L.D. 50 L.D. 50

Monolith
open your mind
open your mind
open your mind
open your mind
open your mind
they seem to have suggested that our evolution i suppose from the animal kingdom
in to the human kingdom itself was paralyzed or
triggered by our encounters with these hallucinogens
yes we are an ape with a symbiotic relationship to a mushroom
and that has given us
self reflection language religion
and all the spectrum of effects that flow from these things
and one can only wonder how these hallucinogens
might affect our future evolution as well
they have brought us to this point
and as we make our relationship to them conscience
we might be able to take control of our future evolution at hand
they've had an enormous impact on shaping...

Dig
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was slowly changing
I would love to beat the face
Of any mother fucker that's thinkin' they can change me
White knuckles grip pushing through for the gold
If you're wantin' a piece of me I broke the mother fuckin' mold
I'm drowning in your wake
Shit rubbed in my face
Teething on concrete
Gums bleeding
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was slowly changing
I struggle in violated space
Sell out motherfuckers in the biz that try to fuck me
Hang from their T's rated P.G. insight
I ain't sellin' my soul when there's nothing to buy
I'm livid in my space
Pissing in my face
Fuck you while you try
To fuck me
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was you ain't fuckin' changing me
Let me help you tie the rope around your neck
Let me help to talk you the wrong way off the ledge
Let me help you hold the glock against your head
Let me help you tie the rope around your neck
Let me help to talk you the wrong way off the ledge
Let me help you hold the glock against your head
Let me help to chain the weights onto your legs
Get on the plank fuck
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was slowly changing
Wish you were committing
Suicide suckin' on a mother fuckin' tailpipe
Dead man dangling from a tight rope
Limbless in the middle of a channel bob away

Internal Primates Forever
Jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump
Cop provisions feed my addictions mistakes I made then
I opened up the holes and they crawled in
Now when it's time for the feed they won't let me forget
They ride upon my back and they'll fuck me with their need
My invisible enemies all my monkeys
Their coming they're coming their coming they're coming
their coming they're coming to take me away
Disgusted with my position so submissive I am the only way we get away is
give in sharpen up the razors stab the needles into pipes to kill cravings so
sick of this in me can't stand the want to need can't get free always got a grip
on me
There's no use to fight this wrenching tourniquet of deprivation obedience
subservience leads to substance
Do you want more give it to me
Leave my motivation to chemical dependency no room for patience
Don't want it need it come on right now
(chorus voice 2)
Everything I've become now is everything I didn't want to be
Every time I try to run away I fall on my face they drag me back
Every time I try to run away I fall on my face
Help! They won't leave me alone
Help! They won't leave me alone
They won't leave me alone
If I would have known back then what I know now I 'd take it back
If I would have known back then what I know now I 'd take it back
I'd take it back I'd take it all fuckin' back
Stay away stay away
Hold me I'm shaking violently
Pull me out of my covering
Mold me into a new man
Lull me into a deep sleep
There's no use to fight this wrenching tourniquet of deprivation obedience
subservience leads to substance
Even if you want you can't stop
Even if you want you can't stop
Even if you want you can't stop
Even if you want you can't stop
Internal primates forever
Internal primates forever
Internal primates forever
Internal primates forever
Internal primates forever
Internal primates forever
Internal primates forever
Internal primates forever

