maybe memories
as we trudge along through the mud
and we tried to call it home
but we weren't alright not at all
not for one
for one
for one second
never have been one to write it down
now i think i can
i know i'm stronger now
who's looking south
not me i'm not looking back
i'm done denying the truth to anyone
cause i'm alive
as we trudge along through the mud
and we tried to call it home
but we weren't alright not at all
not for one
for one
for one second
you showed me how
you seemed to find a hole
but i just laughed and smiled
begged and rolled my eyes
even cried and
denied the truth to you
just like the truth to me
mostly lied
i'm not going to look back
i'm not going to look back
i'm not going to look back
white it out like glittering wax butterflies
never have been one to write it down
now i think i can
i know i'm stronger now
who's looking south
not me i'm not looking back
i'm done denying the truth to anyone
cause i'm alive
i'm not going to look back
i'm not going to look back
i'm not going to look back
the taste of ink
is it worth it can you even hear me
standing with your spotlight on me
not enough to feed the hungry
i'm tired and i felt it for awhile now
in this sea of lonely
the taste of ink is getting old
it's four o'clock in the fucking morning
each day gets more and more like the last day
still i can see it coming
while i'm standing in the river drowning
this could be my chance to break out
this could be my chance to say goodbye
at last it's finally over
couldn't take this town much longer
being half dead wasn't what i planned to be
now i'm ready to be free
so here i am it's in my hands
and i'll savor every moment of this
so here i am alive at last
and i'll savor every moment of this
and won't you think i'm pretty
when i'm standing top the bright lit city
and i'll take your hand and pick you up
and keep you there so you can see
as long as you're alive and care
i promise i will take you there
and we'll drink and dance the night away
we'll drink and dance the night away
so here i am it's in my hands
and i'll savor every moment of this
so here i am alive at last
and i'll savor every moment of this
savor every moment of this
as long as you're alive
here i am
i promise i will take you there
as long as you're alive
here i am
i promise i will take you there
would you think i'm pretty
when i'm standing top the bright lit city
and i'll take your hand and pick you up
and keep you there so you can see
as long as you're alive
here i am
i promise i will take you there
as long as you're alive
here i am
i promise i will take you there
so here i am it's in my hands
and i'll savor every moment of this
so here i am alive at last
and i'll savor every moment of this
savor every moment of this
savor every moment of this
bulimic
from the way that you acted
to the way that i felt it
it wasn't worth my time
and now it's sad cause all i missed
wasn't that good to begin with
and now i've started you begging
saying things you don't mean
it isn't worth my time
a line's a dime a million times
and i'm about to see all of them
goodbye to you goodbye to you
you're taking up my time
goodbye to you goodbye to you
you're taking up my time
goodbye to you goodbye to you
you're taking up my time
goodbye to you goodbye to you
you call my name when i wake up
to see things go your way
i'm coughing up my time
each drag's a drop of blood a grain
a minute of my life
it's all i've got just to stay down
why the fuck am i still down
i'm hoarding all that's mine
each time i just let one slip by
i'm wasting what is mine
goodbye to you goodbye to you
you're taking up my time
goodbye to you goodbye to you
you're taking up my time
goodbye to you goodbye to you
you're taking up my time
goodbye to you goodbye to you
my time
my time
i'm about to see a million things
i thought i'd never see before and i
i'm about to do all the things i've dreamed of
and i don't even miss you at all
i'm about to see a million things
i thought i'd never see before and i
i'm about to do all the things i've dreamed of
and i don't even miss you at all
goodbye to you goodbye to you
you're taking up my time
goodbye to you goodbye to you
you're taking up my time
goodbye to you goodbye to you
you're taking up my time
goodbye to you goodbye to you
say days ago
i still remember a year ago
the times we spent
i think that i'm happier now
up from the down
by all means
it's strange cause i feel the same way
i think of what it looks like
i think of what it tastes like
same strange
said it's strange cause i feel the same
still remember what it tastes like
what it felt like
makes me ill
me ill
i think of what it looks like
i think of what it tastes like
same strange
said it's strange cause i feel the same
i think of what it looks like
i think of what it tastes like
poetic tragedy
the cup is not half empty as pessimists say
as far as he sees nothing's left in the cup
a whole cup full of nothing for him to indulge
since the voice of ambition has long since been shut up
a singer a writer he's not dreaming now of going nowhere
he gave heed to nothing and all that he was
is just a tragedy
so he voyages in circles
succeeds getting nowhere
and submits to the substance
that first got him there
then in violent frustration he cries out to god
or just no one
is there a point to this madness and all that he was
is just a tragedy
he feels alone
his heart in his hand
he's alone
he feels alone
i feel
then on that last day he breaks
and he stood tall
and he yelled
and he takes his life
buried myself alive
you almost always pick the best times
to drop the worst lines
