stabbing westward

so far away
each night i feel the distance
that has grown between us
open up as lonley as the space between the stars
i wish that i could find a way to smash my fist right through these walls
of ugliness and emptyness and gently touch your face
and everytime that i touch you
you feel so far away
and everytime that you need me
i feel so far away
as you lie silently beside me
choking back your tears
i wonder if you recognize
that silence now defines us
desperatley i try to fight
this overwhelming sense that i may never find
the strength to change how hopeless weve become
and everytime that i touch you
you feel so far away
and everytime that you need me
i feel so far away
and i feel so far away
feel so far away
i feel so far to fall away
we need to find a way to break this silence
we need to find a way to break this silence
we need to find a way to break this silence
thats between us
so i scream your name
i scream your name
i scream your name
i scream your name
but everytime that i touch you
you feel so far away
and everytime that you need me
you feel so far away
and everytime that you reach out
you feel me pull away
and everytime that i touch you
i touch you
i touch you
you feel so far away

perfect
lately ive noticed how muched you've changed
even though you swear youre the same
so why do i feel a million miles away
and why do i feel like we're broken
why cant it be perfect like it used to be
we cant we be perfect
why cant it be perfect like it used to be
what cant it be perfect
perfect is how i once desrcibed our love but that was before we fell apart
so why do i feel a million miles away
and why do i feel like we're broken
why cant we be perfect like we used to be
we cant we be perfect
why cant we be perfect like it used to be
what cant it be perfect
it used to be perfect
it used to be perfect
it used to be perfect
it used to be perfect
lately ive noticed how much youve changed
even though you swear youre the same
why cant we be perfect likewe used to be
we cant we be perfect
why cant we be perfect like it used to be
what cant it be perfect
it used to be perfect
it used to be perfect
it used to be perfect
it used to be perfect
it used to be perfect
it used to be perfect
it used to be perfect
it used to be perfect

i remember
do you ever wonder where we would be if we had tried a little harder
it seems like yesterday that we were making plans for the future
but its been so long since i have mourned the dream
the dreams we left abandoned
and im haunted by your face
and the memory of your kisses sweet kisses
do you remember i still remember so much
i remember never feeling so alive
do you remember i still cant forget your touch
we swore that we would never end
we knew our love trancended space and time
these memories that were made
a ghost of what we were
its fading
but there is no more pain
which is funny cause that night
i was dying i was dying
now i dont even recognize the girl i swore that someday i would marry
and i cant forget her face and i cant forget her kisses sweet kisses
do you rememeber i still remember so much
i remember always feeling so alive
do you remember i still cant forget your touch
we swore that we would never end
we knew our love trancended space and time
do you rememeber i still remember so much
i remember never feeling so alive
do you remember i still cant forget your touch
and how we swore that we would never be alone
do you rememeber i still remember so much
i remember never feeling so alive
do you remember cause i still cant forget your touch
and we swore that we would never end
we knew our love trancended space and time
we swore that we would never end
we knew our love trancended space and time
do you remember
god i remember so much
god i remember so much

wasted
i spent my life running from an emptiness that haunts me
and ive spent my whole life trying to fuck the loneliness away
and i die inside when i think of all the people i have damaged
and im tired im so tired and theres no one else except myself to blame
my lifes been wasted everything is gone
my lifes been wasted and i am all alone
my lifes been wasted and there is no one else
my lifes been wasted its time i face myself
ive spent my life trapped inside a cycle of self destruction
and ive spent my whole life trying to numb the pain inside my soul
and you know i cry when i realized i fought this war with no one
im tired im so fucking tired
gotta find a way to keep myself alive
my lifes been wasted everything is gone
my lifes been wasted and i am all alone
my lifes been wasted and there is no one else
my lifes been wasted its time i face myself
when i reach the end
will anything ive done mean anything
now when i reach the end
will anything ive done mean anything
will anything ive done mean anything
will anything ive done mean anything
my lifes been wasted everything is gone
my lifes been wasted and i am all alone
my lifes been wasted and there is no one else
my lifes been wasted
my lifes been wasted everything is gone
my lifes been wasted and i am all alone
my lifes been wasted there is no one else
my lifes been wasted its time i face myself

happy
and now you've grown to hate me
even more than you have grown to hate yourself
but has it really made a difference
sharing all that hate with someone else
please tell me are you really happy
do you think he's really worth the pain
tell me are you really happy
or did your simply throw our life away
just to be unhappy
does he worship and adore you
does he make you feel so beautifully complete
is your life so much better now
or do those same old demons haunt your sleep
please tell me are you really happy
do you think he's really worth the pain
tell me are you really happy now
or did your simply throw our life away
just to be unhappy
just to be unhappy
is he everything you dreamed of
i imagine he is so much more than me
and i tried to make you happy
but i believe you thrive on misery
please tell me are you really happy
do you think he's really worth the pain
tell me are you really happy
or did your simply throw our life away
just to be unhappy
just to be unhappy.............