-1
Losses losers and more
gain of life's pleasures
cohorts listen behind the doors
to a life meaningless
less than zero in me
all my walls falling down
pains aloft misery
I'm sure that the lessons were learned
I'm sure that the punishments went well
deserved
by the pawn in the plan taste of shit bitterness walk from me
everything systematically
Come on you were theone you were the one
To dredge up shit inside of me in my pointless life of nothing
Tell me what I'm supposed to be
Tell me who I'm supposed to be
Tell me what it takes to ascend
Tell me what it takes to live
Patience, pleasures and rewards, come in due time stare at the sun I'm bored
in a life meaningless soaking up all of me like the cross you worship life is loss
look at me I'm sure that some day we'll wake up I'm sure that some day we'll
wake from the dream
Of success and focus tunneling to the light glowing deep inside of me your
taunting I wake up
Come on you were the one you were the one
To dredge up shit inside of me in my pointless life of nothing
Tell me what I'm supposed to be
Tell me who I'm supposed to be
Tell me what it takes to ascend
Tell me what it takes to live
Tell me now
Tell me now
Pain misery (in me) distress (calling) dismal know where (loser) depressed idiot (man I'm the) failure
Loser (in me) loser (who I am) loser (in me)
Don't feel sorry don't feel sorry for me
Don't need your sympathy or empathy, don't need your sympathy inside of me
Don't need your sympathy or empathy, don't need your sympathy inside of me
Don't feel sorry don't feel sorry for me
Come on
I know you were the one you were the one
Numb to feelings inside of me why I've seized my vision
Don't need you to tell me who to be
Don't need you to tell me what to be
Don't need you to tell me how to ascend
Don't need you to tell me how to live

Death Blooms
Cold seems crippling lame meander through corridors aroma's thick with age
mark off the day reflections of my life are fading
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in
Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in
A structure that's collapsing don't want it cast into
Maker take the body don't want it wants me
Past has found its place salvation is no more will god accept my peace
bleached will pardon me reflections of my life are fading
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in
Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in
A structure that's collapsing don't want it cast into
Maker take the body don't want it wants me
I just want to run fly kites wrestle jump and play
Swim through waves that crash to shore memories in me
cocooned in misery
I'm sick and tired of embracing reflections of past time receive me or cast me away
god please take me away
resistance futile suicidal ideas I will crucify my own being satisfy selfish needs
fuck the deities justify my own right to what's waiting for me
On the other side the time has come lock and load
I'm coming ( I'm coming) I'm coming ( I'm coming) I'm coming I'm coming home
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in
Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in
A structure that's collapsing descending don't want it
Maker take the body don't want it wants me
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in
Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in
A structure that's collapsing descending don't want it
Maker take the body don't want it wants me
I just want to run fly kites wrestle jump and play
Swim through waves that crash to shore memories in me
cocooned in misery
The darkness overcomes soul soars to the other plain
Existence past the door I sail through purgatory's bay
I asked a god for poison cradle me sown to my dreams souls searching death
blossoms where clouds lie over me held in god's hands death blooming
Dark for fear of failure an inner gloom as wide as an eye and fermenting
roiling hate death grip in my veins unveiling rancid petals flowering forth foul
nectar the space between a blink and a tear
death blooms.

Golden Ratio
(no lyrics)

Cradle
Breathe...
Breathe...
Breathe...
Breathe...
Push...
Push...
Push...
Push...
I lost you you were my god thought what do I do now
you were never there for me never there to carry me
26 years looking back that time is gone it was you I believed in look what
you've done to me realize what you've done to
Me
I'll ????
I'll ????
I would have been for the life that walked away from me
I can't see going on in this darkness I'm blind beneath my cradle the bough
has broke, I exorcise my loss your lie the punishment
It takes time to try to mend the wounds of all the suffering
What do I do now all I'm asking from you please send me a sign to guide me
through the times that lie in front of me I'll get by myself
Look at me now, a piece of shit like you
Look at me now, you left me so fuck you
Look at me now, a piece of shit like you
Look at me now, you left me so fuck you
Everybody leaves me everybody's gone
Watch my father leave me, there's nobody left
Feels like I've never been loved
Everybody leaves me never gave a shit about me
Everybody's gone I'll rot in my head alone
I don't give a fuck about you go the fuck away
(Everybody leaves me)
I don't give a fuck about you go the fuck away
(Never gave a shit about me)
I don't give a fuck about you go the fuck away
(Everybody's gone)
I don't give a fuck about you go the fuck away
(I'll rot in my head alone)
FUCKING COCK SUCKER
Fake being, inside of my heart you are the liar
Innocence displaced
????
in my own life
Been left
Here I stand now and I'm alone
With no one to comfort me
One set of footprints in the sand
No one to take my hand, I'll
I'll walk through as long as I need
I'll drift through my life though I'm alone
Outgrown the cradle that once housed me
And I've found that all I need is
Me
Me
Me
Me
Found I've never needed you to push through
All the shit that stacks up inside of my life
Endless plight that circulates through my body
I'll keep stumbling, beating, pummeling
Teething on the rind and renounce my being
I can't see going on.
I can't see going on.
I can't see going on.
I can't see going on.
I can't see
I'm too tired
I can't see I can't see going on.
I'm so tired, of trying to mend the wounds of all my suffering.
What do I do now?
All I'm asking from you please,
Send me a sign
To guide me through the times that lie in front of me.
I'll get by myself
I can't see going on fuck it.
I can't see going on fuck it.
I can't see going on fuck it.
I can't see going on fuck it.

