The sun is here!!!!! all aboard!!! the sun is here!!!!

Can you feel these glory moments upon? oh! this fresh breeze of falling rays, the light! I threw all my black clothes to the closet's basement and wore my colorful hat with my green shirt, I was a jamaican today! whoo hoo! freedom is cheering me up!
lifts my spirit, screams with bliss!

Everything seemed so wrong this morning but the sun makes it all go away. My book report is delayed- no Dickens for today, yess! and tomorrow can be such a depressing thing since I'm getting 2 tests back BUT I don't mind at all, zero or not, I'm surfing on the spring's colors. or is it summer already?

light and darkness, physical ones, change my mood and now I have nothing to do so I'm going to the city today (farm girl is going to the big world...heh heh..not..whoooo...drunk..me..maybe) and my wife is coming!! she could come earlier but I told her to come only when I came back from school. the surprising (whoops, forgot a capital letter) thing is that she wasn't supposed to be at the dorms but for some reason I believed she is-

The world is on my side today, it's just the right time for revolution or a nice cup of lemonade.

I am so happy!!!! argh! what have I become? :)) I even can smile today!

(although school was such a horrible expirience as any forced anthropological experiment)
But I am so good now! I feel good with this hat on and my short shirt and the green fields everywhere. I'm so lucky today..it's amazing. (next thing you'll know something will fall on me..I just know myself too well)

The buses aren't coming..and tha'ts a problem, I'll go soon to the bus station, an hour and a half before so I won't be late on my wife..I want to buy her a rose, she loves the yellow ones but I love the purple ones.
A red rose is the ideal one though..I think.

I wasn't out of the house for like...A WHOLE FOREVER and now I can, it feels so good. I was locked here too long! the princess wants to meet the kingdom's peasants and animals.
I will take a flute and an olive-leaves crown, then some sheeps and I'll go all through the mountains and sing my song..

join along, even if there's no one to join me, I hope it's all spread around, this beautiful day.
I always wanted to wander and travel in the wide space, I just love walking, I adore it, even the moments when my legs hurt and I need a break. And it's ironic because I officially quit my duty as a guide, I put a resignation letter in the teacher's locker, and I ran from him the whole day...heh heh..coward me, today I won't even criticize myself.

I cursed one bimbo today and hit another, these stupid things, they think they own the world. one of them told me "shut up" so I told her "say that to your mother honey, you won't talk that way to me" and the other hit me so I told her "if you even hit me again, you're dead, understood?" and I mean it..
I was bored with these vain life, I need some blood..hmm..

so I will go now, damn it I'm broke totally, but I will survive..I hope.

I love the world today
except the ones who shouldn't be in it

from the old faithful shepherdess

Natalie!

p,s- I know I sound pathetic, so what...even I can be cheerful from time to time, I don't have to like myself anyway..

20:59, to-day still
ooooh I love my Odelya so much!!!! ani ohevet otach ahuvati! (that was in hebrew...)
We were together now, oh, my beautiful artist and me, I gave her my artist hat and we walked like that, and felt so united. I even kissed her in public (well..kind of..heh heh) and I felt like I don't care about anything or anyone but my only wife. yes, she's so unique, and she's MINE! the most perfect thing I could ask for.
Yes I see these couples in the streets that kiss and hug and..stuff..hmm..but although I wish I could kiss her whenever I want to, I understand that our love has to be private, at least now. But when I'm with her I see no people and I hear no other voices and I look at no eye but hers and because of that I have this urge to kiss her in public sometimes, because I'm not aware of where we are..I'm flying in my own world..in Our world.
I just had to say it, I felt so good with her, my beautiful wife, someday we'll be able to sit at a cafe, drink our hot cocoa, hold each other's hands and just smile with no fear of being seen,
we're broke, we're in different cities
BuT
We're the closest, and we're -inlove-.

I love you my Odelya, in case you're reading- I love you.

good night ,
it's surprising but everytime I feel good I start singing that song from "hair" called 'good morning starshine" and today we heard it in the coffee shop..

A day of fortune
look down, it twinkles beneath you
Sweet Dreams............