The Height of Callousness

Asthmatic
it starts to tear me down
destroyed by what i create
it left the nerve exposed
feels like a lost cause
frustration's all i have left
it's what reduced me to this
turned me against myself
it's still a lost cause
I can't keep doing this to myself
but it's the only way to forget who i am
your disability
kept pushing me away
it went beneath what's so real to me
and threw it all away
i underestimated
the lengths that you would have gone
to deny who you are
you threw it all away
i will keep doing this to myself
'cause it's the only way to forget who i am
i never wanted your help
i never needed your help
this failure has to be all mine all mine now
I'll turn my back on myself
if it's my only way out
it can only help me if it hurts
i won't give into i won't give into
i won't become one with your lies
i never wanted your help
i never needed your help
this failure has to be all mine all mine now
I'll turn my back on myself
if it's my only way out
I'm too tired to feel anything anyway
i will keep doing this to myself
'cause it's the only way to forget who i am
i never wanted your help
i never needed your help
this failure has to be all mine all mine now
I'll turn my back on myself
if it's my only way out
I'm too tired to feel anything anyway
I have become one with your lies

Height of Callousness
my frustration caused the callous
turned my senses into spite
my perception with no conscience
made the fear seem almost right
I was unaffected for so long
now I'm fucking ruined
I was desperation for so long
now it's fucking gone
can I see it can I see it can I see it can I
I can't even recognize myself
I turned into what destroyed it
drown the truth out until it all makes sense again
I was unaffected for so long
now I'm fucking ruined
I was desperation for so long
now it's fucking gone
take my fucking conscience from me
try to save me from myself
turn my fucking thoughts against me
now my ways will be dissolved
fuck integrity
fuck integrity
my frustration caused the callous
turned my senses into spite
my perception with no conscience
made the fear seem almost right
I was unaffected for so long
now I'm fucking ruined
I was desperation for so long
now it's fucking gone
take my fucking conscience from me
try to save me from myself
turn my fucking thoughts against me
now my ways will be dissolved
the height of callousness
the height of callousness takes over
the height of callousness
the height of callousness it's over
fuck integrity
fuck integrity

Synthetic
I can never feel the way you do
but it still becomes me now
I can't take the way you do
but it's still inside me
synthetic solution
synthetic I'll become
synthetic if it makes it go away
synthetic solution
synthetic I'll become
synthetic if it makes it go away
still I waste another day of my life
and it sickens me to feel this way
now i can't make up my mind is this right
how i let you get inside me
twist my words the way you do
'cause it falls on deaf ears now
still I've learned to numb your views
but they're still inside me
synthetic solution
synthetic I'll become
synthetic if it makes it go away
still I waste another day of my life
and it sickens me to feel this way
now i can't make up my mind is this right
how i let you get inside me
I will never follow you
all this time I thought I was myself
and I thought I never could become you
all this time I thought I was myself
and I thought I never could become you
wrong
still I waste another day of my life
and it sickens me to feel this way
now i can't make up my mind is this right
how i let you get inside me
I have become synthetic

New Disease
now I can take this everything I know
realize that I'm nothing I wanted to be
I can never change anything I've done
because it's the only thing I have left
blame myself again for what I didn't do
never even knew it was coming from me
it changed the way I felt the worst is yet to come
because I have gone too far now
nobody
changed my mind
and it leads me to a new disease
somebody
let it die
but it still becomes a new disease
is this all worth what this has done to me
watered down my senses and turned them on me
fuck morality and everything I know
if I didn't hate this than I couldn't cope
> impersonate myself for what i used to be
denial is all that's left now
nobody
changed my mind
and it leads me to a new disease
somebody
let it die
but it still becomes a new disease
seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why
this meant so much to me
doubt
did I ever want this
it's all I could've been it's all I would've been
doubt
did I ever want this
it's all I've ever been it's all I'll ever be
seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why
this meant so much to me
nobody
changed my mind
and it leads me to a new disease
somebody
let it die
but it still becomes a new disease

(Can't Be) Fixed
it goes beneath what I've done
it's bigger than the helplessness I felt
it comes around without a face
and redefines my subconscience again
I can't be fixed
I can't be fixed
I can't be fixed
'cause I won't change
stall
reverse the cause to numb the sense
it's meaningless if I can't be ashamed
I latch myself onto the need
the only thing that isolates me now
I can't be fixed
I can't be fixed
I can't be fixed
'cause I won't change
stall
it goes beneath who I am
and turns into the recklessness I felt
it comes around without a face
and redefines my subconscience for good I can't be fixed
I can't be fixed
I can't be fixed
'cause I won't change
stall