Nothing To Gein
Cold and silent, soiled face I will wash it all away
With my love
That's all she's ever needed, from me
It's my time, to mother,
One of my own in my life,
I am so alone, left with no one
In my life, I'm so alone
Life submissiveness,
Hypnotizing the ignorant a little boy's best friend's always his mother,
At least that's what she said,
Life of a simple man,
Taught that everyone else is dirty,
And their love is meaningless,
I'm just a soiled dirty boy,
I'm just a soiled dirty boy,
Sheltered life innocence,
Insulated memories, spark reflections in my head,
Duality in my consciousness,
Caught in the war of hemispheres,
Between the love lost in my head,
Mommy do you still live inside of me,
(Nothing is left for me to gain the sickness has gotta be put away)
I'm so lost in my life without any guiding,
(Nothing is left for me to gain the sickness has gotta be put away)
Protected me my whole life from everything,
(Nothing is left for me to gain the sickness has gotta be put away)
Nailed shut the doors to the shrine,
(Nothing is left for me to gain the sickness has gotta be put away)
To screen your dead eyes from me and my sickness,
Mutilate and sew my new clothes for masquerading,
Aprons of flesh corpse scalped hair with skin upon my face,
Deliver the remains from her womb of earth,
(Nothing is left for me to gain they're coming to take me far away)
Prep the rack and tie up for new love's rebirth,
(Nothing is left for me to gain they're coming to take me far away)
Covert understanding of novice surgery,
(Nothing is left for me to gain they're coming to take me far away)
I'll focus concentration and only take just what I need
(Nothing is left for me to gain they're coming to take me far away)
For sickness I'm masticating,
Dancing and masturbating,
Celebrate in fields of night with skin upon my face
Life submissiveness,
Hypnotizing the ignorant a little boy's best friend's always his mother,
At least that's what she said,
Life of a simple man,
Taught that everyone else is dirty,
And their love is meaningless,
Life submissiveness,
Hypnotizing the ignorant a little boy's best friend's always his mother,
At least that's what she said,
Life of a simple man,
Taught that everyone else is dirty,
And their love is meaningless,
I'm so soiled
If I soak my hands in others blood am I sick,
If I wash my hands in others blood am I sick,
If I drench myself in others blood am I sick,
If I bathe myself in others blood
Blame mother for the sickness,
Mutilate and sew my new clothes for masquerading
Aprons of flesh corpse scalped hair with skin upon my face
Dance and masturbate in night light by myself
Nothing is left for me to gain they're coming to take me far away
Nothing is left for me to gain they're coming to take me far away
Nothing is left for me to gain they're coming to take me far away
Nothing is left for me to gain they're coming to take me far away
Life submissiveness
Hypnotizing the ignorant a little boy's best friend's always his mother
At least that's what she said
Life of a simple man
Taught that everyone else is dirty
And their love is meaningless
Life submissiveness
Hypnotizing the ignorant a little boy's best friend's always his mother
At least that's what she said,
Life of a simple man,
Taught that everyone else is dirty,
And their love is meaningless,
Iím so soiled
Life of a simple man taught that everyone else is dirty and love is meaningless
I'm so soiled
Life of a simple man taught that everyone else is dirty and love is meaningless
I'm so soiled
Soiled
Soiled
Soiled
Soiled
Soiled
Soiled
Soiled
Soiled
Soiled
Soiled
Soiled
Soiled
Soiled
Soiled
Soiled
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Soiled
Soiled

