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date: monday, june 12, 2000
time: 9:29 p.m.
listening to: the incessant droning of the tv.
talking to: nevie
feeling: happy that i'm going to pass my chem test, yet very...melancholy?
wearing: blue dlux cargos, blink 182 shirt

ehhh...it's been a while. lots to talk about but i don't feel like talking. so i'll sum it up. saw hanson. it was wonderful, as was expected. *smiles* i also just saw blink 182 on friday. hmmmm...what else?

oh, i took my ACT's. more than likely failed the entire science section - only because it was so disgustingly hot and humid on saturday [when i took 'em] and i was so tired from the concert that i didn't even bother to read the questions. *shrugs* i think i did pretty good on the rest.

yesterday was the one month anniversary [that sounds too happy?] of nevie's little sister's death. *sighs, hugging nevie* that means baby "homie z" zac is a month old already. it's weird. it flew way too fast, if you ask me...but then again, i don't want nevie suffering any more hard stuff, by it going slow...? i'm not making sense. but i'll agree with asp, i didn't even KNOW rayne, so it's amazing how someone's death can effect someone else so greatly. *mwah and snuggles* you're doing wonderful babes, i love you.

here's a weird dream i had...*shrugs* GO figure, eh? eh.

I had this REALLY weird dream about Taylor the other night...Thursday night I do believe. Anyways, he was in a mental hospital of sorts for attempting suicide by slitting his wrists. There was a girl, named Fiona, in the room with him, and she was like, an ex girlfriend...and Taylor had all these complexes that people hated him - he couldn't believe that Fiona loved him, no matter how many times she said so. He also believed that Diana, Zac and Jessie hated him. And that they were all against him. Anyways, on Friday at school, I couldn't get "Suicidal Dream" out of my head, and I haven't even listened to that in SUCH a long time. So it was weird, right? Well, me and my friend figured it out. Sometimes your mind disguises people so that you can't figure out your dreams. Taylor was really representing Scott Moffatt. Fiona represented a girl named Rachel that recently broke up with Scott...and Diana, Zac and Jessie represented his triplet brothers. Also, with Taylor being a Pisces, it's VERY unlikely that he would slit his wrists if he was going to kill himself - he would jump off a building or such. Scott's an Aries, which is way closer related to blood, and more likely to commit suicide in such a way, as slitting a wrist, or shooting themselves, etc. And again, "Suicidal Dream" isn't really a "Taylor" song, you know? However, it has Scott written all over it...the line about jealousy, and about "you will get yours too" - Scott is bitterly revengeful. So I was feeling Scott's vibes, but thinking about Taylor and that's how my dream turned out. *nod*

that's it. bye.

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