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Yo wasup? -
Well, I almost got lucky last night ... you nearly had me happily seduced. You know that I'm attracted to you. Just wish you'd exploit it to the full round-of-the-bases sometimes. Oh well...
Just got hooked up to Road Runner. Haven't installed the firewall yet - going to see if I even need it before I worry about it. No popups, no need, right? Just wanted to celebrate by writing you a hello on the Message Center.
This weekend I still have a lot of little things to take care of. I need to do Dr. Olga's Homework, and algorithm for CS 430, an essay for CS 494, and I have to try and keep up with the message board in CS 420 (Robin will be complaining about that soon enough, just you wait!). I intend to help you with your class room posters somewhere in there (which actually sounds the most fun). I want to go surfing again with Josh Paul on tuesday, but I really need to stop by Dr. Judy's office sometime in the next two days and I am not sure if I should keep as much school-hour time free as possible just to make sure that I'm properly prioritized.
I know you believe that you are gifted in forgiveness and that I somehow am not. No matter how I look at it, you don't seem to be forgiving me - I believe genuine forgiveness would result in trust from you, because at the point you forgive me, you will have nothing to hold against me and no reason to conclude that trust will result in damage or pain. You mentioned that you still have to be careful, even though you claim you've forgiven me, because you must safegaurd yourself. Hey, I believe that's just fine for forgiveness, but that's where I'm at too! So why do you believe I lack that? I actually think I'm farther along than you are in the removal of bitterness between us. I think Wednesday proved that. You shot at me with insult after insult and I just sat there as calm as possible trying to figure out how to get through to you.
I'm not sure why I'm writing - you don't even have time to check this. I guess I'm just confirming to myself that I'm not that bad, and one day maybe you'll read this. I hope your wireless works out soon, or at least some connection to the web. You shouldn't need to be worried about that.
Hang in there,
Beck
Chris'n'Circe Message Center
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