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What is Bringing Us Joy


The Essays of Brother Anonymous
Spiritual Essays

Last revised: July 17, 2009.

Saul’s latest message reminds us that “spiritual growth or development is your reason for being human.” (1) The way I’ve said this on other occasions is that enlightenment is the purpose of life. God’s Plan is that God should meet God and experience Its own Bliss.

In case we wonder why we seem to be ineluctably pulled in the direction of spirituality, he reminds us that:

“The intent, the will to move in that direction has always been anchored deep within you. It was placed there by God when you chose to make and experience your illusory, separated reality of pain, suffering, and fear, so that you could never be truly lost.”

It was placed within us to guide us Home.

I need not remind you of our earlier discussion of SaLuSa pointing to this same intent or will. He called it “the urge to evolve” which “drives you ever onwards.” (2) Now here is Saul talking about it.

We may be the only ones who do not know that an urge to know God has been built into us. I am willing to bet that all the 2012 Team of masters, celestials, and galactics know about it. Diane of Sirius provides us with another example of a galactic calling it “a natural urge.” (3)

In his article, Saul reminds us that, when we seek God in our hearts, we feel joy.

“What you have been seeking for eons is already within you, as saints and mystics have been telling you. Finally, humanity is beginning to hear, and it is this that is bringing you joy.”

Saul has talked about this before. On an earlier occasion, he said that the object of our search is “buried deep within each human.” (4)

“For ages, [knowing God] has appeared to be a state of being that is to all intents unattainable. And yet a desire, a deep longing to return there remains, providing the unquenchable hope that drives the search to find that heavenly state.”

This urge to find God is growing in me every day. Last night, in my sleep, I had what I call the “darshan” (that is, the experience of being in the presence) of a holy person. I am prevented from revealing that individual’s identity. It was a sacred moment.

I think I may also have been in presence of my twin soul afterwards.

The part of this experience which is the most amazing to me is the mood it has left me in all day. It is so hard to find words to describe it.

“Surrendered” is not quite the right word. “Abhorring bad behaviour” is closer. I walked down the street being my “normal” self, getting irritated because it was so hot, impatient at standing in lines.

All of this bad behaviour gets edited out of my writing, but I see it myself. I can’t hide from the one in the mirror.

Suddenly I could not stand this way of being. “Abhorring” it is really the right word.

I did not surrender to God at that moment. I did what Sri Ramakrishna advised. If, after all the work I’d done (encounter groups, est, enlightenment intensives), I had still not triumphed over my own bad behaviour, Sri Ramakrishna advised, “give [God your] power of attorney.” (5)

I gave over my power of attorney to Archangel Michael, acknowledging that I had not been able to do the job and time was running out.

I’ve been weeping on and off all day. There is also a second quality that again I cannot find words to describe. I would not call it bliss. Something sacred is arising from the depths of my soul.

Now someone can explain all this in terms of grids and energies, but I cannot. The cost of ignoring God or leading a worldly life just seems to get higher every day.


(1) Saul, “A sense of joyous, hopeful anticipation will arise within you,” July 14, 2009, at
(2) SaLuSa of Sirius, June 22, 2009, at .
(3) Diane, Feb. 2, 2009, at
(4) Saul, “Full consciousness is where humanity is headed,” June 17, 2009, at .
(5) Paramahansa Ramakrishna in Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna, 385.


The Essays of Brother Anonymous
Spiritual Essays