chapter two
The next morning Christina
woke up to the sound of the alarm clock. Groaning,
she slammed her hand down on the alarm clock making it stop.
She tried to get back to sleep but she couldn’t.
Rubbing
her eyes she got out of bed and into her bathroom, deciding to take a shower.
***
She
was walking down the lonely beach at night, letting her toes sink into the sand,
the moon was her only light, as it reflected from the water and onto her
silhouetted figure.
Nick
followed closely behind making sure to not be caught, he watched her as the calm
breeze gently blew her hair around her face. The mystery girl shivered, pulling at her clothes, to keep
herself from getting too cold.
She
found a nice spot near the water and sat down, letting the water gently wash
over her feet and return to the sea again.
Nick hid behind a tree as he watched this mystery girls’ eyes gChristen
with tears, her face becoming damp and shining in the moonlight.
Nick
watched the girl as she wiped her face and slowly stood up, walking into the sea,
deeper and deeper, it suddenly dawned on him what she was attempting to do, it
was dark, no one was around and she wasn’t even wearing the right clothes.
Half of her body was already in the water when Nick started running
towards the sea,
“No!”
he screamed, “Don’t leave me!” The
girl didn’t acknowledge his presence, she kept walking deeper into the sea.
“Please!
Don’t do this!” tears were stinging Nick’s red cheeks as he pleaded for
her to come back. “It doesn’t have to be this way!”
The
girl stopped walking and so Nick didn’t move, she turned around and looked at
him straight in the eyes, her tearful face was reflecting the moonlight, Nick
could only make out how blue her eyes were and how her white blond hair shone
“Goodbye Nick” she said softly before turning back to the sea,
“Goodbye…”
Nick
let out a scream and watched as she disappeared into the mysterious underworld,
“NO!”
***
Christina
was kneeling down next to Nick on the sofa who was obviously dreaming, she
brushed some of his hair aside with her fingers and put her hand on his chest.
She was very thankful that he spent the night there for her, on the most
likely uncomfortable sofa. She
watched how his chest rose and fell with every breath, it was a comforting thing
to see, for some very unknown reason, Chris was getting a little tired, she
decided to just close her eyes for a moment.
Still
kneeling on the floor, Christina rested her head on her hands that she had on
Nick’s chest. But without even
realizing it, she fell asleep.
***
Nick fell to the ground, letting his knees sink into
the sand, he buried his head into his hands, “Don’t leave me!!!” he yelled
towards the calm and steady sea. “Please…don’t leave me” he said a
little more quietly as sobs overtook his trembling body.
He closed his eyes and opened them, only
to find himself laying on the beach again, but this time it was bright, the sun
was rising, but still no-one was there. He
looked around and saw her, she was standing in the water looking out towards the
sunrise.
Nick stood up and walked into the water,
curious to who this girl was. He
stood right behind her, water covering a little more than half of his body, but
the water was up to her shoulders.
“You know I love you don’t you?”
she said not looking at him, still staring out into the horizon.
“I do, and I love you too, more than
you can ever imagine” Nick replied, somehow the words just came out, he
didn’t even know who this girl was.
The girl looked at him, he could see her
face, but at the same time he couldn’t. She
took his hand and held it. Together
they both stared into the horizon, and together they both closed their eyes.
***
Nick slowly opened his eyes, where was he? He felt
something on top of him, looking down he saw a girl resting her head on his
chest, he gently pushed some hair aside and saw who it was, he remembered where
he was, and why he was there.
He didn’t want to wake her up so he just lay there
staring up at the ceiling, he had his hand on her back rubbing up and down, he
wanted to lay there forever, it was so peaceful. But he knew if he didn’t get something to eat, and fast
that he would die!
He gently lifted Christina’s head and got out from
underneath. He then lifted her up
from the floor and brought her to her bed, placing her down and making sure she
was comfortable. She wasn’t that
heavy anyway. He kissed her
forehead and walked out of the room into the kitchenette.
He was thinking about his dream, the dream he had
just had, had been recurring for some time now, and the last one seemed even
more real and disturbing.
Shrugging it off he looked into the cupboards and
fridge, finding milk and cereal. “Ugh”
he said to himself, “Oh well, it’s food”.
He made some for himself and sat down to eat it.
There was a knock on the door.
He stood up tiredly and walked towards it and looked out of the peephole.
It was Brit and Just and JC, the
mousketeer reunion! Nick thought
and laughed at himself before opening the door for them.