Mutatis Mutandis
(no lyrics)

Everything And Nothing
We swallow the spit,
Steal acceptance lend denial,
Telling me that my life is free and boundless,
Then I'm forced to stay between the lines,
They construct death to demolish life,
Plant the seeds to harvest loss,
Found empty truth is full of lies,
lies, lies, lies
We're hoping for despair,
Starvation's gluttony,
Subtle chaotic peace,
War divided unity,
Pro life, pro choice,
Blinded insight,
Left wing, right wing,
Black, white,
Leaders following,
I am everything I am nothing,
I am everything I am nothing,
I am everything I am nothing,
I am everything I am nothing,
I am everything I am nothing,
I am everything I am nothing,
Stop fuckin' with me, I'm the accused I'm not the enemy
You're so confused no way you could enlighten me,
No freedom trapped in slavery, deceitful honesty mother fuckin' human not a machine
Stop fuckin' with me, I'm the accused I'm not the enemy
You're so confused no way you could enlighten me,
No freedom trapped in slavery, deceitful honesty mother fuckin' human not a machine
Lay your hands upon me,
In search for answers inviting,
Constant struggle inside me,
Guide me through this nothing that's everything
I am everything I am nothing

Severed
And we hide behind
Lies, anger, hate they'll shoo love away
Build shells of ourselves outside
It shelters body from cold reigns of reality
Come on, step out, of your rind, assemble strength, focus,
release and run to me you can never look back to the visions from the past
they fade and wilt in time,
You've got to just trust me to hold your hand through
Then I'll turn and walk away
Hate you (Eclipse you)
Cut you away
bleed you strip you
of your states of ain soph aur,
Hate You (Eclipse you)
Cut you away
I spit up on my plate
push everything away,
from me
And we sever all ties,
It creates disruption midst circle of friends,
I become the sacrifice,
Spare your life and leave me to my misery
Get off the cross, and save yourself, run away you'll be o.k.
Run now (run away)
get away from me (and dont look back)
if I can get my grip (dont ask for hell)
I'll pull you down into the hell (recieving it)
I call my head you'll never get away
I sit down in my ugly place (walk across)
and build walls out of fragments from my past of (and save yourself)
all the people that I needed (tortured soul)
and loved that walked away, (walk away)
You've got to just trust me to hold your hand through then I'll turn and walk away
I walk under the clouds of gray,
Sphere of storms in my head,
I'm trapped again in endless rain
I divorce the thoughts of you I love with me,
I divorce your innocence and my guilt,
I divorce the lying sellout confidence,
I'm divorcing every mother fuckin' thing
I divorce the love bled meaningless,
I divorce the makeshift harmony,
I divorce the taunting acts of violence,
I divorce the pastime of jealousy,
I divorce control,
I divorce the faith,
I divorce the virtue,
I divorce the rain,
I divorce the excuse,
I divorce the greed,
I divorce the need,
I divorce iniquity in this mother fuckin' bullshit life,
Just want it all to go away,
Just want to run away to die, take it, myself, my life
Text book fucking mental, off me and pitch me in a hole
in this mother fucking bullshit life
in this fucking bullshit life
I'll always be your shadow
And veil your eyes from states of ain soph aur
I can't be the hero anymore
I spit up on my plate and then I turn and walk away,
I spit up on my plate and I disrupt the family,
I spit up on my plate and I sever the entity,
And I feel your warm sun on my face
Separate .
Separate .
Separate .
Separate .
Hate you (Eclipse you)
Cut you away
bleed you strip you
of your states of ain soph aur
Hate You (Eclipse you)
Cut you away
I spit up on my plate
push everything away,
from me
Hate you (Eclipse you)
Cut you away
bleed you strip you
of your states of ain soph aur
Hate You (Eclipse you)
Cut you away
It's always been this way, I push it all away,
From me

