In a time of helplessness people seem to turn to God for comfort. I wonder if this is because we are insecure of our ability to deal with things ourselves. Lets say you knew a person before there was this threat of war they would have told you that they are a christian but they don't attend church regularlly. But when something happens that they have no control over they have to have some sort of reasurance. Could this be the real reason for religion in the first place? Just to give people comfort with things that they can't really control or explain. Take for instance a prehistoric man. He sees things that there is no way for him to explain, such as rain, fire, lightning, ect. So why not come up with the idea that there must be some all powerful man that lives in the sky among the stars that controls everything the happens on earth? Is a man of such little knowledge capable of such an idea? Well scientist have been trying to answer questions such as this for a long time. I'm currently writing an english paper on this topic, the origin of religion. It's sort of a hard thing to write about because of the extreme varieties of theories that exist. I can't really base my research on hard facts because the fact is that there are no hard fact on this topic. All of my research is merely speculation of some scientist that has spent his life searching for answers. I'm searching for answers too that's why i chose to write about this, but I'm not sure that I'm gonna dedicate my life to the cause. I would prefer to just live my life and make my time here as enjoyable as possible, as I'm sure that is most people's goal. But it's quite mind bending some of the things that you hear about different religions. There is more different kinds of religions than can be counted so what makes one any better an explaination than another? If you have any comments on the subject i'd be glad to hear them just write in the feedback thing at the top of the page.

continued... Many times the words are replaced by obseen noises which makes it more graphic and descriptive than the bad word itself. There are so many restrictions for freedom of expression anymore. It all depends on the audiance, if they don't agree with the artist he/she can be held back from fully expressing themselves. I don't necessarily have the younger listeners in mind in my argument but would you rather have you kids hearing the words or having a full out demonstration of what the word acted out sounds like? You know what I'm saying. We teach our kids to not swear but we've all heard our parents swear before. It's inevitable, that sooner or later everyone is gonna swear or be aquainted with someone who swears. We can't be sheltered for our whole lives. Don't want your kids listening to that music than buy them some disney tapes or something. Maybe tune into a kids channel... Don't know of any well maybe there should be some. I'm not saying that everyone should listen to me maybe I'm out of my mind, I'm just stating my opinion and trying to keep everyone else open minded. Until next time peace out.

(9/12/01)What a tragedy it was to have planes diliberately crashed into the world trade center and the pentagon. When I first heard about it, I was in my 3rd hour. I had just walked into the room and the tv was on. Sure enough there was the world trade center on fire smoking like crazy. My first words were.... "Sweet, nothing ever happens in America, that's awesome!" I know that's horrible, isn't that's a teenager's mind for ya. That just shows how sick I really am. Actually I wasn't really thinking, I hadn't grasped the reality of the incident. Even now I'm in shock, it's all so unreal. 10,000+ people died yesterday. It wasn't until I saw the footage of people walking around covered in dust and blood and other people jumping to their death to escape being burned alive, that I got what was going on. It's kinda scary if you think about it. The reality of it is that we, the United States, are probably going to war. What a thought that is, nothing ever happens like this. At least not in our life time, right. Well obviously wrong, because it did happen and it will happen. Everyone in my school, on tv, at my work, everywhere is talking about this. And there are times that I just want to forget about it. I found my self thinking that all day, "I don't really want to talk about this anymore." But there's no way to escape it. Of course life will go on, this is not the end of the world (hopefully). But this will effect us all as it probably has already. I just had to write this because I felt it needed to be said. That's the whole point of me writing in the first place, I need somewhere to get things off my chest right? Anyways, I hope your prayers are with those who have lost loved ones because I know mine are. -Dave ><<*>

