"Don’t you guys ever get tired of eating cereal?" I asked as Ashley fixed himself a bowl and joined the rest of the guys. I stood in front of the stove behind the bar so that I could see all of them.

"No." They replied in unison. I laughed and shook my head.

" Well, some morning here soon I’m going to come over and cook you guys breakfast."

"So, Ashley spent the night last night? I bet you guys had fun." Trevor said wiggling his eyebrows suggestively. I playfully smacked him on the arm and rolled my eyes.

" Dude all we did was talk."

"So that’s what they’re calling it these days." Dan said throwing in his own remark.

"Moan is more like it." Erik said throwing a glance in my direction (his room was right next to Jacob’s). I stuck my tongue out in response. Jacob just glared in Ashley’s direction for a few seconds before he got up and stormed out of the room.

" What crawled up his pants and died?" Trevor asked once Jacob had left the room. I shrugged my shoulders and went in the direction Jake had. I found him out by the pool lying on one of the lounge chairs.

"What’s wrong?" I asked sitting on the chair next to his.

"Nothing, I’m just kind of hurt that I was right."

"Huh."

"About you and Ashley. We haven’t even been broken up three days and you’re already with him."

" I’m confused. Aren’t you the one who told me that I wanted to be with him. Aren’t you the one that broke up with me so that I could be with him. Aren’t you the one that slept with someone else while we were still going out? Jacob, not that it’s any of your business what I do, but me and Ashley are just friends. Nothing happened last night. I’m not completely over you yet and until I am Ashley and I aren’t going to be anything but friends. We aren’t even going to be friends with benefits. Ok?"

" Nothing happened last night?" He asked sitting up and turning to face me.

"Nothing."

"Oh, then I guess I don’t have anything to be upset about."

"Nope, not that you’d really have any room to be upset anyways. I mean, you’re the one that broke up with me remember. You say you did it so that I could be with Ashley but in all reality wasn’t so that you could be with Janie again."

"Yes and No. I mean, yes I broke up with you so that you could be with Ashley, and no it wasn’t so that I could be with Janie. I hadn’t planned on getting back together with Janie as soon as I broke up with you but I did. It’s just the way things worked out. I’ m sorry that I hurt you though. Can we still be friends?"

"I want to be, but right now I don’t know if I can be friends with you. You really hurt me by sleeping with Janie. I guess we could try though."

"Awesome." He grabbed my hand and stood up, taking me with him and pulled me into a tight hug. After we let go we walked back into the house and back into the kitchen were the rest of the guys were.

" Everything’s better." I announced as we walked into the kitchen. Jacob sat back down at the bar and I returned to my spot in front of the stove.

I had finished my cereal and was putting my bowl in the sink when Amanda and Jacob came back into the kitchen. While she was talking with the guys I snuck up behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist. She jumped slightly at my touch.

"It’s just me." I whispered in her ear. She relaxed after that and I saw a small smile appear on her face. She put her arms on mine and leaned back against me.

"You two look awfully happy for two people who just talked last night." Trevor said as he brought his bowl over to the sink.

" I don’t know why Manda’s so happy, but I’m happy because she moved here and I get to have my best friend back." I felt her nod her head.

" That’s why I’m happy too." She said in response to Trevor’s remark.

" Are you coming to the studio with us today?" Erik asked as he took his last bite.

"Won’t I be in the way?"

"You’re never in the way. All the producers love you ‘cause you’re the only one who knows how to get us to work and actually cooperate with eachother, and them, while we work." Dan said bringing his bowl into the kitchen.

" Then I guess I’m coming." She answered. She turned around slightly and grabbed my shirt, forcing me to lean down.

"Can we go up to your room?" She whispered in my ear. I nodded my head and she let go of my shirt. I let go of her waist and took her hand.

