Why?Why do I feel like this?
Someone talks, but I don’t hear
A word they say.
I’m in a dream world that
Seems to have gone wrong
Daydreams and ambitions
Turn sour and repeat themselves
At night, taunting with glamour
Floating on air one minute
Falling into depression the next
No one listens, no one cares
They just think I’m nothing,
A piece of background,
An amusement in their boring lives
Nothing goes right, but
Nothing seems to be wrong.
No one understands. They think
I am quiet
I lack confidence and self- appreciation
In my dreams I am surrounds by sickly
Sweet happiness
In my nightmares my pain is
Refracted, defracted and reflected,
Into a million facets of crystalline hurt
Why does this happen? I thought
I had life sorted
But things have happened that
I cannot explain
Things change and shift
Dismissing the past
Which I resurrect
They forget the wrongs
But I remember and regret.