 Ha ha ha ha ha. Laughter is the best medicine.... What do you think about that statement? Do you really believe that? I think that laughter is one of the best experiences in life. A true friend is someone that you can laugh with about absolutely nothing. I used to have a friend like that. He lives in Texas now he's called me a couple times since he's been down there. He sounds alright but it's kinda boring around here without someone to laugh with. It's true you don't know what you have until it's gone. I didn't know that I had an awesome friend unitl it was time for him to move away. Sure we'll see eachother once in a while, every now and then but not everyday like we used. It'll never be the same but life goes on right it's all about change and stuff like that. All I have to look forward to now is change. Getting a license, a car, a new job. My whole life is changing, and I can't keep up with it. Maybe I need to get up off my butt and get doing something, but then something drags me down again. What's up with that huh? Life is a difficult journey, and my best advice is to stand up to what life throws at you, and make the best out of it. Make lemonade from a bunch of lemons so to speak. I know you've all heard that before. Listen to me, "YOU ALL" I know not many people come here if any. But I like writing in this thing. It's kinda like a journal for me. I used to write in a journal but I can never keep it up. I'll get doing it for a while and then I get too busy or something. Of course I don't write as personal stuff on this site as I would in my journal. I mean I don't even write my deepest secrets in my journal. Something could always happen and someone could get a hold of it. Like my mom found and read my journal once, then she wrote in the back of it hoping that I would find it when I got that far in the note book. It so happens that I flipped forward for some reason and found it. I was sooo pissed off. I can't even explain but I'm sure you've probably been through something like that before, you know what I'm talking about. I couldn't believe she would invade my privacy like that. AAAAAAHHHH!!! That's what it felt like. lol. Anyways I can't think of anything else to write so I end it here. Keep checking in here I won't write in it regularly but every once in a while.

Hey everyone! I had a little party thing tonight, it was great seein' everyone and really cool to have someone over at my house. You know when you're alone for a while you start to miss human contact. I wasn't feelin' to hot towards the end of the party but a couple of my great friends helped me out. I started to feel a little better after jillian attended to me. Thanks Ry for goin' all the way to the store to get me medicine, I owe you one. Although I really don't think I needed it just the gesture was enough to make me feel better. Friends are the greatest thing in the world, I don't know what I'd do without them. Well I'd probably sit around all the time and be depressed or something. I used to think that if I had enough money like a celeb or something that I wouldn't really need friends but now I know that I wouldn't make it. You hear Mariah Carey had a mental break down? She's probably so snobby that she has no friends or something. Money isn't everything, I know that without it life would be difficult but somehow you'd manage, right? Yeah I know that I said that I was gonna talk about conspiracy theories and stuff but I had to get some of this off my chest. That's what I pretty much do on this thing. Just say whatever is on my mind, I think that's the most creative form of writing there is. All my retarded english teachers (besides Mrs. Speidel) want me to write about the stupidest stuff. I sit down and think for a sec and then I fiind out that I really don't want to write this essay. It's boring and there is absolutly no point in it. But I end up doin' it anyway and I do it in like a half hour and get an A. But I just wrote a bunch of crap. You know that's all I ever do and it gets me by. Some peeps tell me that I'm smart but I don't really try at this stuff, it's so damn easy to pass every class that it's all a blow off. Then sometimes I find myself in a hole and I have to actually work to get out of it but I always manage to climb out successfully. It doesn't always happen like this of course. Nothing is for sure in this life, that's what makes it life. But what's for sure to me is that the friends that I have in Sandusky are the best and I have learned so much from them and had so many great times that I could never forget you guys. You're what makes life liveable if that's even a word. And who knows maybe one day I'll come back and things will almost like they used to be. I don't want to get all mushy on ya but I love ya all. Dave ><<*> Until next time....

 This is part of my site is about me (Craze_2004) and my opinions on life. I'm a very strange person, as a lot of people are. I have the craziest dreams and I remember them. Most people that I talk to say that they can never remember their dreams. Half of them even go so far as to claim they don't dream. what's that all about? Everyone dreams whether they realize it or not. The thing about a dream though is it's so much more different then reality. Dreams blend together. One moment you'll be walking through some public place naked and the next thing you know you're in school among your friends. You know that theory that if you die in your dreams you die in real life? Do you think that's true? I always wondered about that cause some times I have these awesome dreams that I'm falling, you know what I'm talking about. It's such a rush isn't it? I think it is, but you always happen to wake up just before hitting the ground. Or your being chased by Freddy Krueger and you wake up as he's about to slice you into pieces. What would happen if I let him have his way with me? Would I die? What ever happened to taking over your dream and doing whatever you want to. Then you could grow wings before you hit the ground and fly off into the sunset. Happy ending, right? Never happens. If I could take over my dreams I would have a blast! I would call it DaveLand where all you're wiLdEsT DrEAmS come true. Wouldn't that be awesome? Lately I've been having these dreams where there is always this one person in them no matter what. SHE is always in it. What's up with that huh? I haven't even talked to this person let alone seen them in the longest time. Why all of the sudden am I dreaming about her? I don't know. Oh yeah by the way there's no reason to listen to me or my pointless views I'm just a guy who is incredibly bored on this steamy hot summer day. You know what I'm talking about unless of course you have a exciting life that is full of adventure and new experiences. But then again if you had that kind of life then why would you be reading this? Huh? Exactly! Tune in next week to hear my conspiracy theories... OOhhh