" We’ll be upstairs. I shouted as she dragged me out of the kitchen and up the stairs. She led me up to my room and closed the door behind her. She still had my hand so I took her over to my bed and we both sat down. She was leaning against my pillows sitting Indian style and I was facing her, sitting about a foot away.

"So, why did you want to come up to my room?"

"I don’t know, I just wanted to be alone with you, I guess."

"Oh. Well, what do you want to do?"

"This." I answered as I leaned forward and pressed my lips against his. I gently pushed him down on the bed and straddled his waist. After kissing for a few minutes I pulled away. I crawled off him and went back up by the top of his bed.

"I know that we’re only supposed to be friends but I had to do that. I couldn’t help it."

"Well, then you’ll understand why I have to do this." I said as I kissed her. She scooted down some so that she was lying down and I was lying on top of her. She had her arms around my neck and I had my hands in her hair. After we’d been kissing for a few minutes I felt Amanda slide her tongue along my bottom lip, begging for an entrance, which I gladly gave her. After getting bored with that I went down to her neck. I began kissing and sucking her collarbone in her favorite spot. She let a soft moan escape. She put her hands on my cheeks and brought my face back up to hers. She looked into my eyes for a second and then guided my face down to hers and began kissing me again. I closed my eyes and returned my hands to her hips. I felt her hands slide under my shirt and slowly inch it up. We stopped kissing so that she could completely discard it. The second it was gone we went back to where we were. I slipped my fingers under the hem of her shirt and slowly started to bring it up. I was just about to take it off when there was a knock at my door followed by Trevor poking his head through my door.

"Woah!" he said slamming the door shut. I sighed and gave Amanda a peck on the lips. I found my shirt and went out into the hall to talk to Trevor.

"Apparently you’ve heard of knocking, so why didn’t you wait?"

"I would’ve if I thought that that would be going on. What happened to you two just being friends?"

"We’re still just friends. We just happen to be friends that make-out."

"Does she know that?"

"Yes, no, I’m not sure, but she will just as soon as I get done talking to you. So why did you come into my room anyways?"

"Oh! Right, we have to leave in 10 minutes and I was just coming to make sure that you two were ready."

"Oh, well we are."

"Ok, then be downstairs in ten minutes.

Ashley walked back into the room a few minutes later and told me that it was time to go. I hoped off his bed and took his hand in mine. We were just about to leave when I thought of something.

"So what does this mean for us?"

"Right now, I’m not sure this means anything, except maybe that we’ll have to be friends with benefits until you get over Jacob."

"Why can’t we just be a couple then."

"You’re not completely over Jacob. When you are we can be together."

"So until then we’re just friends with benefits?" He nodded his and we continued out the door.

Ashley and I had been doing the friends with benefits thing for about two weeks now and I was starting to get tired of it. I was over Jacob but I couldn’t seem to find a way to tell Ashley. It was something that I needed to show him but I had no idea how to.

"Amanda?" Ashley asked coming into my room. I had given him a key so that he could come over anytime he wanted to and he had certainly been using it.

"Yeah."

"There’s something I need to tell you."

"What?"

" They’re moving us to LA."

" Huh? Why are they moving you guys to LA."

" I don’t know, something about too many boy bands in Orlando. Anyways, Mike and Mike decided to move us to LA so we’re moving.

"Wow. When are you moving?"

" 3 days."

"You’re leaving in 3 days?!? How long have you known about this?"

" I’ve known for a day. I just didn’t know how to tell you yesterday but I decided that I should just go ahead and tell you."

"Wow. I can’t believe that in 3 days you’ll be 3,000 miles away from me again."

" I know. I’m going to miss you so much, but I’ll come visit. I promise."

" I know you will I’m just going to miss you, that’s all." He pulled me into a tight hug and let go a few minutes later.

"Do you need help packing?"

"Yeah that’d be great."

"Ok well let me grab my shoes and then we’ll go ok?" he nodded so I went ver to my closet to grab my shoes. I grabbed my keys on our way out and locked the door behind me. He’d driven the SUV over so we went back to their house in that. We went inside and the first thing I saw was a pile of boxes in the living room.

