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Written From The Soul


Everyone's ultimate fantasy is to find their one and only soulmate; will we ever find it?
Will we ever know if it truly exists?
Sometimes love seems and feels as though it is one-sided, and noone is ever on the same page.
I believe love is give and take, do unto the other as they do unto you, take no prisoners then there is no fool.

I have been writing half of my life away and afraid to theorize on my beliefs.
Is it possible to love someone you have never seen?
Is love at first sight possible, or is it just longing and lust?

I guess as humans we are unsure of our lives; and,
one thing God never gave us was any answers to all these crazy games that go on in our lives.

This new text for me can't get any more real than it is on this page.
If I had one wish it would be to be loved unconditionally ~ forever.
Is that possible?
I'm not sure, but hope someday it hits me harder than ever.

Love is something this noble soul needs to finish her life. I try to control the cutting but at times it is hard to control.
Each one has a significance, as the blood drips to the floor the inner pain seems to release with it.
I can't explain how this release works for me. I guess noone caring enough to love me and say, "I will not hurt you";
"I will do my best to help love you for you are truly a wonderful soul and are worth saving".

But I have yet to ever hear the words to free my soul or to hear,
"Why do you really do this?" "What causes this pain and how do you cure it?"
That I don't know but am working on it. All the counselor's in the world cannot help
because all of these feelings are locked deep inside me.
I have to get the hell out of here real soon. I kept trying to warn everyone but they didn't listen.

When I break I am gonna break so bad and hard that noone will know what hit them.
I will rock all their worlds to disappear forever, never to return.
It's all over, all I have written is coming.
See ~ now the shaking's starting, the feeling of wanting to hurt myself ~ it's here ~ it's at the top of my head right now.
The keys are stopping me.
"I know your pain." "I know it, I am it".
I can't control or stop it. It's gonna happen here.............

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