my animal

hope
let me come and break the night
i wanna come fuck away the light
i can make out the vague screams of trees as they burn and die
but will i watch her leave so boundless and so free
drifting carelessly as the wind whispers so gently
i hope
all i do is hope
let me come wash away your fears
we go play in tides of tears
this seems like the year that i will rip off all my skin
and then i’ll be exposed to the stars up in the sky
they will all know when i learn how to shed my light
i hope
all i do is hope for the blind man
hope for the crippled man
hope for a child’s smile
all i do is hope
i’ll watch her leave boundless and free drifting so carelessly with the wind
trees they scream boundless and free
they scream so gently that this love will never die
this love will never die
hope for the blind man
this love will never die
hope for the blind man
this love will never die
hope for the blind man
this love will never die
hope for the blind man
this love will never die
i hope
all i do is hope for the blind man
hope for the crippled man
hope she will smile again
all i do is hope

clear
and my mind was confusion like thoughts of clouds in the sky
wanted to touch the water so i could feel that high
the day was so full of bliss i feared the coming of night
then i had to feel my tears as they burned my eyes alive
take my mind out
so i can be clear
the pure blue sky
it seemed to kill the tears
it seemed to kill these tears
and my mind is confusion like thoughts that eat the blue sky
they never understand me you never have even tried
i just wanted to be lost so i could see what’s inside
nothing to say to you people you remain so fucking blind
take my mind out
so i can be clear
the pure blue sky
it seemed to kill the tears
take my mind out
its confusion
the pure blue sky
one day i will be
one day i will be
one day i will be
one day i will be clear
one day i will be clear
so when my thoughts clear from confusion like a blue cloudless sky
there’ll be nothing to say to you people you’re forever fucking blind
take my mind out
so i can be clear
the pure blue sky
it seemed to kill the tears
take my mind out
its confusion
the pure blue sky

i’m a cloud
and you will heal yourself when the rain begins to fall
feel the fire burning inside us all
remove me for going in unchained
blow away for yourself and gather again
and listen to the conversations of the sea
inside us all lies a quiet beach
if we fall into our center we’ll become free
i myself could use a little clarity
cause i am so full of love
i am so full of hate
i am so full of these feelings
that tear me every which way
i am so full of you
i am so full of me
i am so full of these words
that don't tell her a fucking thing
i am so full of love
i am so full of hate
i am so full of these feelings
that tear me every which way
then i opened up my mouth
i'm a cloud
and these words they seldom come out
when i looked into her eyes i couldn’t help to wonder why
she’d want a cloud that’s floating around
but i feel it's time to say goodbye to fear
and feel the fury of these tears
as they run down my face
i can feel her so far away
cause i am a cloud
and i am so afraid
so don't you come and gather at me in this haze
i sit alone and feel the suns daze
as she tell him not to little everyday
i blow away remaining unfazed
but i feel the there's something crawling out of me
i'm just a cloud watching the moon rise
mother fucker stepped on me
trying to fuck me from behind
cause i am a cloud
and i am so afraid
i i am so full of love
i i am so full of love
i am so full of love
i am so full of hate
i am so full of these feelings
that tear me every which way
i am so full of you
i am so full of me
i am so full of these words
that don't tell her a fucking thing
i am so full of love
i am so full of hate
i am so full of these feelings
that tear me every which way
i am so full of love
love
i am so full of love
i am so full of hate
i am so full of love
i am so full

la playa
i think i could love you people
i think i could love
some of you people
if you weren’t so afraid
of what you don’t know
sometimes you’re so afraid
of what you don’t know
but you’ll say that that’s not so
can you see your children
looking to the sea
i have watched all your children
looking to the sea
if you just would understand
but you won’t know
you’ll never understand
so you won’t know
but you’ll say that that’s not so
and you’ll say that that’s not so
it’s so lovely to see you burn
it’s so beautiful to watch you cry
and now i’m going to thrive
and you won’t know
and now i’m going to thrive
and you won’t know
still you’ll say that that’s not so
i think i could love you people
sometimes i think i could love
some of you people
if you weren’t so afraid