“Well I’ll be damned! Nickolas Gene Carter from
the Backstreet Boys!” JC laughed and shook Nick’s hand.
“and Joshua…uh, something Chasez!” Nick
replied grinning.
JC put a hurt look on his face and pretended to be
an over-obsessed teeny (AN~no offense to anyone) “Oh, like, my God! You like,
are, sooo dumb! How can you like, NOT know my future husband’s middle
name!?”
They all laughed a little, “Um, Chris’s still
asleep” Nick explained letting them in, “I woke up and she was resting on
top of me”
Justin grinned, “Ah, little Nicky got the groove
on last night did he?” he teased.
Nick gave him a weird look, JC laughed and Brit
elbowed him in the side. “Ow!”
“Well, we came here to see if she was alright”
Brit explained, “But we have this whole concert thing we have to do and we
can’t stay for long…”
“It’s okay, I have nothing on today, and the
other guys have all gone out to do stuff by themselves”
“So you’ll be able to look after her?” Justin
asked.
“Sure, I don’t mind” Nick
smiled.
“Okay, well we should really go, just remember to
tell Chris that we said hi” Brit smiled as she stood up.
***
It had been half an hour
since Brit, Justin and JC had left and Christina was still asleep, Nick by now
was incredibly bored. He was
sitting on the sofa watching himself on MTV, he didn’t find himself at all
interesting, in fact he found himself extremely boring.
It was Making the Video for Shape of My Heart.
“I
love you man” Nick said as he had his arm around Howie’s neck. Howie had a strange look on his face,
“Nick
you’re embarrassing me” Howie tried to get away but Nick gave him a kiss on
the cheek then let go leaving a disgusted Howie rubbing his cheek.
“Aw,
man!”
“Oh God, what’d I do
that for?! What was I thinking?!” Nick shook his head and kept his eyes on the
television. That’s when he heard
giggling, he turned around to find Chris standing at the door to her room with a
hand over her mouth.
“Yeah yeah, you go on!
Laugh!” Nick pouted and sat back facing the tv again.
Chris walked forward and
jumped onto the sofa right next to Nick. She
looked at him and laughed.
“What?” he asked trying
not to laugh himself.
“You’re so cute when you
look mad!” he grinned.
“Your saying I’m not
cute when I’m NOT mad?” he pouted again.
Christina didn’t answer,
she simply shrugged and faced the tv, leaning up against Nick’s side.
“So what do you want to do
today?” Nick asked.
***
13 hours later… 9:00pm.
Nick and Christina had had a
very busy day and were now in the hotel swimming pool.
“Nick! Stop splashing me
now!” Christina yelled blocking
herself from the deadly, ‘Nick’ water.
She eventually dived
underwater and towards him, jumping up right in front of him and giving him the
shock of the century. “Gee,
don’t scare me like that!”
She rolled her eyes and put
her hands on his chest pushing him backwards into the water.
She then swam to the edge of the pool hopping out and standing at the
edge. When Nick finally came up for
air he swam to the side also and started chasing after her.
She
grabbed her towel and started running, she ran into the hotel, with Nick close
behind.
(Christina
Aguilera ~ Point Of View)
I ran down a hallway, having no idea where I was going,
and found myself at a dead end. It was either go outside onto the patio, or be
caught by Nick. Nick wasn't far from me, and I figured going outside on the
patio would be better. So run outside I did, dodging scattered chairs and
carefully placed tables, pulling them behind to make it harder for Nick; that
was boy was fast and was catching up. Running through the patio, I found myself
in some sort of garden. I jumped over a bush, and some other random shrubs and
then ran onto the paved path that went around this sort of garden, which I soon
realized lead to the outdoor pool.
All of a sudden I felt two strong arms grab me from
around the waist and we went tumbling down to the ground, rolling down the small
hill in the direction of the tennis courts.
"Yikes!" I half yelped, half laughed.
We rolled down the hill at least five times, and when
we came to a stop, I had managed to be on top of Nick. I smiled down on him.
"I have you pinned," grabbing his wrists and holding them against the
cool grass, near his head.
"You don't have me pinned," he replied.
"Oh I do," I said. "Look who's on top.
And look who's stuck underneath me."
He shrugged to the best of his ability. "You still
don't have me pinned though."
"I do, just admit it," I replied with a grin.
"I have got you pinned and you cannot get up."
"I can get up," he said nonchalantly.
"Then why don't you?" I asked.
