"Casablanca" is on now, there is romance in the air..not because of the movie..but because of this bated breath and beating heart.
I wrote something before but I won't put it now, it doesn't seem right. Now I don't care if anyone reads my words or not, I will say what I feel like saying or won't what I..don't.

I love my Odelya

Had an urge to say it...
Oh why can't I hold her body forever in my loving arms? our minutes are always amputated by the counted seconds..but every second with her is an eternity. I always read it and didn't believe that anyone can feel eternity in one touch, but it's real, it's rushing in my blood right now.
I'm waiting for her to come back, ooooooh my eyes refuse to close even though I am tired, there are things you can't do when your will is stronger than your weakness...

Piano is in the background..that well knows melody of the movie..I can't watch, I have my own love inside and it beats along...
I miss my Odelya, I miss every moment with her..just looking at her at night, fighting my urges, her purity is flushing the room and we are both flames of love,
love is a weak word, we're more than that.

in the newspaper yesterday I saw a poem, in hebrew, and it said:
"When you're coming out to the street, the street comes out to you
from all the porches and the shutters peeking
and the vitrines are cleaning the glasses
to see if it is not just a daydream

When you're coming out to the street, we think all of the sudden
that it's just an accident that the street is still silent
if it only had drums and castanets
it would turn the boulevard to a discotheque."

I thought it is beautiful...I still do

I really don't care anymore if anyone is reading my words...ahhh...it should be private, so it has to be my private corner for all my insane thoughts that no one would understand..but..me . of course.

I have a thing for dark buildings..hee..oh wow, how I love my wife. It surprises me everytime I see her, well..that's why she is my wife and not just ..something else.
forever, yes!

I just had to put something, so that day won't be forgotten...I will put my today's entry tomorrow...everything's twisted anyway and besides- time has no influence on me, remember?

I can't believe no store has "the sensual world"...
Good Night to earth and all the stars,

Yes, tonight is unforgettable.


I just had to say some more things, just a little bit..
I'm really tired and so I think about things...when you're tired you're less defensive so you try to think about things in a more beautiful way. And I was thinking how I turn everything down, but I have no guilt in me because there's a little me that I can give to the world and the world isn't so nice to me lately so me is within me, a single light through my hands' grooves. I can say "I'm sorry" and I am, but I can't picture it otherwise, I made everyone so far away from me
I wish that someday we could brush our horses' tails together, i miss that.

night...