chapter one
Have you ever had a friend that you just knew
would always be your best friend? You shared everything together. It was more
than just silly kid stuff and promises that never were kept.....this was real.
Thats exactly how Justin and I were. I thought things would never change, I
thought that up until one day, one brutal day when my whole life changed.
I went for my anual check up and sat there waiting while the nurse pricked my
finger. She said it would only take a minute to test it. It was more than a
minute. When she finally came back she had a disturbing look on her face. She
was really starting to scare me and finally she told me. I had cancerous cells
and they wanted to keep me overnight for a few more tests but they were sure it
was leukimia. My heart started beating fast in my chest. My eyes filled with
tears and I looked at my mom. She was in hysterics at this point and I just let
her hold me in her arms. I cried harder than i ever had before.
That night in the hospital was scary. I wanted to be home safe in my own bed.
But, instaed I was lying ther in some hospital bed being pricked at. Thoughts
raced through my mind but I just couldnt stop thinking about Justin. I needed to
talk to him needed to hear his voice. I grabbed the phone and dialed his number.
"Hello, Justin?"
"Manda, hey whats up? What has it been forever?" I missed you so
much!"
"Yeah, I missed you too, but thats not why I called." I said and
started to cry. I took a deep breath and started again.
"I-I.." I couldnt finish and I was crying so hard it was difficult to
understand what I was saying.
"Manda babe whats a matter?" he asked in a concerned voice.
"Its nothing really, " I said trying to stop myself from crying.
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah,"
"Ok, well I'm going to see you in a week. We're coming home."
"Oh thats great I cant wait to see ya'! tell the rest of the guys i said hi!"
"I will, gotta go now. C ya later Mandy. Love ya,''
I wanted to tell him but didnt know how. I mean the docters tell me I have 4
months to live and I'm supposed to go on with a normal life? Hes my very best
friend and has been since like the 3rd grade, I've told him everything but this
was diffrent. I have to tell him in person.