"Maybe because I'm relishing the fact that you're
sitting on top of me," he said quietly.
"Yuck," I laughed. "Admit it, I have
caught you and you're stuck."
Nick was the one that started to laugh. "Chris, I
hate to break your bubble, but you honestly don't have me pinned."
"Then unpin yourself," I giggled.
"It's too easy. That's why I haven't."
"Yeah right it's too easy," I remarked.
"No seriously, it's too easy," he said slowly.
"I mean this is what I find funny: you think that you actually have me
pinned. I can so easily move…"
"Then move!" I laughed. "Prove to me
that I have not pinned you."
"That would be unfair though," Nick said.
"This way, you think you have me pinned. I'll play along."
"But now that I know," I said, "it is no
longer fair."
"Okay then, make it harder," Nick replied.
"Press down on my arms."
I looked at him. "I am."
He laughed. "Press harder."
"This is as hard as I can press," I answered
honestly.
"You're joking, right?"
"No, seriously. I'm pressing," I laughed.
"Oh dear," Nick sighed.
"Hey, I'm a weakling, I know it but don't mock
me," I said, trying with all my might to push on Nick's arms the best I
could. "Okay, you're just like… Too muscular, or something."
"Why thank you," he said in a deep voice. I
laughed, squeezing and pressing and pushing as hard as I could. "Come
on," he urged, "Push!"
"You make it sound like we're having a baby,"
I giggled.
"Well PUSH!" Nick insisted. He started to
laugh at the funny faces I was making.
"Okay I give," I sighed, out of breath.
"Take a breather and then push," Nick said.
"No, just get up if you say you can."
"But now you're expecting it."
"Nick," I said, slightly exasperated.
"If you say that you can oh-so easily get up, then get up. If you don't get
up then I shall believe that I have you pinned and I have triumphed over you.
This is me getting you back from splashing me."
"Okay," he replied, "push down on my
arms again."
I smiled. "You and I both know that pushing does
absolutely nothing. Or so you say."
"Do it," he ordered.
"Fine," I said, pressing as hard as I could
with all my might on Nick's arms.
All of a sudden, in one quick fluid motion, Nick and I
had traded places, and I was now lying on the grass with Nick sitting on top of
me.
"Told you that it was way too easy," he said,
his hands holding onto my wrists and pressing down.
I struggled underneath him, trying to escape, but he
had me pinned. "Okay," I said weakly, "You got me. I am now
underneath. You can let go now. You won."
Nick didn't let up. Instead, he remained on top of me;
his hands holding tightly onto my wrists, with what felt like, most of his
weight pushing down on me. "Now see what comes from having a younger 13
year old brother and four other grown men as best friends," he was saying,
"The things you learn are just amazing."
"That's really nice, but can you let me go
now?"
"See what kind of control I have while I'm up here
and you're down there?" he asked me.
"I don't care," I replied, "Please let
me go… You're hurting me."
"See Chris, this is being pinned. You can't move,
can you, not at all," Nick continued to talk.
"Nick, please," I whimpered. "You are
like seriously killing my wrists."
"This is strength, which you need to gain and a
lot of," Nick said, pushing down harder.
"OW!" I cried out. "Nick, let me
go!" I was honestly getting scared. Nick was getting weird on me. Further
more, he was hurting me.
He smiled at me as he let my arms go, but still sat on
top of me.
I quickly started to rub my soar and visibly, in the
pale moonlight, red wrists. "Weirdo," I glared up at him. "That
hurt, stupid."
He looked at me, disbelieving almost.
"Sorry," he shrugged. He reached for my hand but I snatched it back.
"No, it like seriously hurt. Why didn't you let go
when I said so?"
"Let me see," he said, grabbing one of my
wrists and looking at it.
As I let him inspect the damage he had done to my
wrists I said, "I know I'm a weakling, but you have to respect that."
"I'm sorry," he said simply. "I thought
that you were just trying to get out of it or something."
"No," I said, "I really was in
pain."
"Hate me?"
"Not as much as I probably should, no," I
replied.
"It's kind of weird, because you forget how much
weaker girls can be and how much stronger you actually seem," Nick said
quietly.
I looked at him, wondering if I should take that as an
insult.
"Not that I mean all guys are stronger than
girls," Nick quickly replied, "It's just that in some cases, a lot of
guys are stronger than girls. It's not like you can help it though, I think it's
just the way guys are made… If ya know what I mean, but I'm probably digging
myself into a deeper hole."
