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intolerance I don't want to be hostile I don't want to be dismal But I don't want to rot
in an apathetic existence either See I want to believe you, and I want to trust and I
want to have faith to put away the dagger But you lie, cheat, and steal And yet I
tolerate you Veil of virtue hung to hide your method while I smile and laugh and dance
and sing your praise and glory Shroud of virtue hung to mask your stigma as I smile and
laugh and dance and sing your glory while you lie, cheat, and steal How can I tolerate
you Our guilt, our blame, I've been far too sympathetic Our blood, our fault I've been far
too sympathetic I am not innocent You are not innocent No one is innocent I will no
longer tolerate you Even if I must go down beside you Because, No one is innocent
Prison Sex It took so long to remember just what happened I was so young and vestal
then, you know it hurt me, but I'm breathing so I guess I'm still alive even if signs seem
to tell me otherwise I've got my hands bound, my head down, my eyes closed, and my
throat wide open Do unto others what has been done to you I'm treading water, I need
to sleep a while My lamb and martyr, you look so precious Won't you come a bit closer,
close enough so I can smell you I need you to feel this, I can't stand to burn too long
Released in this sodomy For one sweet moment I am whole Do unto you now what has
been done to me You're breathing so I guess you're still alive even if signs seem to tell
me otherwise Won't you come just a bit closer, close enough so I can smell you I need
you to feel this I need this to make me whole There's release in this sodomy For I am
your witness that blood and flesh can be trusted And only this one holy medium brings
me piece of mind Got your hands bound, your head down, your eyes closed You look so
precious now I have found some kind of temporary sanity in this shit blood and cum on
my hands I've come round full circle My lamb and martyr, this will be over soon You look
so precious
Sober There's a shadow just
behind me, shrouding every
breath I take, making every
promise empty, pointing every
finger at me Waiting like a
stalking butler who upon the
finger rests Murder now the path
called must we just before the
son has come Jesus, won't you
fucking whistle something but the
past and done? Why can't we not
be sober? I just want to start this
over Why can't we drink forever
I just want to start things over I
am just a worthless liar I am just
an imbecile I will only complicate
you Trust in me and fall as well I
will find a center in you I will
chew it up and leave, I will work
to elevate you just enough to
bring you down Trust me Mother
Mary won't you whisper
something but what's past and
done Trust me I want what I
want
Bottom My compassion is broken now My will is eroded, and my desire stolen and it
makes me feel ugly I'm on my knees and burning My piss and moans are the fuel that
set my head on fire So smell my soul burning I'm broken, looking up to see the enemy I
have swallowed the poison you feed me but I survive on it , and it leaves me guilt fed,
hatred fed, weakness fed and I feel ugly, and dead inside Shit adds up at the bottom
You've left me no choice but to go inside and rebuild what's broken Too much , too far ,
too late to lie down now I must arm myself to fight you by making weapons out of my
imperfections It's all I have left There's no other choice I'm shameless, nameless,
nothing, and no one now But my soul must be iron for my fear is naked I'm naked and
fearless But I'm dead inside You see shit adds up, now I'm dead inside Hatred,
weakness, and guilt keep me alive at the bottom
Crawl Away You crawled away from me Slipped away from me I tried to keep a hold,
but there was nothing I could say You slid and crept away and there was nothing I could
say So what you're trying to say is you don't wanna play But what you want and what
you need doesn't mean fuck to me Because I can see your back is turning If I could I'd
stick the knife in This is love This is my love for you Get up Now Say you won't go
Swamp Song My warning meant nothing You're dancing in quicksand Why don't you
watch where you're wandering? Why don't you watch where you're stumbling? You're
wading knee deep and going in And you may never come back again This bog is thick
and easy to get lost in when you're a stupid, dumb ass, belligerent fucker I hope it sucks
you down Wander in and wandering No one even invited you in But still you stumble in
stumbling So suffocate or get out while you can No one told you to come I hope it sucks
you down
Undertow gone under two times I've been struck dumb by a voice that speaks from
deep beneath the cold black water It's twice as clear as heaven, and twice as loud as
