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hollow
run, desire, run
this sexual being
run him like a blade
to and through the heart
no conscience
one motive to cater to the hollow
screaming feed me here
fill me up again
temporarily pacify this hungering
so grow libido throw
dominoes of indescretion down
falling all around in cycles circles
constantly consuming conquer and devour
it's time to bring the fire down
bridle all this indescretion
long enough to edify
and permanently fill this hollow
feed me
fill me up again
temporarily pacify this hungering

Magdalena
overcome by your moving temple
overcome by this holiest of altars
so pure, so rare to witness such an earthly goddess
that i've lost my self control
beyond compelled to throw this dollar down
before your holiest of altars
i'd sell my soul,
my self esteem a dollar at a time for
one chance,
one kiss,
one taste of you my magdalena
i bear witness to this place,
this prayer so long forgotten
so pure, so rare to witness such an earthly goddess
that i'd sell my soul,
my self esteem a dollar at a time for
one chance,
one kiss,
one taste of you my black madonna
i'd sell my soul,
my self esteem a dollar at a time for
one taste,
one taste,
one taste of you my magdalena

Rose
don't disturb the beast,
the temperamental goat, the snail
while he's feeding on the rose
stay frozen compromise what i will,
i am bend around the wind
silently blown about again
i'm treading so soft and lightly compromising my will, i am
i am, i will
so no longer will i
lay down play dead,
play your doe in the headlights locked down and terrified
your deer in the headlights shot down and horrified
when push comes to pull comes to shove comes to step around
this self destructive dance that never would've ended till
i rose i roared aloud here i will i am
i am i will
so no longer will i
lay down play dead
play this
kneel down, gun shy, martyr, pitiful
i rose, i roared, i will, i am

Judith
you're such an inspiration for ways that i will never ever choose to be
oh so many ways for me to show you how your savior has abandoned you
fuck your god
he did this
took all you had
and left you this way
still you pray
never stray
never taste
of the fruit never thought to question why
it's not like you killed someone
it's not like you drove a hateful spear into his side
praise the one who left you broken down and paralyzed
he did it all for you
oh so many ways for me to show you how your dogma has abandoned you
pray to your christ
to your god
never taste of the fruit
never stray
never break
never choke on a lie
even though he's the one who did this to you thought to question why
it's not like you killed someone
it's not like you drove a spiteful spear into his side
talk to jesus christ as if he knows the reasons why
he did this all to you
he did it all for you

Orestes
metaphor for a missing moment
pull me into your perfect circle
one womb
one shape
one resolve
liberate this will to release us all
gotta cut away, clear away, snip away and sever this umbilical residue
that's keeping me from killing you
and from pulling you down with me here
i can almost hear you scream
give me one more medicated peaceful moment
because i don't want to feel this overwhelming hostility
gotta cut away, clear away, snip away and sever this umbilical residue
that's keeping me from killing you

3 Libras
threw you the obvious
and you flew with it on your back
a name in your recollection down among a million same
difficult not to feel a little bit
disappointed and passed over
when i've looked right through to see you naked but oblivious
and you don't see me
but i threw you the obvious just to see if there's more behind the
eyes of a fallen angel
eyes of a tragedy
here i am expecting just a little bit too much form the wounded
but i see through it all
and see you
so i threw you the obvious to see what occurs behind the
eyes of a fallen angel
eyes of a tragedy
oh well
apparently nothing
you don't see me
you don't see me at all

Sleeping Beauty
delusional
i believe i could cure it all for you dear
coax or trick or drive or
drag the demons from you
make it right for you sleeping beauty
truly thought i could heal you
far beyond a visible sign of your awakening
failing miserably to rescue sleeping beauty
truly thought i couuld make it right
if i kissed you one more time to
help you face the nightmare
but you're far too poison for me
such a fool to think that i could wake you from your slumber
that i could actually heal you
sleeping beauty
poisoned and hopeless
far beyond a visible sign of your awakening
failing miserably to find a way to comfort you
far beyond a visible sign of your awakening
hiding from some poisened memory
poisened and hopeless
sleeping beauty

Thomas
humble and helpless
learning to pray
praying for visions to show me the way
show me the way to forgive you
allow me to let it go
allow me to be forgiven and
show me the way to let go
illuminate me i'm just praying
for you to show me where i'm to begin
reconnect to you

Renholder
And I will not fall down

(any other words are unknown as of now)
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Thinking Of You

lying all alone and restless
unable to lose this image
sleepless unable to focus on anything but your surrender
tuggin a rhythm to the vision that's in my head
tuggin a beat to the sight of you lying
so delighted with a new understanding
something about a little evil that makes that
unmistakeable noise i was hearing
unmistakable soud that i know so well
spent and sighing with that look in your eye
spent and sweatin with that look on your face like
sweet revelation
sweet surrender
thinking of you
thinking of you
sweet revelation
sweet surrendering

Breņa
my reflection wraps and pulls me under
healing waters to be bathed in breņa
guide me safely in
worlds i've never been to
heal me heal me
my dear breņa
so vulverable
but it's all right
heal me heal me
my dear breņa
show me lonely and
show me openings to
lead me closer to you
my dear brena
so vulnerable
but it's all right opening to heal

Over
been over this before
been over
and over
and over
and over
and over
and over
and over
this before

Diary of a Lovesong
Screaming at the window
Watch me die another day
Hopeless situation
Endless price I'll have to pay
Diarrhea of a madman
Walk the line again today
Entries of confusion
Dear diary, I'm here to stay.
Sanity now and beyond me
I will always love you.
However long I stay
I will always love you.
Whatever words I say
I will always love you.
There's no choice.
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I'm hopeless
Voices in the darkness
Scream away my mental health
Can I ask a question
To help me save me from myself?
Sanity now and beyond me
I will always love you.
However long I stay
I will always love you.
Whatever words I say
I will always love you.
There's no choice.

(**segues to**)

I will always love you. (repeat 6x)
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I'm whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I'm whole again
I will always love you
There's no choice