you almost made me cry again this time
another false alarm
red flashing lights
well this time i'm not going to watch myself die
i think i made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry
i buried myself alive on the inside
so i could shut you out
and let you go away for a long time
i guess it's okay i puked the day away
i guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask nicer than that
i think the chain broke away
and i felt it the day that i had my own time
i took advantage of myself and felt fine
but it was worth the night
i caught an early flight and i made it home
i guess it's okay i puked the day away
i guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask nicer than that
nicer than that
with my foot on your neck
i finally have you
right where i want you
i guess it's okay i puked the day away
i guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask nicer than that
nicer than that
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask nicer than that
nicer
a box full of sharp objects
it's our time to shine through the down
glorified by what is ours
we've fallen in love
it was the best idea i ever had
today i fell and felt better
just knowing this matters
i just feel stronger and sharper
found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing
today i fell and felt better
just knowing this matters
i just feel stronger and sharper
found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing
today i fell and felt better
just knowing this matters
i just feel stronger and sharper
i found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing
do you want a song of glory
well i'm fucking screaming at you
it's our time to shine through the down
glorified by what is ours
we've fallen in love
it was the best idea i ever had
today i fell and felt better
just knowing this matters
i just feel stronger and sharper
i found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing
blue and yellow
and it's all in how you mix the two
and it starts just where the light exists
it's a feeling that you cannot miss
and it burns a hole
through everyone that feels it
well you're never gonna find it
if you're looking for it
won't come your way
well you'll never gonna find it
if you're looking for it
should've done something but i've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you
and you never would have though in the end
how amazing it feels just to live again
it's a feeling that you cannot miss
and it burns a hole through everyone that feels it
well you're never gonna find it
if you're looking for it
won't come your way
well you'll never gonna find it
if you're looking for it
should've done something but i've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you
should've said something but i've said it enough
by the way my words were faded
rather waste some time with you
waste some time with you
should've done something but i've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you
should've said something but i've said it enough
by the way my words were faded
rather waste some time with you
waste some time with you
greener with the scenery
you took it back
how could you go and do something like that
my fingernail phase
worst has got the best of you
i ask you and i know i need a change
you took it back
you rip my heart out of me then you put it back
i'm pulling my hair
i let you just a million times
i love you even though it isn't fair
change
run we go around again in circles
play this game over again
you took it back
you rip my heart out of me then you put it back
i'm pulling my hair
i let you just a million times
i love you even though it isn't fair
change
run we go around again in circles
play this game over again
noise and kisses
look in my eyes
i'm jaded now whatever that means
by sharing these things
i rip my heart out
it's worth my time
whatever that means
hard to see up
my neck feels stiff until i wake up
the orange i choked
and back to my neck
it's worth my time
whatever that means so
share with me
cause i need it right now
let me see your insides
or write me off
cause i'd rather starve now
if you won't open up
give it to me
give me all
whatever you want
it's never been me
to want this much from you
i can see
it tears me up
on my own
see all those people on the ground
wasting time
i try to hold it all inside
but just for tonight
the top of the world
sitting here wishing
the things i've become
that something is missing
maybe i
but what do i know
and now it seems that i have found
nothing at all
i want to hear your voice out loud
slow it down
slow it down
without it all
i'm choking on nothing
it's clear in my head
and i'm screaming for something
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all
on my own
i'm choking on nothing
it's clear in my head
and i'm screaming for something
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all
on my own
pieces mended
being faced with what i'm faced with i feel
like i can't rock
like a rock hit my heart
started to chain the day
and exploded into pieces
marry me
stay the same
lie to me and try to say you never will
i've got a feeling in my gut now fills me
with so much hope
said fuck it i'm fine
dine and dashed
the pianist peddled into morning
choke me
as of now i'm down straight up
and i can turn to the box for some peace
or a box for a piece
or a box for a smoke
but they're all gonna choke me
you're so crazy
enough in a way that i'll probably say you destroyed me
for awhile i was cleaner than now
then i started to destroy myself
with things that i love now the things that i hate
until it finally broke me
fuck my ass
choke me
