And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means
And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!
And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candle lights your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me
And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
outside
And you bring me to my knees
All this time that I could beg you please
All the times that I felt insecure
And I leave my burdens at the door
I'm on the outside - I'm looking in
I can see through you - see your true colors
Cause inside you're ugly - ugly like me
I can see through you - see to the real you
All this time that I felt like this won't end - was for you
And I taste, but I could never have - it's from you
All those times that I tried - my intention full of pride
And I waste more time than anyone
I'm on the outside - I'm looking in
I can see through you - see your true colors
Cause inside you're ugly - ugly like me
I can see through you - see to the real you
All the times that I've cried - all this wasting - it's all inside
And I feel all this pain - stuffed it down - it's back again
And I lie here in bed all alone- I can't mend
And I fear tomorrow will be okay
I'm on the outside - I'm looking in
I can see through you - see your true colors
Cause inside you're ugly - you're ugly like me
I can see through you - see to the real you...