happy
sometimes her love explodes me
as i watch leaves resist fall
was it something that was said
sometimes mouths are so full of words
that nothing is ever said to him
lays in sand alone
no one talks to him
everyone walks by
so i wonder if he’s happy
i wonder what it’d be like if we all smiled
i wonder if he’s happy
i wonder when i’ll be happy
as little girl’s tears resist fall
was it something mother said
sometimes the words just fall out
as more booze goes in to cloud mind
sad dog bites his leash
little girl she sympathized
they both yearn
and they both yearn to be free
and sometimes this love explodes me
wonder if she’s happy
wonder what it’d be like if we all smiled
wonder if she’s happy
wonder when i’ll be happy
and her love explodes me in the morning
there’s so much to be used
is this their fault
what it have been something that you said to me
cause sometimes my words do fall
love the words
the words
the words
happy
happy
happy
happy
happy
happy
oh happy
are you happy
are you happy
happy
so i wonder if she’s happy
wonder what it’d be like if we all smiled
wonder if she’s happy
wonder when i’ll be happy

mr. loh
as long as i can see the ocean breaking
the ocean break on herself
it will remind me that all the shit i’m feeling will soon be will be all right
it’s gonna be alright
mr loh he finds the water
and it seems to wash this place off
as the dolphins jump and play
he speaks to us in the sand
do you know the meaning of life
or are you just a simple man
and then he swims away
he swims away
mr. loh will you speak to me you’re the only one i understand
mr. loh will you sing to me you’re the only one who makes sense
mr. loh is not afraid to be naked
but some men fall from grace
they are not secure with themselves
he doesn’t measure people
by things we consider important
can’t seem to comprehend today
so he swims away
he swims away
mr. loh will you speak to me you’re the only one i understand
mr. loh will you sing to me you’re the only one who makes sense
as long as i can see the ocean break on herself as the dolphins jump and play
it will remind me that all the shit i'm feeling will soon be all right
mr. loh will you speak to me you’re the only one i understand
mr. loh will you sing to me you’re the only one who makes sense
mr. loh
mr. loh
this shit’s gonna be all right

make me pure
i’m feeling something about today
the way the rain has settled on the ground
makes me think of the drops in the sky
they’re born from a cloud
like wombs into a world unkind
where they now lay and die
wonder what it’s like to die
so don’t tell me a thing
the more i know
the more uncertain i will be
i just want to be naked all the time
upon this mountain
fucking myself into oblivion
and i will be free
so free
pure
pure
make me pure
make me pure
make me pure
make me pure
make me pure
make me pure
make me pure
make me pure
make me pure in the morning
when you feel me come
make me pure in the morning when you feel me come
pure in the morning when you feel me come
make me pure in the morning when you feel me come
pure in the morning when you feel me come
make me pure in the morning when you feel me come
pure in the morning when you feel me come
make me pure in the morning when you feel me come
pure
pure
pure
make me pure

a letter from prison
sometimes i wonder
torn between my heart
torn between my heart and my mind
and when i feel my body
to see if i’m in
if i’m in tune with what i find
but i don’t know how to feel
and i don’t know what to feel anymore
wanna feed on this indecision
tell me things will be different this time
i’m a boy who’s so sick of searching
maybe there’s a heaven near by
so should i let these thoughts out or should i let you in
it’s so easy to be alone
look within will i find home
i just don't know how to feel
feeling so afraid like i am stuck here
like i am stuck here and cant move
i like to watch the sunsets
lighting the warm colors
the warmth that blinds the truth
but i don’t know how to feel
and i don’t know what to feel anymore
i keep on hurting myself
tearing off the skin
let it burn in the dirt
wanna un-learn what i’ve learned
though it may be the truth
the truth it hurts
and we have something inside
that no mother fucker will touch
no i won’t think like you
if i did what am i trying to prove
i just don’t know
i just don’t know
i just don’t know
i just don’t know
i just don’t know how to feel
i just don’t know what to feel anymore

