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*Stone By Stone*

Stone by stone I should have known,
the mark I had recieved when I was born,
would have been etched in that stone.
who would have thought, who would have known,
low and behold it was I lost in that stone.
I feel like a wall, stone by stone,stacking myself in,
every time I believe something is my fault, I add another stone,
sooner or later wanting it to fall ,
but instead I just add more stone.
Sooner or later my wall will cover me,
all that will be left are some cracks and imperfections,
yet as I see me behind this wall.....
I wish someone could just make me fall ,
to just set me free.......
All's it takes is one to see,
to break the walls deep within me
But as I grow older I realize this will not be,
for this wall is just me
I just see myself smothering, as for I wish!!!!
my life could not be,
only with the wish for a loss of a final breath,
I wish for God to take my soul,
before I decide to take my own,
it's so close its all over time all in the wall,
I always give my all to make others so they don't fall,
in these stones I hide their pains,
I hide their fears
but me????
I cry behind my wall into these great fears,
behind these wall's I have jepordized all I had believed in,
just to make others feel love, touch, pleasures,
yet to sheild them from any pain,
but my pain??????
it runs so deep behind these walls
as my story is about to fall....
I know a young woman who bears her perfect heart
as I bear mine of scars and tares of imperfections,
as for I am her.......
but behind these wall's
I see that scared heart
getting ready to stop beating with all it's
fears growing into tears
streaming inside,
as I am screaming for
I won't stop dreamin for all my tears to finally stop,
my heart from beating...
so PLEASE
find my cracks,
to bring me back.......

R.E.Lysak©January ~23~2001