wither Wither Blister Burn + Peel

I Don't Believe
I'm such an asshole
God
I'm such a stain
I just keep fucking up
again and again
I don't believe
I don't believe
that I could be so stupid
and so naive
I don't believe
I don't believe
that there is nothing
nothing left for me
You crawled into my mind
when you crawled into my bed
Said everything I've ever longed to hear
So perfect
so alive
Once inside you sucked me dry
You used me up and left me here for dead
I don't believe
I don't believe
that I could be so stupid
and so naive
I don't believe
I don't believe
that there is nothing
nothing left for me
I crave it desperately
It's a cancer eating me
An addiction too intense to be denied
Worthless I'm a whore
crawling back for more
It's pathetic how I feed off this abuse
I don't believe
I don't believe
that I could be so stupid
and so naive
I don't believe
I don't believe
that there is nothing
nothing left for me
God I feel so stupid
You told me that you loved me
and I believed that you loved me
You swore that you loved me
and I believed
Now I know it was a lie
I don't believe
I don't believe
that I could be so stupid
and so naive
I don't believe
I don't believe
that there is nothing
nothing left for me

Shame
I only see myself reflected in your eyes
So all that I believe I am
essentially are lies
And everything I've hoped to be
or ever thought I was
died with your belief in me
So who the hell am I
I don't know if I am real without you
What is left of me without you
I don't know what's real without you
How can I exist without you
I'm wandering around confused
wondering why I try
The more that you deny my pain
the more it intensifies
I pray for someone to ache for me
the way I ache for you
If you ignore that I'm alive
I've nothing to cling to
I don't know if I am real without you
What is left of me without you
I don't know what's real without you
How can I exist without you
I stare into this mirror
so tired of this life
If only you would speak to me
or care if I'm alive
Once I swore I would die for you
but I never meant like this
No I never meant like this
I don't know if I am real without you
What is left of me without you
I don't know what's real without you
How can I exist without you

What Do I Have To Do
You make it hard to breathe
It's as if I'm suffocating
And when you're next to me
I can feel your heartbeat through my skin
It makes me sad to think
this could all be for nothing
I wish there was a way
A way for you to see inside of me
I've never felt this way about anyone or anything
Tell me
What do I have to do
to make you happy
What do I have to do
to make you understand
What do I have to do
to make you want me
And if I can't make you want me
What do I have to do
I know exactly what you're thinking
but I swear this time I will not let you down
I'm not as selfish as I used to be
That was a part of me that never made me proud
Right now I think I would try anything
anything at all to keep you satisfied
God I hope you see
what losing you would do to me
All I want is one more chance
Tell me
What do I have to do
to make you happy
What do I have to do
to make you understand
What do I have to do
to make you want me
And if I can't make you want me
just tell me
tell me
What do I have to do
to make you happy
What do I have to do
to make you understand
What do I have to do
to make you love me
And if I can't make you love me
just tell me
what do I have to do
to forget about you

Why
I am not here
I think I've never been here at all
or ever will be
I feel like a place
where no one goes anymore
Why can't you see that everything's broken
Why can't you see that my life's turned gray
I can't believe in anything sacred
when I don't believe that I am real
I need someone to break the silence
that's screaming in my head
and in my soul
It seems so bizarre
but none of this matters
Thoughts disappear
hope has died
Now I am safe
Nothing can hurt me here
Why can't you see my need for forgiveness
The truth and the lies so confused as one
I can't believe in anything sacred
when I don't believe in anything
I need someone to break the silence
that's screaming in my head
and in my soul
I am alone
locked in my memories
There's nowhere left for me to hide
But I am not real
I've made all I am with lies
Why does it seem that everything's different
Why does it seem that only you are real
I don't believe in anything sacred
so why do I feel so damn alone
I need someone to break the silence
that's screaming in my head
and in my soul

Inside You
I feel your lips
I taste your skin
I need to know
I need to feel you from within
As your blood burns through my skin
I feel complete
I breathe you in
It's where you end and I begin
If only I could stay here forever
So much to tell you
so much to show you
so much to confide
now that I'm inside you
We are flesh
We are one
So why do I feel so much guilt for what I've done
As your blood burns through my skin
I feel release
I breathe you in
It's where you end and I begin
If only I could stay here forever
So much to tell you
so much to give you
so much to confide
now that I'm inside

Falls Apart
I'm tangled and broken
left scattered on the floor
It's useless now
These pieces can never make me whole
This is where it falls apart
This is where it falls apart
I feel helpless as my everything
comes crashing down on me
This is where it falls apart
This is where it falls apart
I feel helpless as my fucking world
comes crashing down on me
You wither
You blister
I watch you burn and peel
It's not like you can save me
It's not like you even care
This is where it falls apart
This is where it falls apart
I feel helpless as my everything
comes crashing down on me
This is where it falls apart
This is where it falls apart
I feel helpless as my fucking world
comes crashing down
crashing down on me
I'm finding it so hard to hold on
This is where it falls apart

So Wrong
Wasted thoughts of you
Desperate prayers to you
Give me back my mind
I'm empty inside
It's so wrong that I need you
It's so wrong that I need abuse
It's so wrong that I need you
so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone
What have I become
Everything's undone
A candle burns here in your honor
My soul
a shrine I've built for you
There's nothing left inside me
nothing left inside but you
It's so wrong that I need you
It's so wrong that I need abuse
It's so wrong that I need you
so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone
Can't seem to pretend
This night needs to end
I can't fill this hole
You are all I know
It's so wrong that I need you
It's so wrong that I need abuse
It's so wrong that I need you
so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone

Crushing Me
I'm feeling the weight of the world
and it's crushing me
I'm feeling the weight of everyday life
and it's crushing me
How much more will it take
How much more until it breaks me
This world is crushing me
I've spent every moment since the day
you left trying to rebuild the shattered
remains of my pathetic life Trying to
become someone you could be proud
of someone you could love again
I have given you everything I have to
give you everything I am able to
give taking into consideration your
reluctance to accept anything I have to
offer I'm tired of living my life for you
I'm tired of living my life for everyone
else in this fucking world
I'm tired of living
I'm feeling the weight of the world
and it's crushing me
I'm feeling the hate of everyday life
and it's crushing me
I swallow the hate
betrayal
and lies
I swallow it whole
and shove it deep down inside of me
I'm feeling the weight of the world
and it's crushing me
How much more will it take
How much more until it breaks me
This world is crushing me

Sleep
She's been here so many times before
she can't remember
when she last felt anything at all
but this fear and anger
She stares intently at the door
listens for his footsteps
She knows exactly what's in store
and the knowing makes it worse
Floating high above the bed
staring at her fathers head
wishing one of them were dead
so this hell could finally end
When he calls her daddy's little girl
she doesn't hear him
When he crushes her
she can't feel
Her screams are silent
Hides in the corner of her mind
where she plays contentedly
She leaves this nightmare far behind
She escapes inside her dreams
Floating high above the bed
staring at her fathers head
wishing one of them were dead
so this hell could finally end

Slipping Away
I feel it slipping away
I gave it all but no one cared
I feel it slipping away
My god it's slipping away
I gave it all but no one cared
I feel it slipping away
No more pain
No more fear
I feel it slipping away
I just can't learn to forget
Now I'm choking on the memories
choking on regret
I tried
but I can't find a way
to untangle all the pieces after they've been thrown away
I feel it slipping away
I will not suffer this loss
Of you again
and again
and again
I refuse to continue to live
in this perpetual nightmare
I decide it ends right here
I feel it slipping away
Everything is slipping away