I smiled at him. "No, you're right. Guys are just
like naturally stronger than girls, in later years."
"Yes, later years," Nick agreed.
"Yeah because generally, girls over power boys
when they're younger," I said.
"They most certainly do, as my sister so once
proved to me," Nick laughed.
"What, she beat up Aaron?" I asked.
"No, Leslie was about four or so and she purposely
punched me in the face because I was taunting her about how much bigger and
stronger I was," Nick answered. "I bled and I cried."
"Go your sister!" I laughed.
Nick looked down at me, still gently rubbing my wrists.
"I'm sorry I hurt you," he said quietly. "I just forget sometimes
when I'm around girls in general; like the guys could have easily handled that.
But I think you'll be okay," he added after inspecting them.
I smiled at up. "I don't think you snapped
me."
"Alright, good," he grinned.
A strange, yet comfortable silence came over us. I
stared up at the stars as Nick played with my hands.
"You know what I like about girls?" he asked
me.
I started to giggle. "There's probably a lot of
things guys like about girls."
"Yeah well, if you're thinking dirty, there
are," Nick smiled at me, "but I'm serious and not thinking
dirty."
"Okay," I said slowly, "What do you like
about girls?"
"The fact their hands are always so much smaller
than mine," he answered, looking down at my hand and then comparing our
hand sizes by placing his palm against mine. "I meet a lot of girls, and I
shake a lot of hands, and either I've got huge hands or girls' hands are just
tiny. I'm always so afraid that I'm going to crush their hand or something when
I shake it."
I laughed. "Well Nick, my hands are a lot smaller
than most hands," I said. "Honestly, I have not met someone with
smaller hands than me, so you can't really compare, but yes, guys generally do
have bigger hands. Then again, everyone has bigger hands than me."
"Yeah," Nick replied, holding our hands up,
"You do have pretty tiny hands. Holy cow, look at this!"
My hand fitted his palm almost perfectly. Only the tops
of my three middle fingers slightly went over the top part of Nick's palm, near
the base of his fingers.
"Told ya so," I commented, shrugging, not
bothered by the comparison of our hands together at all.
"But that's the other thing," Nick mused
softly, more to himself than to me. "You girls are just tiny in general.
Like your bone structure is always more delicate than guys, ya know?"
"Yeah, I suppose," I replied. "But not
all girls, just some."
"True, not all. But most." His hands ran over
and around my shoulders and then down my arms, and over my waist. "See,
you're small," he said quietly.
"Well I'm definitely not tall, but I'm not like…
tiny."
"No," Nick said with a smile, looking me up
and down, "you're small, tiny too."
"Should I be taking these as compliments?" I
asked, eyeing him suspiciously.
"I guess," he replied with a shrug.
"Take it how you want. It's the truth."
I looked up at him questioningly. "Is that why
guys find the need to be all big, buff and manly when they're around
girls?" I asked. "Because you're just naturally bigger and more
broader and bigger bone structure and all that than girls, so you feel the need
to, like, protect us or something?"
Nick looked at me, momentarily contemplating.
"Actually, you might have a point there. It's not like we try purposely,
well not all the time, and not all of us. Sometimes we do, we go out of our way
to impress a girl, but not always. I guess sometimes it just comes
naturally," he said. "Just because you seem so much smaller and more
delicate than us, so if you're sad or scared or something, and if we like you,
then we'll want to protect you, or something."
"So it's not always a big ego man kind of
thing?"
He shook his head. "No, not always. Generally,
most of the time, it's really about being there for you and watching out for
you, protecting you and making sure that you're alright."
"So you care."
"Of course we care," Nick replied quickly.
"I mean with some girls, say yourself, it's not like I worry about you when
you're not around me, cause I know you'll be okay and that you can take care of
yourself. But if I'm around, and I think this is with most guys, if I'm around
I'll want to protect you or whatever, just to make sure you're okay."
"Aww Nick," I smiled.
He looked at me suspiciously. "What?"
"I'm a sucker for that boy rescues girl
stuff," I laughed. "Hug me."
Nick laughed at me and patted my forehead assuring.
"There, there strange one."
"I'm not strange," I grinned. "I'm
just… touched by that sort of rescue stuff, like what you helped me
with." I looked down at my hands.
"It's not all rescuing," Nick said.
"Well you know what I mean," I replied.
"Chivalry then."
"Want to know what else I like about girls?"
he asked, after eyeing me strangely and ignoring my last statement.
