chapter eight
"What? Me a crush on Amanda. the girl
I've know since I was like 7. The one who used to come over to my house
everyday. My best friend since I was in the third grade. The one who is ignoring
me. The one that is breaking my heart and I can't get out of my head?" He
said and then his eys got wide. He got a little carried away and didn't mean to
say that last part." I do, I love her."
"I told you," Chris joked.
"Oh my gosh this is happening at the absolute worst time. This is so
terrible." Justin mumbled with his head in his hands.
"Why is it so terrible?" Jc asked.
"Why? She hates me right now. There is no way she feels the same about
me."
"She dosen't hate you. She just dosen't really like you." Chris tried
to make him feel better but instead made him feel worse.
"Thanks, that helped alot." Justin told him.
"Any time."
"I think what Chris is trying to say is that she isn't mad at you it's just
she needs time to experiment, test the waters of yall's relationship."Jc
corrected him.
"Thats what i said." Chris defended.
"Ok, whatever you say Dr. Chasez. Whats up with you? You're acting like a
shrink or something." Justin laughed.
"Why thank you I try. No I'm kidding."
"Well, what do you say we go out to a club or something. The night is still
young we can call the rest of the guys ." Chris suggested.
"Sounds good." JC said.
"Thats cool. Um, you call Lance and Joey. We'll leave in like 15
minutes." Justin answered and went to his room.
They went to a club called "Illusions" It was kinda crowded but they
enjoyed their selves anyway. Mambo Number 5 came on and then Joey started to
cheer. It was his favorite song. The guys all went up and started dancing.
Suddenly Justin spotted a familiar face and quickly stopped dancing. Could it be
her? he asked himself. "Lance, Is that Amanda?"
"It looks like her I think it is."
"Ok, I thought so to. Thanks," Justin said wondering if he should
approach her or not. Then God Must Have Spent A Little More time On You came on.
He walked up to Jeff who was dancing close to her and tapped him on the shoulder.
"Can I cut in?" He asked.
"Uh, sure I guess why not. "He answered and walked away. Amanda looked
up and saw Justin standing there.
"Justin? What are you doing?"
"Dancing with you."
"I realize that but, why?"
"Because I wanted to. Aren't I allowed to do that or is that bad?"
"Justin, I dont care but what are you doing here?"
"Well actually we just decided to go clubbing and you were here, seriously."
He explained.
"Oh, I see."
"Amanda can I ask you something?"
"Go ahead shoot."
"What is going on with us? I mean we are like we always used to be you know
best friends. And then the next minute your ticked off at me and act like you
hate me. And then now you're dancing with me like nothing ever happened."
"God Justin. I was just upset. I could never hate you ever. You're still my
best friend. I am just really confused right now. I dont know if I should be
careful about everything i do or go on with a normal life. Ever since I was
diagnosed my life has been flipped upside down and I don't know what to expect
from it. I know I kinda took it out on you and I shouldn't have. I Ams sorry. Do
you forgive me." She said and looked up and gave her biggest pouting lip.
"Of course I do."
"Good. Now the song is almost over let's just enjoy the rest ok. For old
time sake. " She suggested and laid her head on his shoulder. Holding her
close to him Jutin never wanted the song to end. It just seemed so perfect and
right with her in his arms. And then when the song ended Justin realized that
they were just friends and Jeff was her date. He let go of her waist and slowly
walked away savoring the moment.