chapter fiveteen
"I know you are upset,and have every right to
be. I know you dont want to
go to this so called camp that your mom was talking about, but still maybe you
should try and work things out with her. I know that you are mad at your mom for
wanting you to go, but think of her reasons to. She just wants you to get
through this ok, and she thinks the camp will help."Jc said slowly and then
looked at her with a questioning gaze. He knew what he said would either make
her mad and she would go off again. Or upset and she would cry even more. He
decided just to stay there and let her do or say whatever she wanted to him.
"You are so right,but so wrong at the same time. I know I should make up
with my mom.But still I dont get it. why would she want to send me across the
country, and she dosent know how much longer I have left. I could live to be a
hundred or die tommorow I just dont know. At the beginning the doctors told me I
had an estimate of 4 months left. And now, they say it could be any time they
just didnt know. Either this treatment is going to help me live or make me die.
It is all just confusing, I am happy one minute and then crying the next I just
dont get it.What is happening to me? Why is it happening to me? I pray to God
and beg him to make me better but somehow its like he ignores my pleas. I feel
like I just cant take it anymore. Something has to give I dont know what is
going to brake first me or my health." Amanda tried to explain and closed
her eyes tightly. "You know sometimes I think that this is all a bad dream
and I am going to wake up soon and everything is going to be alright. I wish it
was a dream I really do." She said and started to cry and took deep breaths
as if she was gasping for air. Jc looked at her horrified not knowing what to
do. She just poored out her heart and soul to him and he just sat there and
looked at her.
"Its all going to be ok," He promised and stroked the side of her
face. She laid on his shoulder and burried her face in his shirt , he could feel
her tears soak through his shirt but didnt say anything. He just let her cry.