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"I Will Remember You" - Sarah MacLachlin
This page is dedicated to the memory of my son, Nicholas Michael , who entered the world on December 15th, 1998 at Brigham & Women's Hospital in Boston, MA at 7:35 pm, but was stillborn. He weighed 8 lb. 14 oz. and was 21 inches long. Now, that's a big baby!
Here's a picture of my sweet baby boy:
Here's a picture of my sweet baby boy:
Here are Nicholas's hand & foot prints
This is a special graphic that my friend, Katy made for me using Nicholas's hand & foot print. I think she did a great job on it!
Here's another special graphic that my friend, Jeanine made for me. It's a beautiful birthstone memorial. Thanks Jeanine!!
Here's a picture of Noah's Ark that was given to me by Nicholas's Auntie Lori. Thanks Lori!!
It's hard to believe that a baby of his size was inside of me for 41 weeks. When he was born, he looked like he was sleeping, but we knew there was no life in him. Losing Nicholas to a stillbirth was THE most hardest thing in the world, especially when he was our first child & first pregnancy.
This special poem for Nicholas was written by the request of a friend. Here it is:
Here's another poem that was written for Nicholas by one of my best friends, Monica:
Here's another poem that was given to me from my friend, Maria, who's from Massachusetts:
God gave us a special spot
to preserve them in our hearts;
A forever place where all we love
lingers when we part.
Fireflies and autumn leaves,
Roses, kittens, dreams,
Icicles, sunrise, spider webs,
Mornings dew, moon beams;
Butterflies and baby birds,
Flowers that bloom in spring...
Perhaps in life Godís greatest gifts
Are blessed by Him with wings.
This is a poem that I had written for Nicholas:
Sweet little baby
So quiet and still
You lay here in
Your mommy's arms
No life, no will
I wish I could
See your eyes
But they are closed
And now we say
Our final goodbyes
Until the day
That we will see
Each other again
My angel baby
Forever you'll be
written by Jodi Johnson
January 19th, 2002
In loving memory of Nicholas Michael Johnson
born an angel on December 15th, 1998
The best part of giving birth to Nicholas was having my mother, my mother-in-law, & our minister with me & Michael in the delivery room. It was so great to have them in there to share in our joy, which was also our sorrow.
We laid Nicholas to rest on December 21st, 1998. The day was hard for me to get through, but not as bad as I was expecting it to be. We had Nicholas cremated and his ashes were placed in a beautiful white marble urn. When I saw the urn at the church, I felt a certain peace of mind come over me. At the cemetery, I had such a fixation on the urn that I didn't hear anyone talking to me, until I heard a sweet little voice telling me, "Mommy, there's no need to cry. I'm okay now." I knew then that he was safe now.
"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me." (Psalm 23)
"To our son, Nicholas....we just want you to know how much we love you! You'll always be a part of our lives & you'll live on in our hearts. We love you! Love from Mommy, Daddy, & Onyx >^..^<"
I did a tribute to Nicholas at the Born Angels web site. Click the banner below to see his tribute & check out the Born Angels web site.
This is the Angels Special Star that was made for Nicholas from Debbie at the Born Angels web site.
I've learned a lot about pregnancy loss from Debbie & her great web site. Below is a ribbon that she made in honor of pregnancy loss & for those that have gone through it at any stage of pregnancy.
My friend, Debbie says that I've got a lot of strength to have gone through the ordeal with Nicholas and to be able to move on with my life. Below is her gift to me for showing such great strength
Thank you so much, Debbie!!!
This beautiful memorial plaque was made by a wonderful woman named LadyJ. She did a great job on this.
This is a special award that LadyJ gave Nicholas & it's so deserving of it.
This is Rachel. She is Nicholas's special Guardian Angel. Click on the graphic below Rachel if you would like to get a guardian angel for your page.
A little treasure that I picked up from "The Treasure Chest" from Over The Rainbow website.
Special banners from our friends at "A Treasure In Heaven"
Other special banners & graphics from our newest friend, Fiona at Heaven Babies.
Click on the graphic below to visit Operation Angel
A special banner made for Nicholas from Amanda at "Angels Among Us"
From Jeanine & her angel, Jennie. Click on the graphic below to see Jennie's site. The little angel in the graphic is holding a pearl - birthstone for Nicholas's little brother, Hunter
This graphic was made special by a friend, who asked me not to list their name. Thank you so much for this beautiful tag for Nicholas. I know he appreciates it as much as do. =)
Another graphic that was made for Nicholas by someone who didn't want me to mention their name. Thank you!
To see more of the great stuff that Nicholas has gotten for his page, click on the graphics below to go to his awards pages
Nicholas & I have started an "Angel Friends" page. If you have lost a child during pregnancy or afterwards & would like to have your child listed, then click the graphic below to take you to the Angel Friends page
If you would like to fill out the form with the information you want listed for your angel/angels, click on the graphic below
These were given to me from one of the members of the Without You webring. She's a member of Greeting Committee.
Please sign the Guestbook below to tell Nicholas how much you loved his page.
Keeping a candle lit for all Angels that have made a difference in our lives before they made their appearance on the Earth.
Angel of Blessings was Adopted at:
Below are some awards that Nicholas is giving to websites that are dedicated to the loss of a child or a loved one & for Moms who have gone through the loss of a child. If you have a site dedicated to a loved one & would like one of the awards, please click here to fill out the form stating which award you are applying for.
I would like to personally thank everyone who has come here to visit Nicholas's site. I've put in a lot of time & hard work into this site since January, 1999 and I can't believe how amazing it all looks to me. I'm proud of this page & I know that Nicholas is proud of me, too. I'm sure that's he smiling down on me & saying, "Good job, Mom!!" Please come back to visit Nicholas's page anytime. Thanks!