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date: july 31, 2000
time: 10:16 p.m.
listening to: we all know by hanson
talking to: no one cause my brother is a sadist and won't let me get on
feeling: like kicking my brother's head in
wearing: khaki cargos, black hanson tee shirt, and many many jellies

GODDAMN IT!!!!! he fucked up MY computer so that i can't get on AIM or any angelfire pages or like, my mail...NOTHING! all i can do is get to aspen's guestbook and my guestbook. WHAT THE FUCK (#*$&)@#($*&@#($ !!!

*ahem* anyways.

GODDAMN i miss tulsa so so much... yes, that's right folks, i went to tulsa, oklahoma for a week - from the 25th to the 30th. to see my loverly friend aspen. it was so much goddamn fun!!! and like, i don't have lots of patience to type it all up, but i'm going to for you. YOU OWE ME GODDAMN IT!!! lol.

i was all worried that maybe we wouldn't get along as well as we do on the computer and stuff, and that it'd be weird. but it wasn't, much to my joy. we got along like two peas in a fucking pod, yo, likes PEAS AND CARROTS or something. cause we're both such awesome ass fucking dorks, and it was fun to finally have someone that i could be like that with...she's just like me, i mean, i knew that, cause her, nevie and i are all goddamned triplets, but i was just worried. ABOUT NOTHING YAY! cause she rocks, i rock, and we rocked together. *giggles*

but now i miss her. terribly. i woke up at my house and i was all, "where's aspie..." and realized and like, CRIED. i cried on the plane home too, cause goddamn, i have no friends in michigan man! it's not fun. i mean, i have friends but no one that i can really talk to, and that is worth calling my friend, in all honesty. and when i was in tulsa with aspen, i had that, and she listened and understood everything i was saying, and...it was just so good to have someone to talk to, and now that i don't, i'm damn depressed/lonely. i knew it was going to happen, so i'm somewhat prepared i guess. *sighs* it sucks.

i don't go out with anyone here. no one. cause all they do is do things that i hate, so i don't go out. i don't have friends to do that with, they're all fake and just...UGH. or they blow me off for their boyfriends, which i do NOT take. i'm sorry, but there's only so many times you can blow me off for a guy before i stop coming back. so that's basically what's happened, for the most part... i think i might push myself away from it, but i think... no, it's not good, but for some reason i think it is. that i'm not letting myself get involved in that shit. but at the same time, it's so lonely not having someone to talk to, besides your two best friends ever, one of whom you've never met.

that's another thing - nevie couldn't go to tulsa. because her stupid ass jerk face doctors fucked up her operation the FIRST time, and she had to operated on AGAIN!!! jesus [tapdancing?] christ, it just isn't fair...know why? tulsa was HER trip. she started it, and i just jumped on cause we were all three, like...muskateers or something. so i was going to go along as well, and was notified a week before i could. everything was so fucking perfect for a couple days...no, like, one day. and then, i get word nevie can't go. WAY sad. way way fucking sad. i mean, millions of thoughts passed through my head...like...would i be welcomed without her? would it be weird? would we have as much fun? would it be weird? would it be weird? i'm not saying that aspen wouldn't like me coming or whatever...if nevie hadn't...but i was just nervous that maybe it'd be more awkward without nevie there. we're the powerpuff girls, the triplets, the muskateers, stooges, whatever...and without one, it was... there was ALWAYS a place for nevie, like, four chairs at a restaurant. she was SUPPOSED to be there. but i understand that we'll all be together one day, and it'll rock so hard when it finally happens - i guess it just wasn't our time to meet nevie? i don't know, but nevertheless, aspen and i had a rocking time, and reported to nevie daily, for hours upon hours of talkage. :D *hugs* me loves those two so damn much. and i miss them like i would miss my goddamned head. *sniffles*

dude, i am having an affair with the golden driller. :D he's this gold-like HUGE ASS statue in tulsa, an oil dude...and he's like... oh god, i don't know, but really tall and big and stuff, and is standing beside an oil derrick. GODDAMN HE IS SO SEXY!!!!! i will scan in a picture when i get them back tomorrow. hehehe. anyways, yes, we took pictures of me, like, ALL OVER his leg and stuff. it was so funny. ilovehim. i was all, "OH GOD!! GOLDEN DRILLER!!! YOU ARE SO SEXY!!!" lol.

another fun thing - aspen and i watched, oh, say, about five hours of moffatts tapes, followed by about two hours of hanson. and then another like, 3 hours of gil. so, our thoughts were rather insane, as we were fueling ourselves with cookie dough and pop [dr. pepper for me, surge for aspen]. a few things we came up with, you ask? scott fucks sheila. he also fucks retarded children, and makes them suck him off. he is DAMN SEXY licking a guitar. damn sexy in general. gil, on the other hand, fucks abi, sandra, tal, scott, and anyone or thing that happens to cross his path. yes, children, we realize we are going straight to hell. we determined this from the first remark about scott fucking sheila. also, we have a new found obsession with mullets. dude, scott and bob had them when they was little country boys. so now we are always like, "MMDFLS:KJF MULLETS!!!!" lol. we wrote mullet porn for christ's sake!!!! bwahahahah!

another thing, is the voice box/beavis and butthead voices. like this, "huhuh MULLETS huhuh, MMMMNNGGHHHHH my you have a nice mullet MMMMNNAHHHHGGGHH". lolol!!! *falls over with laughter* of course, we're the ONLY TWO who find this in anyway amusing. my mom and my co-workers are ready to beat my ass for it. hahahaha. DAMN IT!!! aspen come live in my kitchen, we need to laugh at that together. and nevie, you can sleep in my bathtub and kick our nuts into shape when we get out of line. *grins* in a perfect world my friends.

anyways. i'm done ranting, for this is already way fucking long, and i'm only going to get more frustrated when i realize i can't post it right away. GODDAMN YOU MATT!!! #*$&#)@$*&@#)$(*#&$(& !!!! *kicks him*

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