Cyanide 2600
your disease is a fucking waste of time
turn it on when it fits your needs
never mattered that I couldn't feel a thing
anything you meant was forgot
tear it down it's what you don't know
turn it around because it questions your integrity
take it away because you can't control it
throw it away because it's what you are
your tongue's a dying wasted lie
I've seen through you when you need
what makes you think it's not your fault
everything you were is so far gone
you don't want to know if you don't get it
everything you touch is dead or terminal
everything you were walks from me
everything you were is lost
realize what you've become
criticize to make it all numb
seperate yourself from your views
what it takes to redeem yourself
I can see it start to begin
everything that you thought was so clear
shutting down what you thought was real
giving up to a lesser god
it's all you're woth and it's all you are
shutting down what you thought was real
what it takes to redeem yourself
what it takes to redeem yourself
it's all you're worth

Play God
trying to understand
how someone like you can still sleep at night
or are you too busy playing god
to fuckers that are chewing on your lies
another loser born
fed on my fragile mind still I stood up on my broken knees
'cause everything that you took
gave me immunity to your disease
another life is torn
I won't hear I won't see
I will never be a part of your cause
'cause I'm alive and I still breathe
and you're just a fucking waste of
time what you tried to offer me
was it really worth it
sew up this hole inside of me
'cause you'll never take it
I don't fear what you are
'cause you're only dangerous to what is weak
clinging to the stories you create
you make a living off of souls that bleed
another dotted line
I won't hear I won't see
I will never be a part of your cause
'cause I'm alive and I still breathe
and you're just a fucking waste of
time what you tried to offer me
was it really worth it
sew up this hole inside of me
'cause you'll never take it
I'm becoming of nothing
this is what you started
time what you tried to offer me
was it really worth it
sew up this hole inside of me
'cause you'll never take it
time what you tried to offer me
was it really worth it
sew up this hole inside of me
'cause you'll never take it
never take it
never take it
never take it
never take it

Malnutrition
dismiss your true state of mind
'cause it's too hard to be
convince yourself it's a lie
the guilt you do achieve
failure disguised your choice
you need another voice
regrets confirmed your faults
i need another voice
you're too far gone
disengage yourself
to replace yourself
look right through yourself
and deny yourself
guilt it's in your voice
it's on your face
but it looks malnourished
greed it took control
and fed your mind
but it's still malnourished
the contradictions you live
have cancelled out the truth the desperation you show
is just the focal point
nothing more than image
you need another voice
your faults became regret
I need another choice
you're too far gone
realign yourself
to escape yourself
see right through yourself
give up on yourself
guilt it's in your voice
it's on your face
but it looks malnourished
greed it took control
and fed your mind
but it's still malnourished

Seamless
if you said that you could kill the things inside me
you're just a liar everything inside me's dead
it's nice of you to think I could ever be that
but I'm not I'm just a failure instead
don't preach a story of success and gifted thinking
because in the end we're gonna end up the same way
keep on living your whole life on hands and knees
'cause I'll be standing waiting life ends the same way
never wanted this life
because it's meaningless
gone away from me
the life you've given is a poorly painted picture
the colors running and it's staggering my life
a definition of truth is all I wanted
not mental beatings falling short of stupidity
don't give a speech on your prolific ways of living
you speak in vain whether you think you do or not
spreading infection of the truth that leads to sick lies
you are the shame inside of me you are mindrot
never wanted this life
because it's meaningless
gone away from me
if you said that you could kill the things inside me
you're just a liar everything inside me's dead
it's nice of you to think I could ever be that
but I'm not I'm just a failure instead
you're so mistaken on the life you think I wanted
I'll give you credit for the effort you put forth
'cause as it ends you're gonna start to realize that
your fucking prejudice and words of wisdom go unheard
never wanted this life
because it's meaningless
gone away from me
never wanted this life

Negative Space
I don't have what you need
you don't know but I still see
the situation brings me down
see wasted days inside me
no changing ways becoming
falling away from nothing
sobering days I'm dying now
I don't care what you want
you don't know I'm already gone
the situation brings me down
see wasted days inside me
no changing ways becoming
falling away from nothing
sobering days I'm dying now
what I feel everyday
keeps everything nice and cold
I'm not sure what you need
it's not me anymore
all of our memories are just a thought away
get the fuck away from me
see wasted days inside me
no changing ways becoming
falling away from nothing
sobering days I'm dying now

Transparent
I spend my time
letting these hopeless thoughts run my life
force me to hide
just create a truth to all these lies
I will never be the same
so just leave me down while I'm seperating
I could never give anymore
all these lies have left me torn
it's only this way falling on my own
I made this mess now it's over
It was nobody's fault it was all my own
everything's wasted for ever
the only hand
that I know how to hold belongs to me
how it began
what I thought was right became my insecurity
I will never be the same
so just leave me down while I'm seperating
I could never give anymore
all these lies have left me torn
it's only this way falling on my own
I made this mess now it's over
It was nobody's fault it was all my own
everything's wasted for ever
it's on my own
it's on my own
weakness becomes me
my faults relieve me
my fear excludes me
turns it against me
my fault
my fear
turned it against me
it's only this way falling on my own
I made this mess now it's over
It was nobody's fault it was all my own
everything's wasted forever
it's only this way falling on my own
it's only this way falling on my own
it's only this way falling on my own
it's only this way it's only this way
it's on my own
it's on my own