they drag you by your fear
                             curl in
                        rather be you than me
                        tripped along the way
                        "faster" too many. too many
                        stuck on the wall

                             go go
             
                        dreams of the liberation
                       
                             drive, 
                        driven by your fear
                        lost in the undertow
                        i can- yes, i can
                             feel
                        the nocturnal flow
                        is she coming back for more? 
                        is there anything left?
                        stripped down so many times
                        left & lost
                        scarred & dismantled
                    
                        new, new, shed the old
                        but that's my shadow
                        christ carried his cross
                        his own crucifixtion
                        i carry my own shadow
                              up that hill
                               
                              driven,
                        driven, by your fear

                              my fear
                        do i die for this 
                        is that my sacrifice?
                        cuts & holes
                        are they not enough?
                        out past myself
                        past the meandering
                        
                        too many. too many.
                        deposits. confusion.
                        
                        lost it. lost it.