" We started packing yesterday after we found out." I nodded my head as Ashley took me up to his room. We passed Erik on the way and I gave him a sad smile. Once we were inside Ashley’s room I went over and sat on his bed.

"I can’t believe you guys are actually moving. This sucks. I moved here to be with you guys and now you’re leaving."

"I know. I’m going to miss you so much Manda."

"We’ll still see eachother though. I’ll be sure to visit and it’s not like you guys will never come back to Orlando." He nodded and we just sat there for a few minutes not saying anything.

"Well, we should go ahead and get you packed up so why don’t you had me a box and I’ll go ahead and get started."

" OK."

Four hours later we were nearly finished packing. He still had a few things out that would have to wait until later in the week to be packed.

"Ashley?" I asked as I went over to lie down on his bed.

"What does this mean for us?" He came over and lied down next to me, propping his head up on his palm.

"I think this means that we can’t be together."

"Why?"

"Well, we can’t really be friends with benefits if we’re 3,000 miles away and it’s not exactly like you’re totally over Jacob so I really don’t see anyway for us to be together." I nodded, although I was disappointed that he felt that way.

" I better go. Will you take me back to my apartment." He nodded and we left.

Two days later we found ourselves at the Orlando airport. I had come with the guys to see them off. All of their stuff, minus what could be fit into a suitcase, had already been sent to LA. There were about a hundred or more fans waiting at the gate to say good bye to the guys. The signed autographs for twenty minutes and then security took us into a private room where they could relax until the flight. Ashley and I had officially broken off our little arrangement. I hated that. We shouldn’t have broken off anything we should be together, but he doesn’t believe that I’m totally over Jacob. I’d figure out someway to prove it to him and when I did we would finally be able to be together.

"You’ll keep in touch right?" I asked as I gave Erik a hug.

"You couldn’t keep me away." I laughed and gave him a peck on the cheek before moving onto Trevor.

"I’m gonna miss you."

"Things aren’t going to be the same without you around. I’m gonna miss you a lot." I gave him a tight hug and then went over to say goodbye to Dan.

"Watch him for me ok? I love him, regardless of what he wants to believe and I don’t him to screw it up over some blonde because he gets lonely one night. Tell him to call me if he gets lonely." Dan laughed but nodded anyways. I gave him a hug and went over to say goodbye to Jacob.

"Friends forever ok? Tell Janie I said hi. I love you Jake and I’m gonna miss you."

"I love you too, best friends, forever and always, and I’ll be sure to say hi to Janie for you."

"Thanks." I said giving him a hug and a kiss on the cheek. Finally I went to say goodbye to Ashley. I didn’t bother with words. I brought my arms up and wrapped them loosely around his neck, clasping my hands together and bringing him down so that his face was nearly level with mine. I brought my lips to his and closed the space between us. I put every feeling and every emotion I had for him in that kiss. I pulled away and pecked him softly.

"I’ll see you soon." I whispered in his ear. Then, without so much as even a second glance, I left.

I was sitting on the couch in my apartment eating a popsicle and thinking. It’s been two weeks since the guys had left. I’d talked to all of them more than once. I had talked to Ashley, Erik, and Jacob the most though. I was still trying to think of a way to prove to Ashley that I loved him.

"I’ve got it!!" I said standing up. I don’t know why it had never crossed my mind before. I ran over to my phone in the kitchen and called the guys.

"Hello?"

"Hey Erik, It’s Amanda."

"Oh hey Amanda. What’s up?"

"I’m moving to LA."

"What?"

"I’m moving to LA. I’ve been antagonizing over ways to prove to Ashley that I love him and this is what I finally came up with."

"Cool, when are you moving."

" as soon as I can. I’m going to need your help though, and you can’t tell Ashley. I want it to be a surprise."

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