Hate you (Eclipse you)
Cut you away
bleed you strip you
of your states of ain soph aur
Hate You (Eclipse you)
Cut you away
I spit up on my plate
push everything away,
Recombinant Resurgence
(no lyrics)

Prod
Emotions inside us troubling
The hatred inside us escalating
The sickness inside us keeps you weak
The masses inside of us suffering they are bleeding
The calling inside us sick with greed
The voices calling to us deafening we're not listening
Cannot receive the obvious
Line up cattle and cut the necks
Swat at the flies omit disgust
The leaders inside us posturing
The pollution inside of us suffocating me
The science inside us menacing
The will that's inside of us its dying end is coming
Cannot receive the obvious
Line up cattle and cut the necks
Drain us of life and cleanse the mess
cleanse the mess
cleanse the mess
cleanse the mess
cleanse the mess
Wash me off inside, wash me off inside
We're killing ourselves
We're killing ourselves
We're killing ourselves killers
Goddamn we fucked up the circumstance,
Too late to save us from ourselves,
Callous minds against trust and confidence,
Too late to give a damn now
Too late to save us from ourselves, too late to make it all go away,
Too late to beg pardons from the mother, too late to give a damn
It's too late to save us from ourselves,it's too late to make it all go away,
it's too late to beg pardons from the mother,it's too late to give a damn
Wait wait (wait) for the coming of the end
Wait for the coming the killing the ending the plight of man
Deserving no mercy expelling by god's hand
It's okay the ending it's over no more pain
no more pain
no more pain
Emotion the hatred the sickness the calling Cannot receive the obvious
Line up cattle and cut the necks
Swat at the flies omit disgust
Drain us of life and cleanse the mess


Pharmaecopia
Does your god come in a capsule
To sedate you tear the walls down
Headless prison cannibals chew
to consume you bring the alien
Halcium and morphine,
5-methoxy-n, n-dimethyltryptamine,
Psilocybin, mescaline, aspirin, histomine,
Brushite, darvaset, valium, caffeine, cannabis, and LSD,
Ayahuasca, harmine give it all to me I want it
These are just a few of my favorite things
These are just a few of my favorite things
Trisolam and zanex, serotonin, mdma, ibogaine, dopeamine,
Tetra-hydro-chloride, atenolol,
Amanita muscaria,
Boric oxide, arrabinitol, psilocin, and flamizine,
Cylotec and harmaline
Give it all to me I want it
Does your god come in a capsule to sedate you
Tear the walls down, headless prison,
Cannibals chew to consume you,
Bring the alien
Does your god come in a capsule to sedate you
Tear the walls down, headless prison,
Cannibals chew to consume you,
Bring the alien
kill the alien kill your alien kill your alien You can't kill me
I'm already dead
Inside my hole
Inside my head
We just beg for any way to be sedated
It's all about escaping
Numb to me
Numb body from this hell
I can feel them pushing, I can feel them pulling
I can feel them holding, I can feel them moving,
I can feel them prying, I can feel them prodding,
I can feel them breathing, I can feel them digging
I can feel them stabbing, I can feel them scoping,
I can feel them living, I can feel it,
Consume, take in, plunging, plumbing,
Instruments prying, aliens inside me,
Tooling the machine,
Intoxicating,
Feel it unfolding, riddles in me
It's all about escaping, we just beg for any way to get away
Who do you bow down to, does your god come in a capsule or on a plate
They're trying to sedate you, swallow self and bring on the alien
You tried to kill me, I'm already dead to this world
I'm already dead to this world
I'm already dead to this world
I'm already dead to this world
I'm already dead to this world
I'm already dead to this world