fury ‘n’ i
tortured in my world
surely it’s something i can’t hear
i’m so full of it
there’s just nothing i can deal with
my soul feels tortured
void of my own existence
if i keep trying
there’s no point taken break
everybody breaks eventually
ends just the same
try don’t die
ill rise again
it’s the fury
the fire burned the winter
the winter chilled the fire
and when all was said and done
there was nothing in either one
the fire burned the winter
the winter killed the fire
and when all was said and done
there was nothing that either one could offer me
the fury ’n’ i
the fury ’n’ i
the sun it shined so beautifully
she seemed to bleed too willfully
and when all was said and done i could still feel her fury
the sun it died so beautifully
she seemed to bleed too willfully
and when all was said and done
i could still feel the fury of her
patience as she sits in a listless sky feeling removed
i have never felt so alone
i have never felt so fulfilled in my life
patience as i sit beside myself feeling obscure
i have never felt so fulfilled but i feel the fury of patience
and now there’s fury ‘n’ i
fury ‘n’ i
fury ‘n’ i
fury in the listless sky
the fire burned the winter
the winter chilled the fire
and when all was said and done
there was nothing in either one
the sun it shined so beautifully
she seemed to bleed too willfully
and when all was said and done i could feel the fury of her patience

benkei
i’m so pure
like a child
you were always locked up by yourself
wasn’t there when you died
didn’t get to bury you
didn’t get to bury you
didn’t get to bury all that you
one last time
one last time
you’re so beautiful
you’re so beautiful
you’re so beautiful
you were beautiful
if there’s a wait and ashes are brown
there’s a stillness in my heart
are you happy now
you know i loved you
you know i loved you
you know i loved you
but i think i love you more
now that you’re gone
you’re so beautiful
you’re so beautiful
you’re so beautiful
you were beautiful
when you ran through the field
when you ran through the field
when you ran through the field
of the pretty flowers that smelt good
as you ran through the field
as you ran through my heart
you’re so beautiful
you’re so beautiful
you’re so beautiful
you’re so beautiful
you’re so beautiful
you’re so beautiful
you were beautiful

in the lateness of a day
sometimes i can feel so detached
from anything where nothing becomes everything
when i look in the mirror i say
i don't want to fight you anymore
fight with you anymore
fight with you anymore
these mountains always hold me close
burning me inside myself
i'm lost within me
something that my eyes cant see
a childs innocence is what
always seems to set them free
in the lateness of a day
too many things that men won’t say
about love tonight
is there love tonight
love
love it always finds the will
sees its way through anything
so why the fuck wont i let
this love come and hold me
these mountains always hold me close
burning me inside myself
i'm lost within me
something that my eyes cant see
a child’s innocence is what
always seems to set them free
in the lateness of a day
too many things that men wont say
about love tonight
is there love tonight
tonight
love
love
love
love
love
love
love
love
love

my animal
every time i wake up
i think of love from another view
then i breathe it in
never wanted to say that i am just a little boy
grabbing to find a way in
and today i feel just like an animal
that’s trying to hide from all of you
ill find the world to live in
the simple fact that life
each day brings something new
i can be so naive
to the ways of this world
so i try to spin myself into a ball of love
if i look into your eyes will i feel the harmony rise and converge above
sitting in this meadow i long to feel my animal
trying to find a way out
beneath the surface do you feel the will to kill
to kill without any doubt
i can feel my animal
i can feel my animal
i wanna kill him
and let him know i’m alive
and get to watch his breathe leave
i’ll watch the birds up in the trees
but will i feel guilt as he dies
yeah
all he does is use the world
so i wont cry
no i wont cry
no i wont cry
i will never cry for him
i can feel my animal
wanna take his life
his eyes are stone and soul is ice
yeah
love for the animal
he always seems to kill
and as he does this
he thinks to them
he thinks that this is your will
i wanna lock the fucker in a cage
cause when i looked into his eyes
???????
its so good to be alive
he’s scared to be alive
he’s scared to be alive
he’s scared to be alive
scared to be alive
i feel my animal
wanna take his life
his eyes are stone soul is ice yeah
i wanna kill him i wanna take his life
his eyes are stone his soul is ice