "the incident" around here. Wouldn't want the truth about the 'Angel' of the group leaking to the public, now would we.
A bit bitter about the situation you ask? No, not at all. What can I say though? She's my best friend and that dick went and broke her heart. Yep, that's right. The so-called 'Angel' of the group isn't so angelic after all. He cheated on my Manders. My best friend.
Unfortunately I haven't been able to get a hold of her yet. However, just our luck too, we have a concert in LA in a two months, so I'll be able to see her then.
I know what you're thinking, two months is a long time from now, but when you're on tour, with no breaks, it doesn't seem all that far away at all. I just hope that she's all right. She hasn't picked up her phone and she hasn't returned any of my messages. Hmm, maybe I should get see if I can get a hold of Stephanie. She would know how Manda's been.
"Erik?" I called from my bunk.
"Yeah, do you have Stephanie's phone number?"
"Yeah."
"Can I have it?"
"Yeah, just a sec." A couple of moments later an arm stuck out from the bunk across from mine. It was holding a small piece of paper. I took the paper from the hand and the arm disappeared behind the curtain of the bunk across from mine.
"Thanks man."
"No problem. Let me know how Manda's doing ok? "
" All right." With that I dialed Stephanie's number and waited for someone to pick up.
" Jakeass did you forget that there's a difference in time zones and that I have to work tomorrow morning?"
"Ms. Melanie how'd you know that it was me?"
"Caller ID, brainiac. So to whom do I owe the pleasure of this wonderful wake-up call at 1 in the morning."
"uh, Manders. Look, I haven't been able to get a hold of her since "the incident" and I was wondering how she's been?"
"You're still calling it that? Sheesh. How do you think she's been? She's been miserable. She still loves him. How's he coping?"
"Horrible. He cries himself to sleep every night. He tries to act like everything is ok, but we can hear him. He's not eating, he's not sleeping much. It's terrible."
"Well, he only has himself to blame."
" I know. I'm just worried about him; that's all. I'm worried about Manders too. We have a concert there in two months and I really wanna see her. So make sure that she's home ok. I'll tell you all the details later all right?"
"Sure, Jakeass."
"WHEN are you going to stop calling me that?"
"When you stop calling me Ms. Melanie. It was bad enough that my 10th grade chemistry teacher did it, you don't have to do it to."
"Yes I do."
"Ugh, whatever Jakeass. Listen I gotta go. I have work tomorrow. Give me a call sometime and we'll work all the details out for when you guys get here."
"Ok. Night Ms. Melanie." I said hanging up.
~*Ashley's Point Of View*~
I was lying in my bunk listening to 'You Were Meant For Me'. That probably sounds dumb, but it fits the situation perfectly. I couldn't help it. I knew that she still loved me and I still loved her. She just didn't want to believe me. She wanted to believe that somewhere along the line I had fallen out of love with her. In all reality, I had never been more in love with her than I was now.
It's true what they say you know. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, even if it is a broken heart. Tears began making their way down my cheeks as I listened to the song. I wiped at them furiously. No girl had ever made me cry so much until Amanda.
God I missed her. I missed her like a mountain man who just moved to New York city misses fresh air. I missed holding her hand, hugging her, and kissing her. I missed making love to her, I missed holding her in my arms while we slept, and I missed waking up next to her every morning. I missed knowing that she was waiting for me, I missed knowing that she missed me just as much; I missed loving her.
We were doing a show in LA in two months. I was dreading it because 1) we were going to be there for a week, 2) the guys desperately wanted to see their 'Little Sister' and 3) there was a good chance that I was going to see her and that would just be awkward. I mean, don't get me wrong, there's nothing more that I would rather do than to se Manders again, but she doesn't want to see me so all in all its pretty much a lost cause.
~*Amanda's Point Of View*~
' You Were Meant For Me' was playing now and I was sobbing. I couldn't help but think of how right and how wrong this song was all at the same time.
I missed him so much. I missed him like a drunk gone sober misses alcohol. I craved him like a three-pack-a-day smoker craves a cigarette. I missed everything about being with him. I missed kissing him, I missed the feeling of being in his arms, and I missed feeling safe. I craved his entire being and everything that was him. I missed him and I wanted him so bad. I craved him more than I craved pickles and ice cream, which right now I was really craving.
I brought my hand down to my stomach and rubbed it gently. I stood up from my window seat and went downstairs to get a bowl of ice cream and a pickle. That probably sounds disgusting and I was probably just going to throw it up in the morning anyways, but that's what you get when you're two months pregnant.
**A/N: That's All Folks!! Lol.....j/p.....that's all for this one. The sequel should be up soon. Hope you enjoyed it!! Thank you to everyone who reviewed/ gave me feedback. I really, really appreciated it!! **