Under My Skin
Nailed inside my head,
Fuck this I don't need your shit,
All the lies deceit and arrogance,
Talk your shit like my life is some kinda game
Like you fuckin' know me
Just go far away and be small
Run far away and be small
Go lie in a hole and be small
Thorns (So you want inside of me)
splinters (So you want a piece of this)
pushing (So you want to tear me down)
Under my skin (for your own selfish wants and needs)
(So you want inside of me)
They want in
(So you want a piece of this)
Sharpened tongue (So you want to tear me down)
to penetrate me (for your own selfish wants and needs)
If you really think you got what it takes to be me,
(to penetrate me)
Then walk a mile in the skin of my head case mental being
(to penetrate me)
So you want a piece of this life that belongs to me
(to penetrate me)
Well make a cut on the line and take a deeper look inside of the freak
(to penetrate me)
That is me, fucker, come on,
Disturb(So you want inside of me)
search me (So you want a piece of this)
prying up (So you want to tear me down)
all my scales (for your own selfish wants and needs)
(So you want a piece of this)
To get in (So you want a piece of me)
lance the core (So you want to tear me down)
to penetrate me (for your own selfish wants and needs)
So you want inside of me,
So you want a piece of this,
So you want to tear me down, for your own selfish wants and needs
Disturb, search me, prying, up all my scales,
To get in, lance the core to penetrate me,
So you want inside of me
So you want a piece of me,
So you want to drag me down,
For your own selfish wants and needs
you're under my skin You were there like a punk,
Just to get in my face,
Wanted in me wanted to be
Till I gave you a taste
Don't need your goddamn pressure
Frontin' stress I'm superman motherfucker
Without the "s" on my chest
Trying to step in my circle I'm leaving you purple and black
On your back drop your ass like a heart attack
Rippin' through your life like a motherfuckin'
Hurricane fist full of Novocain for the pain
You're nothing in my life in my head
You're nothing in my life in my land
Nailed inside my head
You're under my fuckin' skin!
I have cleansed my life now of the people who pry
And threaten place always in my face I think it's time for them to
Go away always in my fuckin' space,
Always in my scene always in my sight,
Always in my way
You're dead to me punk ass fuck .
There's nothing left

(k)Now F(orever)
Frozen moments in time,
Stopped hourglass,
They predicate, what you will know,
Dispositions lie within,
And so do we,
Don't want to run.
Don't want to hide,
Renounce the prayers for inspiration,
If you dictate what I will be
Then smash my face upon the concrete I'm weary,
I feel the stares piercing,
So sorry to soil your precious eyes,
Reflections spoon-feed you,
The bitterness and disgust that is me,
If you choose to reach out to lend to me,
I'll chew off your hand
I'm not beggin' for your fuckin' change
I'm not beggin' for your fuckin' change
I'm in touch with myself,
All alone within myself,
All one. Alone
Do what you will make it the whole of your law,
Burn down the faith that shadows life
And take a deeper look inside of what makes you
Pull down the shades internal light can be blinding
Brilliance
I'm not begging for your fuckin' change,
I'm just begging for a fuckin' change,
Complacence quenched of me
Lineage is ending
I am that, once was me, rising upward, guts wrenching
Sculpted cold, blistering, break the mold, sever me
Cut your throat, be the martyr, bitter pills, that we swallow,
Take me, chase me, swallow with me
Know, now, know, now
Inside of truth, coming to, close to me, ground consumes and embraces me
Now forever
Born again,
I'm repositioning,
Self inside to self non-dimensional,
Lost to being,
I've recognized the cause,
Existence to come, alive now forever
I am once was
...that is me
I am once was,
That is me
I'm broken altered vacillating force,
Round square corners circles dance around wet figures,
Prisoner of time I'm no more,
Insight will guide us through the majesty of nothing,
It's like I'm touched with love by angel girl,
Let bastards rot in time for all their evil,
Let bastards rot in time for all their evil,
Let bastards rot in time

Lethal Dosage
(no lyrics)