"What else do you like?"
"How you always, always, always smell good,"
he replied.
"Us?" I questioned, "What about you? You
guys always smell good too. Well not always… But when you're out to smell
good, you do."
Nick looked at me. "You think guys smell
good?"
"Generally, yeah," I replied.
"Circumstances permitting. I mean if they just walked out of the gym, then
no, I do not expect them to smell good. But like, if they're going out
somewhere, then yeah, I do expect them to smell good, and they always do. I
don't know… Maybe I'm just a strange kid that is attracted to the smell of
guys' cologne. I do not know. I just like how most of you smell. I think
sometimes though, guys' cologne can smell better than some of that girls' stuff.
I mean, I'd wear it."
Nick laughed. "You wear guys' cologne?"
"No," I said, "I meant that if the
opportunity presented itself, then yes, I just might wear it. And if it smelt
good; sometimes it can be really strong and like if you breathe in too fast and
too deep it feels like you're suffocating or something, but if it's nice, then
yeah, I really do like guys' cologne."
Nick wrinkled his nose. "I don't think guys
cologne on girls would be too appealing."
"It wouldn't?" I asked. "Why not?"
"Just because I don't think it would," Nick
answered. "I mean guys' cologne, that's exactly what it is, guys'
cologne. It just wouldn't seem right on girls, ya know? Like guys put it on
themselves, so it's not something we'd want to smell on a girl," he tried
to explain. "I don't know, I think it would take away your femininity or
something."
"Yeah, I suppose cologne does kind of have that
masculine smell, doesn't it?"
"It does, yeah."
"I still like it through," I replied.
"And I think whatever you wear smells really, really gosh darn good."
"You think?" he laughed.
"I do," I replied. "And I like it. A
lot."
"Does it make you want me?" Nick grinned
evilly at me.
"Um, no," I replied honestly. "It makes
me want your cologne though."
Nick nodded, obviously taking this all into account.
"What about you though?" I asked. "Why
do you like girls' smells so much?"
"Because I do," he answered, shrugging.
"I mean they always smell really good, even it's just shampoo, it's good.
You have this way about making your scent kind of linger in the air, so you can
still smell it when you're gone, and it can, like, soak into your clothes, and
so it just stays there, always smelling good. And it usually smells fruity, or
of flowers or something sweet and nice, and refreshing, and it's nice. I like
it."
"Sounds like you have experience with
good-smelling girls," I mused quietly, and then we both laughed at how odd
that sounded.
"Actually… That's just from you," he said
softly. "I mean, yeah, I've been around girls that wear a lot of perfume
and some of it is like sickly sweet and totally disgusting and can give you a
headache and just make you feel sick, I've been around those girls before and it
isn't always pleasant. But you…You're different. I’ve passed you at awards
shows and at interviews and when we bump into each other, and this passed day,
your smell it's like so light, but it's there and it just lingers around, and I
like that. I like how you smell and I like how it lingers around me when you're
not there."
"This has turned itself into a very weird
conversation," I grinned.
"It has, but it's enlightening, don't you
think?" Nick asked.
"It is," I agreed. "But you know what I
think?"
"What do you think?"
"I think that they make boys cologne appealing to
girls, more so than guys, just like they make girls perfume more appealing for
boys than they do for girls," I explained. "So it's like our senses
are mixed up and backwards. It's not really the girls that love the
fruity and flowery smells, it's the guys. And it's not really the guys
that like that cologne kind of smell, it's the girls. Know what I mean?"
Nick laughed. "Strange thing is, I do."
"Good, because it's true," I said, all
knowingly.
"How do you know?"
"Just because I do," I replied smiling up at
him mischievously.
"You know it all, don't you?" Nick grinned.
"Damn straight," I replied.
"You have everything figured out."
"I do, I do."
"So you'd be able to tell me everything that I
would need to know about anything," Nick continued. "You would be my
Know It All Girl and whenever someone asked me a question that I didn't know I
could turn to you and go 'what's the answer?' and you would tell me."
I started to laugh. "Actually, no, I probably
couldn't," I said, "but I can tell you right now that you're squishing
me."
Nick quickly rolled off me and lay down beside me.
"Better?" he asked.
"Much," I answered with a smile. "So,
what was this that you had to show me, you told me before we went swimming that
you needed to show me something.?"
"This was it," Nick said quietly.
"What?"
