goddamnit goddamnit

cringe
Wide eyed
Knee deep in surprise
Just below your thighs the temperature drops 5 degrees
Your stand-by flight has just arrived
Tongue-tied bleeding from your eyes
Even Christ himself would cringe
at the sight of your scars
While you're counting sheep
I'll count my lucky stars
You were the last good thing I ever saw
I lost it all
I lost it all
Burned out on 2 hours of shut-eye
Eyes glazed at the thought of the next 8 hours
You were the last good thing I ever saw

cop
Wonder what it was that made you this way
Maybe as a baby you dropped your rattle
And it still rattles you to this day
You better practice your evil looks in the mirror
They don't work on me

Slowly crawling up from the down low
The other cops still call you 'fatso'
Short fuse and a top to blow
Unhappy wife, shitty life, hit the bottle
Your whole world dropped from under you
Left you with sorry excuses
Left you with meaningless things to prove
Like why you became a cop
Why did you become a cop?

Wonder what it was that made you this way
As a boy your toys were taken away
And it still toys with you to this day
You better practice your evil looks in the mirror
They don't work on me

Slowly crawling up from the down low
The other cops still call you 'fatso'
Short fuse and a top to blow
Unhappy wife, shitty life, hit the bottle
Your whole world dropped from under you
Left you with sorry excuses
Left you with meaningless things to prove
Like why you became a cop
Why did you become a cop?
Shut the fuck up.

After my court date
I'll forget about you
I'll tell my cellmate
I'll forget about you
After the jail break
I'll forget about you
After I'm through singing this song
I'll forget about you, I'll forget about you

san francisco
Choking on the thought of leaving
Drinking to keep from sobbing
4pm, 4 dollar pints - SFO - the time and price

With all my happiness aborted
The PA painfully starts boarding
I sink deep, 30 thousand feet
Into my window seat, electric chair
And I was drinking you goodbye
A heart floats in the bay
From sour home Chicago
I hear it beating far away
There's no telling what I'll do
If I don't return to you

Hopeful thoughts of soon returning
can't put out my stomach burning
Plastic wings and plastic smiles
Unsalted peanuts stretch my miles

Choking on the thought of leaving
Drinking to keep from heaving
5pm, 5 dollar pints - Hellbound Airlines - time and price
And I was drinking you goodbye
A heart floats in the bay
From sour home Chicago
I hear it beating far away
There's no telling what I'll do
If I don't return to you

I was drinking you goodbye
A heart floats in the bay
From sour home Chicago
I hear it beating far away
There's no telling what I'll do
If I don't return to you

nose over tail
Crack my head open on your kitchen floor
To prove to you that I have brains
Meanwhile tin men are led by little girls
Down golden roads that lead to nowhere

Fine time to fake a seizure
Feel your mouth on mine, you're saving me

Whatever happened to that silly dream you had?
I want to make it real
I'd love to rub your back
Like a plane crash that never hits the ground
I fall in love with you
I'm nose over tail for you
Your voice like the sound of sirens to a house on fire
You're saving me

as you were
Stale as a 2 day half full beer
Cigarette boats float around in here
A field in my gut lacking sunshine
Put down like a teenager's first drink
I cough up compliments I think
You're better off walking away while you still can

She was passing through to climb a hill
As you slipped and slid on my gut spill
My better half was praying for you to fall

Rotten like a 3 week half full glass
of breast milk, drunken off my ass
I would give anything to erase the past
nine years of my life
Put down like a prostitute in court
All liberty soon to abort like my sanity
Like thoughts of you

She was passing through to climb a hill
As you slipped and slid on my gut spill
My better half was praying for you to fall
Praying for you to fall
So pitiful
Praying for you to fall
I'm fuckin' pitiful

Praying for you to fall
So pitiful
Praying for you to fall
So fuckin' pitiful

enjoy your day
So where'd you go?
How was your vacation home?
Well obviously you were busy, too busy for me
So this is how you leave me?
I'm broken hearted on the floor,
My tears seep through the crack under my door
Where I am locked in, shut down,
I'm so tired of picking myself up off the ground

So Happy Valentine's Day
I hope the sun's out in New York
I hope he bought you roses
I hope he bought you roses
So Happy Valentine's Day
I hope the sun's out in New York
I hope he bought you roses
I hope he bought you roses

clavicle
Been on top of the world since about six months ago
Marking the first time I laid eyes on you
I lost all train of thought as I entered the room
Saw what looked like really good food then I saw you
And so did you

I want to wake up naked next to you
Kissing the curve in your clavicle
Kissing your clavicle

