chapter two

 


Trying to guess the news that he was about to tell me. My heart stopped for a moment as i stood there with him - I thought this could be the moment. The moment i longed for - The moment I wished for - The time he told me that he loved me. The time was he would finally press his warm lips on mine and hold me gently in his strong arms - The time when he would cuddle me and make everything better.

"MARIE!, MARIE are you listening to me" Shane said in a loud voice. I awoke from my day dream with a Jump "Oh sorry Shane - Start again" I said - Praying, Hoping and wishing that he would say those 3 words to me - Nothing else mattered - All I needed to hear was I Love You.

"I've met someone" said Shane - almost guiltily "shes umm.. Fantastic" I could tell Shane was trying to convince himself that she was great - more than he was trying to convince me. "OH SHANE Thats great" I squealed - I was a good actress and it did sound like i was happy for him - I mean it would be selfish of me not to be anyway.

I spoke to Shane for a while - I learnt that she was called Karen - Karen Riley. She was short and slim - with Green eyes and shoulder length Blonde hair.. She was 21 Years old and he has met a few times - She was a Westlife follower - But he could tell that she liked him for "him" and not for his job. He seemed happy - He seemed content and i didn't wanna spoil that - So I listened intently to what he said.. But with every word he spoke.. My heart broke a little Bit More.. another piece felt like it was breaking or another crack seemed to appear


...3 weeks later...

I stayed In and around London - Having a long holiday and seeing Shane and the other Westlife lads as often as i could. I still hadn't met Karen.. But i Was going to today. I was looking forward to it - in a weird kinda way. I'd got over my feelings for Shane - He was happy and that made me happy. Having him as a friend was just fine - It fact it was more than fine - It was perfect. I managed to persuade myself that Having Shane as a friend was better, coz i had him there when i needed him, I could hug him, speak to him - yet with out all the added complications of a relationship

I walked into the darkish room - Today Westlife were filming the Video to the new single - Another one expecting to hit the top spot. Shane was speaking to a girl - I assumed was Karen. I was right. I spoke to Karen while Shane did his filming. I hated her - Not because she had Shane - Her voice was high pitched and annoying and i could see she was continually staring at Kian - I knew she was after only Shanes Fame and money - and not after his love, affection and his heart - They say love is Blind.. i agree - Shane couldn't see what she was like.

Karen's Mobile rang - She looked shocked and walked out to the Corridor to answer it - I followed her and listened to her side of the conversation as best i could.. "Hiya.." "yeah.. Hes in love with me UGGHH" "I prefer 5ive anyway" "Theyre just BZ clones" "Yeh - Im gonna get him to buy me a ring tonight" " A BIIIGGG Expensive ring"

I was almost sick - Shane liked her alot and she was treating him in this way - I ran out of the building and most of the way back to my hotel. Should I tell him or not? I didn't know what to do...


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