Hey to you..ahh..I feel horrible when I don't write. I have something like 5 minutes so if I do some spelling errors, be understanding. I type so fast now..I frighten myself! the thing is that I have a history test on tuesday and it takes all of my energy, I can't be here because I have to study.
I feel so so bad because I want to talk to Yael and suddenly I can't even write her here and I want to..just live like I should, and not study study study. It's hard for me to study, I never do. but history..it takes it all out of you, it twists you , it...well, I don't have time- you understand.
What I wanted to say, I think , is that I'm still alive and I haven't(yet) joined any cult lately ( it's stlil early...only 7:01 AM!!! ) and I have to go to school...why do they do this to me? oh why?
I will be here on Tuesday so..
Don't give up on me ok?

love..
suffering...

Natalie