Been on top of the world since about 1 week ago
Marking a time when I was drunk enough to talk to you
I lost all train of thought as your eyes met mine
Told you I thought you were gorgeous
You gave me your phone number, I gave you mine
Before you left I said that you can bet
I'll be bothering you soon
You said "No bother, please do"

I've called you twice
It's been a hellish fight
To not think about you all the time
Sitting around waiting for your call

I want to wake up naked next to you
Kissing the curve in your clavicle
Kissing your clavicle

I want to wake up naked next to you
Kissing the curve in your clavicle

my little needle
I'll come down to get you high
Or maybe sing you a lullabye
Sing you to sleep - a sleep you'll never wake from
Sing you to coma so to speak

When I fall down I'll fall apart
Trade in my bike for a shopping cart
and beg change from a world that needs some
like I need someone
So where are you my little needle?
The stack's been burned away
But I'm so inebriated that I cannot see
three feet in front of me
Between the moon and you, lunacy is setting in

Lately I've been feeling dead inside
Like my guts have dried up and died
But every night I water them back to life
yeah every night I water them back to life

When I fall down I'll fall apart
Trade in my bike for a shopping cart
and beg change from a world that needs some
I'm tired of sleeping alone
So where are you my little needle?
The stack's been burned away
But I'm so inebriated that I cannot see
three feet in front of me
Between the moon and you, lunacy is setting in

southern rock
I can't believe my heart's still pounding
I can't believe how close I came
And meanwhile heaven's falling
The fallen angels flown away
And that'll be me someday
With stolen wings and evil ways
Straight south with the keys to the pearly gates

Hard to believe my heart stopped pounding
Hard to believe I played this game
My worst nightmares became real
I got so scared that I forgot my name
And that'll be me someday
With stolen wings and evil ways
Straight south with the keys to the pearly gates

message from kathlene
I guess I'll always stop and see you
And we'll run into each other's lives
Yeah, I guess, although it tears me up inside
Everytime it burns my eyes with tears
But I know you're worth the pain
I've so much more to gain by waiting for you

You're going away but you're not going far
So if he decides to leave you alone and crying
You know I'm still here, the faithful one
Waiting for a message from Kathlene
Then I'll come.. faster
Than I ever thought that I could run
Cause I..
I need you more than I ever thought
That I could need someone
Someone Someone Someone else

I know I will always stop and see you
And we'll run into each other's fucked up lives
Yeah, I guess, although it tears me up inside
Everytime it burns my eyes with tears
But your waking up is the start of my lost cause
And then you decide to leave me alone and crying
But you know I'm still here, the faithful one
Waiting for a message from Kathlene
Then I'll come.. faster
Than I ever thought that I could run
Cause I..
I need you more than I ever thought
That I could need someone
Someone Someone Someone else

trouble breathing
You told me that you want to die
I said I've been there myself more than a few times
And I go back every once in a while
You called me lucky, you.. you called me lucky

You said tonight is a wonderful night to die
I asked you how you could tell
You told me to look at the sky
Look at all those stars
Look at how goddamn ugly the stars are

It's one or another
Between a rope and a bottle
I can tell you're having trouble breathing

'Cause you'll never be okay
You'll never be okay
(You'll always be in pain)
You'll always feel this way
'Cause things they never work out right
(the wrong way the lonely way)
You'll always be in pain

You told me that the daylight burned you
and that the sunrise was enough to kill you
I said maybe you're a vampire
You said it's quite possible I feel truly dead inside

'Cause you'll never be okay
You'll never be okay
(You'll always be in pain)
You'll always feel this way
'Cause things they never work out right
(the wrong way the lonely way)
You'll always be in pain

Don't forget to let your life rot you inside out
Don't forget to let your life rot you inside out
Don't forget to let your life rot you inside out

sorry about that
It hasn't been that long
Since we drank to the sunset, until it was gone
And down with it went our pain and fear
As we slowly broke contact
more and more with every beer
And we passed out in each other's arms
Both admitting we'd never felt better
Never felt so warm
But awoke in each other's eyes
Without wearing a stitch of clothing
We were both deeply in disguise
And maybe I just set aside
The fact that you were broken hearted
In my own special selfish way
And if I hadn't set aside
The fact that you were broken hearted
Hell knows where your heart would be today
Maybe with me

It seems like it's been so long
Since we kissed through the darkness
Until it was dawn
Up with it came our pain and fear
That we'd already lost each other
We both knew that the end was near
Maybe I just set aside
The fact that you were broken hearted
In my own special selfish way
And if I hadn't set aside
The fact that you were broken hearted
Hell knows where your heart would be today
Maybe with me Maybe with me
Maybe with me Maybe with me
Maybe with me Maybe with me