the only thing
all i need is the air you breathe
all i need is the air i breathe
all i need is the air we breathe
all i need is the air i breathe
theres so many things we need so desperately
and the tv preaches
we cant live without them
you tell me what is need
ill tell you what i believe
if i ever were without it
then id be worthless
cause you are everything the only thing that matters
you are everything the only thing i need
you are everything the only thing that matters
yes you are everything you are the air i breathe
i wonder if someday
we took all their toys away
do you think theyd find the stength to go on living
cause deep inside i know
if i lost everything i owned
id be a king as long as youre beside me
cause you are everything the only thing that matters
yes you are everything the only thing i need
i love you everything the only thing that matters
cause you are everything you are the air i breathe
the air i breathe
the air i breathe
i hope someday they find
a place to bid online
where all lost souls can find their lives some meaning
i know we'll survive all we needs more time
as long as we've got lovin
on the inside
and you are everything the only thing that matters
we are everything theres nothing else i need
our love is everything the only things that matters
cause we are everything you are the air i breathe
the air i breathe
the air i breathe
the air i breathe
the air i breathe
the air i breathe
you are everything the only thing that matters
you are everything theres nothing else i need
yes you are everything the only thing that matters
our love everything you are the air i breathe
you are everything you are the air i breathe
you are the air i breathe
the air i breathe

angel
i believed that love was sacred
as i dove blindly into her sea
you see that warm embraced felt more like drowning
these endless waves crashed over me
she was an insatiable black hole
feeding off my mind and off my soul
i found love humiliating
a sick and desperate need that drives me
god i hope i never feel again
but ive never been loved by an angel
ive never felt anything so pure
and ive never been loved by an angel
until tonight when your heaven filled my room
she showed that love could lift me higher
with a kiss she repaired these broken wings
she revived my fading spirit
restored my faith in everything
i have never felt i had a home
even in a crowd i felt alone
id almost given up on life
i believed its all a lie
i never thought id ever feel this way
and ive never been loved by an angel
ive never felt anything so pure
and ive never been loved by an angel
until tonight when your heaven filled my room
i believed in nothing
but you believe in me
i thought that life was worthless
but you told me im a star
god ive never been loved by an angel
ive never felt anything so pure
god ive never been loved by an angel
until tonight when your heaven filled my room
until tongiht when your heaven filled my room

breathe you in
tommorow came too soon
i barely made it through today
still empty inside
i guess nothings really changed
im still afraid to feel
cause i cannot take the pain
im still afraid to feel
afraid to lose from what ive gained
i wish that somehow i could leave my past behind my fears behind
if i could only breathe you in
if i could only breathe you in
if i could only breathe you in
if i could only breathe you in
every drop of you
guess its time to face the truth
and admit my past mistakes
come to terms with all thats wrong with me
and all the things ill never be
why am i afraid to feel
afraid of what is true
why am i afraid to feel
when all i really want is you
to taste your skin
and fall apart and never get enough of you
if i could only breathe you in
if i could only breathe you in
if i could only breathe you in
if i could only breathe you in
every drop of you
if i could only breathe you in
if i could only breathe you in
if i could only breathe you in
if i could only breathe you in
every drop of you

high
i cant hide it i cant fight it
with every nervous crying out for release
i cant recapture the rapture
that passion that is burning inside me
ive lost so much chasing my perfect high
ive lost so much
i've never been as high as i was with you
i've never been so high
ive never been as high as i was with you
i finally realized thats a perfect high
thats a perfect high
this hunger it consumes me
i lost my soul
as you came rushing through my veins
pathetic little junkie but im the whore who needs it one last time
cause ive lost so much chasing my perfect high
ive lost so much
ive never been as high as i was with you
i've never been so high
ive never been as high as i was with you
i finally realized thats a perfect high
thats a perfect high
i've never been as high as i was with you
i've never been so high
ive never been as high as i was with you
i finally realized thats a perfect high
thats a perfect high
thats a perfect high
thats a perfect high

television
i sit alone
contemplating what is missing inside me
i desperatly try to remember
a life thats not meant to be
i meditate and try to recaputure some sense of reality
but i look around i see numb empty faces
the world is waiting to die
this apathy is so suffocating
the slow decay of my mind
ive searched the world for someone with answers
to the questions that are plauging me
i scream in vain at anyone who'll listen
but everybodys watching tv
is anyone alive
we are lost in a world where nothing matters
am i lost in a world where no one cares
is anyone alive
is anyone alive
are we lost in a world where nothing matters
are we lost in a world where no one cares
where no one cares
is anyone alive
is anyone alive