reason It's deep and rich like silt on a riverbed and just as undisturbing the currents
mouth below me opens up around me suggests and beckons all while swallowing It
surrounds and drowns and sweeps me away But I'm so comfortable Too comfortable
shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up you're saturating me
So how could I let this bring me back to my knees again again again under for the third
time I've been baptized by your voice it screams from deep beneath the endless water
and it's half as high as heaven and half as clear as reason it's cold and and black like silt
on the riverbed But I'm so comfortable Far too comfortable Why don't you kill me, I'm
weak and numb and insignificant, and I'm back on my knees lost in euphoria I'm back
down I'm in the undertow I'm helpless and awake in the undertow I'll die within your
undertow It seems there's no other way out of this undertow euphoria
4 Degrees Get up and free yourself from yourself Locked up inside you, like the calm
beneath castles, is a cavern of treasures that no one has been to Let's go digging Bring it
out to take you back in You won't do what you'd like to do Lay back and let me show
you another way I'll kill what you want me to, take what's left and eat it Take all or
nothing Life's just too short to push it away Take it all Take it all in All the way in Let it
go Let it go in You won't feel what you'd like to feel Lay back and let me show you
another way If you knock me down I'll come back running, knock you down, it won't be
long now All the way in All the way Take it up higher 4 degrees warmer Give in now
and let me in You'll like this in Don't pull it out It brings us closer than dying and cancer
and crying Come on You can take it all Just like that
Flood Here comes the water All I knew and all I believed are crumbling images that no
longer comfort me I scramble to reach higher ground, some order and sanity, or
something to comfort me So I take what is mine, and hold what is mine, suffocate what is
mine, and bury what's mine Soon the water will come and claim what is mine I must
leave it behind, and climb to a new place now This ground is not the rock I thought it to
be Thought I was high, and free I thought I was there divine destiny I was wrong This
changes everything The water is rising up on me Thought the sun would come deliver
me, but the truth has come to punish me instead The ground is breaking down right
under me Cleanse and purge me in the water
Disgustipated And the angel of the lord came unto me, snatching me up from my place
of slumber And took me on high, and higher still until we moved to the spaces betwixt
the air itself And he brought me into a vast farmlands of our own midwest And as we
descended, cries of impending doom rose from the soil One thousand, nay a million voices
full of fear And terror possessed me then And I begged, "Angel of the Lord, what are
these tortured screams?" And the angel said unto me, "These are the cries of the carrots,
the cries of the carrots! You see, Reverend Maynard, tomorrow is harvest day and to
them it is the holocaust " And I sprang from my slumber drenched in sweat like the tears
of one million terrified brothers and roared, "Hear me now, I have seen the light! They
have a consciousness, they have a life, they have a soul! Damn you! Let the rabbits wear
glasses! Save our brothers!" Can I get an amen? Can I get a hallelujah? Thank you Jesus
Life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on This is necessary It was
daylight when you woke up in your ditch You looked up at your sky then That made blue
be your color You had your knife there with you too When you stood up there was goo
all over your clothes Your hands were sticky You wiped them on your grass, so now
your color was green Oh Lord, why did everything always have to keep changing like
this You were already getting nervous again Your head hurt and it rang when you stood
up Your head was almost empty It always hurt you when you woke up like this You
crawled up out of your ditch onto your gravel road and began to walk, waiting for the
rest of your mind to come back to you You can see the car parked far down the road
and you walked toward it "If God is our Father," you thought, "then Satan must be our
cousin " Why didn't anyone else understand these important things? You got to your car
and tried all the doors They were locked It was a red car and it was new There was an
expensive leather camera case laying on the seat Out across your field, you could see
two tiny people walking by your woods You began to walk towards them Now red was
your color and, of course, those little people out there were yours too
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