I have no time but oh listen to the outside..beauty everywhere and I can't take any part in this natural celebration.
oh the birds and the yellow yellow light!!!
not for you Natalie, not today. something calls me from the far, it tells me not to look, today there is no light for me, only dark pages, one candle and witchy spells.

It is 10:35 *am* and I still need to finish summing the material. yesterday I was so tired I couldn't finish..never was so tired in my life. everytime I'm that tired I wake up early and every time I remember my dream. today, it was the scariest.
In my dream I was at my house doing my usual history summing, fighting the time that is running out. and suddenly I'm outside, it is rather foggy, and I open the mail box and find a strange letter. on the letter there's a hebrew prayer saying something like "wait, I am coming soon" and it got everyone scared but for some reason I was most afraid. I took out some letters of my Odelya from the mail box and they were in a shape of small squares but as any envelope she sent me in the past. and I want to open it but I'm standing in my kitchen and every few minutes someone puts another letter from the mysterious demon, and it says something I couldn't really understand, in ancient language..but I knew it was bad, the demon was progressing. And then I got musical notes, master pieces of creation and it said "soon", "be aware my friend" and there was something cynical and evil about it. I was afraid that I won't finish doing my history thing but then everyone went away from the house and I screamed " please stay with me!!!! " I dialed Odelya's number quickly and told her " come now, I have no time to explain, please!!!!! come now Odelya!!!!!!!!! I need you here!!!!!!!! I'm so afraid!!!" and she said nothing, it hung up and a black dark clowd was in the sky, only me in there and there was a girl who studied with me last year..I really didn't like the girl, i think she's so stupid. but that big girl was there, locking the door. and we were waiting...

ahh so scary!

And now I have to go back to dear Turkey and Germany and Israel...sum sum sum
I really hope that these people loved what they did
who gives us the right to write about someone in a test? you always get these "who was..." in a test and in no answer you will see the line "he was sad" or "he was depressed" or "he loved breathing the fresh morning air", it's always "he was disappointed" or " he was content " or "he was against pollution" and if you ask me, there's a huge difference.

facts or emotions?

I choose...
milk.