"This," he said again, sweeping towards
everything that surrounded us with his arms. "Just the outside of the hotel
and walking around with you, this was it. Funny how you didn't even know, yet
you ran here anyway."
"Oh I knew," I grinned. "Remember, I'm
your Know It All Girl."
Nick faced me and smiled, as he put his arms underneath
his head. "I suppose you did."
For five minutes, no one said a thing, and we just lay
there, on the cool green grass that was neatly cut. We stared up into the sky in
silence, staring at the few stars that we could see.
"What would you do if you were a star?" Nick
suddenly asked softly, breaking the comfortable silence that was lulling me to
sleep.
"If I was a star?" I questioned. "Well
I'm not a star, and I don't think I'll ever be a star, so it doesn't really
concern me, I don't think. But if I was a star, then I suppose I would do what
all the other stars were doing."
"And that would be?" Nick quietly prompted.
"I guess I would hover in space, millions and
millions of miles away from the earth and from other stars, and I would burn for
a very long time until I had no fire left to burn. Then I would die and plummet
back to earth, and singe into a crumb of nothingness as I fell through the ozone
layer," I answered.
"Poetically positive," Nick commented.
"Thanks, I try," I replied.
"You know, I was thinking," Nick said.
"Oh really? That's a first," I quipped.
"Hey," Nick laughed as he lightly bumped me
in the knee with his foot.
I smiled at him as I said, "I'm sorry. What were
you thinking?" trying to sound over sincere.
"It's kind of funny how stars and celebrities have
both been coined the same thing. They're both known as stars. I was thinking how
they fit so perfectly together."
I looked at him confused, turning on my side to get a
better look at him. "What do you mean?"
"Well think about it," he said softly.
"A star in outer space just burns night and day all day long, keeps on
going until it burns out and then falls from the sky. Celebrities, they work and
work and they're praised for all their work, but then when they suddenly stop,
it's like they're not there anymore to the public eye. When us people look up
into the night sky we see the stars so closely clumped together, but really, way
off in the depths of outer space, the stars are scattered about for miles and
miles and miles. And there's always somebody watching a star, admiring it,
millions of people every night staring at the same star," he paused, and
stared up at the sky before speaking again. "Us celebrities, we are admired
by so many people all over the world, and we're constantly surrounded, but there
can be days when you feel so alone."
"What are you getting at?" I asked quietly.
"That celebrities and stars are very closely
related and that it's funny how a celebrity is also known as a star," Nick
replied, looking at me seriously.
"No, I mean," I stopped and then asked
abruptly. "You don't really feel alone, do you Nick?"
He shrugged.
"You have no reason to feel that way," I said
quickly. I was suddenly worried. The last thing I wanted was Nick growing
unhappy due to some inner conflict that he always felt but never spoke of, and
then having him resort to drugs to give him an artificial happiness; although I
was quite sure that I was most likely over-worrying. "You have this huge
family of about a million people with you constantly, supporting you, loving
you. You have your best friends who you are extremely close to, no matter how
much you tried to hide it," I smiled. "You have me…even if we
don’t know each other for that long, I feel like I have a new best
friend"
He sat up quickly. "I know, I know all that."
"But you still feel alone?" I asked
cautiously.
"No," he replied softly. "Yes. No. I
don't know. Not always, no."
"Honestly."
He shook his head, running a hand though his hair.
"No, I don't. There are just these moments that occasionally come, because
I think too much, and sometimes, no matter how much I try to explain, I just
feel as if no one understands me."
I studied him silently. "But you and your brother,
even your sisters, you can just look at each other and read each others
minds."
"I know," he replied softly. "It's not
like they don't understand me….," he breathed in deep. "I'm not
explaining this right."
We shared a tiny smile as I mused, "Irony."
"I don't feel alone-alone, in fact I never feel
alone. It's not about being alone it's about being misunderstood," Nick
said. "It's not like everything I say is completely misinterpreted or not
understood, because my family and the guys and I have this great
relationship-thing down. But sometimes it's like we're not on the same
floor. They understand where I'm coming from, but they don't understand
completely because they're not coming from the same place. I'm on floor eight
they're on floor six," he paused. "Did that make sense?"
I nodded. "Yeah," I sighed. "It did.
What about me though?"
"What about you what?" Nick asked, almost
like he had snapped back to reality after mentally being somewhere else.
"What floor am I on compared to you, what you know
of me, what would you think?"
He looked at me with blue eyes that seemed even bluer
in the moonlight. "Floor eight."