hi i'm al

date: friday, june 23, 2000
time: 12:11 p.m.
listening to: lightening crashes by live. now fly away covered by the moffatts.
talking to: margo and gryffen
feeling: giggly
wearing: black sweats and my "i love bob" shirt

AHHH!! the time!!! eleven past the hour! *scream* it haunts me yo!! *runs around* seriously. everytime i look at the clock, my pager, etc., it ALWAYS says 11 past the hour.

eww shut up mom.

and while we're on shutting up topic, my dad needs to ZIP HIS MOUTH SHUT *#&%(@#&%(@#*&% GOD. he is annoyingly yelling at me...i'm like "whatever, i'm a poor excuse for a daughter, that's nice." hahah. he's so stupid, does he actually think i listen to him? if he does, he's even stupider than i previously thought.

anyways - did you know clint won't back down? *giggles, listening to "won't back down"* yes, it's true. *licks scott* hahahah. anyways. i think i have temporary add. see? lol.

ASPIE MADE ME A 80s "HI I'M AL" WINAMP SKIN!!! (*#&%(@#&%#@ my GOD! *giggles* FANKS aspie-chan, i LOVEEEE IT. it's on forreeeverrrr lol. haha it's so cool you guys, it's got an 80s theme like here, and at the top says "HI I'M AL" :DDDDDDD *licks* melovesit.

oh my STARS! my cd club *bmg* has cooooool tee shirts...i wanna get 'em! they have a strawberry shortcake one, a bewitched one [#*%&@(# MY GOD!! "shine" is ON!! EEK!]...powerpuff girls, charlie's angels, CAREBEAR!, transformers...*giggles* oh al is gonna get some TEES.

colleen is dropping off my babysitting money from yesterday today. it was okay, really, just a little boring, but i cleaned their house to take up time. *smiles* so it wasn't all bad - let me tell you the names and ages...arthur, 13; allen, 12; kylie [kk], 10; brianna [breezy], 8; drew, 4; and jack, 1. anyways. jack is shy, lol, it's SO CUTE. if i'm like "jack, honey, want some milk?" he gets shy and STOPS just what he's doing and lays on the floor, his little feets underneath him and head down, as if he's HIDING. lol. too cute. he's usually crabby, but he was really good yesterday. *breathes sigh of relief*

anyways. i should go, my mom's bitching at me to get off.

LATER

you know what's really gay and immature? ohhh, yes, you are right, i AM going to tell you.

it's really stupid when someone can't accept blame for something they do - they won't take responsibility and must place blame on all others involved. but none on themselves - because, you see, they are the victim here. *gags*

but of course, i must back up my words, so i am going to use a particular example. this person, if reading this, will know what i'm talking about - so will a select few others.

i can accept that i participated in some mean things that lead to the destruction of our friendship. i have NO PROBLEM admitting that - so why in the FUCK do you? why can't you grow up and accept that you were wrong too, instead of placing all possible blame on me? i'm not doing that to you. hell, i KNOW i did wrong things, i know i said and did mean things. just why can't you recognize that you have too, so we can MOVE THE FUCK ON with our lives? and don't you dare start that "i have moved on" shit - because i KNOW you haven't, or you wouldn't be saying things in your journals/to mutual friends, etc. i cannot finish my process of moving on until you stop this bullshit. i know, i shouldn't let it affect me, but it DOES.

and for god's sake, don't say i didn't mean anything to you. it's not that it hurts me, well maybe it does, but we both know that we meant something to each other. you can't deny that, and please don't. and don't do it just to spite me. you can't say our whole friendship was a lie. you'll be lying to yourself if you say that.

and of course, the lies...*cracks knuckles* [hehe i really just did do that]

i'm not even going to get into that. one more thing on this topic [though there'll probably be more as i think of it] - please do not go around telling people things about me that are none of your business. you know what i'm talking about. so don't do it. it's NOT your business to tell, so stop it! thank you. *composes self*

now that i've gotten that out, i can go.

oh wait - one thing. I DID IN FACT SEE THAT ON TV ABOUT GIL so kiss my michiganian ass. you know not what my satellite dish/cable includes, so don't go assume. it makes an ASS out of UME. :D

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