Great Big White World

in space the stars are no nearer
they just glitter like a morgue
and i dreamed i was a spaceman
burned like a moth in a flame
and our world was so fucking gone

but i'm not attached to your world
nothing heals and nothing grows

because it's a great big white world
and we are drained of our colors
we used to love ourselves,
we used to love one another
all my stitches itch
my prescriptions low, i wish you
were queen
just for today
in a world so white what else could i say?

and hell was so cold
all the vases are so broken
and the roses tear our hands all open
mother mary miscarry
but we pray just like insects
the world is so ugly now

because it's a great big white world
and we are drained of our colors
we used to love ourselves,
we used to love one another
all my stitches itch
my prescriptions low, i wish you
were queen
just for today
in a world so white what else could i say?
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The Dope Show

The drugs they say 
make us feel so hollow
We love in vain 
narcissistic and so shallow 
The cops and queers 
to swim you have to swallow 
Hate today 
there's no love for tomorrow 

We're all stars now in the dope show 

There's a lot of pretty, pretty ones 
That want to get you high 
But all the pretty, pretty ones 
Will leave you low 
and blow your mind 

They love you when you're on all the covers 
When you're not then they love another 

The drugs they say 
are made in California 
We love your face 
We'd really like to sell you 
The cops and queers 
make good-looking models 
I hate today 
Who will I wake up with tomorrow? 

There's a lot of pretty, pretty ones 
That want to get you high 
But all the pretty, pretty ones 
Will leave you low 
and blow your mind 

They love you when you're on all the covers 
When you're not then they love another 

we're all stars now in the dope show
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Mechanical Animals

We were neurophobic 
and perfect 
the day that we lost our souls 
maybe we weren't so human
If they cry they will rust 
And I was a hand grenade 
That never stopped exploding 
You were automatic and 
as hollow as the "o" in god 

I am never gonna be the one for you 
I am never gonna save the world from you 
But they'll never be good to you 
Or bad to you 
They'll never be anything 
Anything at all 

You were my mechanical bride 
You were phenobarbidoll 
A manniqueen of depression 
With the face of a dead star 
And I was a hand grenade 
That never stopped exploding 
You were automatic 
and as hollow as the "o" in god 

I am never gonna be the one for you 
I am never gonna save the world from you 
But they'll never be good to you 
Or bad to you 
They'll never be anything 
Anything at all 

This isn't me I'm not mechanical 
I'm just a boy 
playing the suicide king 

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Rock is Dead

All simple monkeys with alien babies 
Amphetamines for boys 
Crucifixes for ladies 
Sampled and soulless 
Worldwide and real webbed
You sell all the living 
For more safer dead 

Anything to belong 

Rock is deader than dead 
Shock is all in your head 
Your sex and your dope is all that we're fed 
So fuck all your protests and 
put them to bed 

God is on the T.V. 

1,000 mothers are praying for it 
We're so full of hope 
And so full of shit 
Build a new god 
to medicate and to ape 
Sell us ersatz 
dressed up and real fake 

Anything to belong 

Rock is deader than dead 
Shock is all in your head 
Your sex and your dope is all that we're fed 
So fuck all your protests and 
put them to bed 

God is on the T.V. 

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Disassociative

I can tell you what they say in space 
That our earth is too grey 
But when the spirit is so digital
The body acts this way 
That world aws killing me 
That world was killing me 
Disassociative 

The nervous systems down, 
the nervous systems down 
I know

I can never get out of here 
I don't want to just float in fear
A dead astronaut in space 

Sometimes we walk like 
we were shot through 
our heads, my love 
We write our song in space 
like we are already 
dead and gone 
Your world was killing me 
Your world was killing me 
Disassociative
 
Your world was killing me
Your world was killing me 
Disassociative 

I can never get out of here 
I don't want to just float in fear 
A dead astronaut in space 

The nervous systems down, 
the nervous systems down 
I know 

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The Speed of Pain

they slit our throats
like we were flowers
and our milk has been
devoured

when you want it
it goes away too fast
when you hate it
it always seems to last
but just remember when you think
you're free
  the crack inside your fucking heart is me

(thought, not spoken):
i wanna outrace the speed of pain for another day

i wish i could sleep
but i can't lay on my back
because there's a knife
for everyday that i've known you

when you want it
it goes away too fast
when you hate it
it always seems to last
but just remember when you think
you're free
  the crack inside your fucking heart is me

(thought, not spoken):
i wanna outrace the speed of pain for another day

lie to me, cry to me, give to me
i would
lie with me, die with me, give to me
i would
keep all your secrets wrapped in dead hair
  i hope at least we die holding hands
  for always.
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Posthuman

she's got eyes like zapruder
and a mouth like heroin
she wants me to be
perfect like kennedy
this isn't god, this isn't god
god is just a statistic,
god is just a statistic
say,
"show me the dead stars,
all of them sing."
this is a riot
religious and clean

god is a number you cannot count to
you are posthuman and hardwired

she's pilgrim and pagan
softworn and so-cial
in all of her dreams
she's a saint like jackie-o

this isn't god, this isn't god
god is just a statistic,
god is just a statistic
say,
"show me the dead stars,
all of them sing."
this is a riot
religious and clean

coma white:
"all that glitters is cold, all that glitters is cold"
_________________________

I Want to Disappear

Look at me now 
got no religion 
Look at me now 
I'm so vacant 
Look at me now 
I was a virgin 
Look at me now 
grew up to be a whore
And I want it
I believe it 
I'm a million different things
And not one you know

Hey and our mommies are lost now 
Hey, daddy's someone else 
Hey, we love the abuse 
Because it makes us feel like we are needed now 
But I know 
I wanna disappear

I wanna die young 
and sell my soul 
Use up all your drugs 
and make me come 
Yesterday man, 
I was a nihilist and 
now today I'm 
just too fucking bored 
by the time I'm old enough 
I won't know anything at all

Hey and our mommies are lost now 
Hey, daddy's someone else 
Hey, we love the abuse 
Because it makes us feel like we are needed now 
But I know 
I wanna disappear

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I Don't Like the Drugs (But the Drugs Like Me)

Norm life baby 
"we're white and oh so hetero 
and our sex is missionary."

Norm life baby 
"we're quitters and we're sober 
our confessions will be televised." 

You and I are underdosed and we're ready to fall 
Raised to be stupid, taught to be nothing at all 

I don't like the drugs but the drugs like me 
I don't like the drugs, the drugs the drugs 

Norm life baby 
"our god is white and unforgiving 
we're piss tested and we're praying."
 
Norm life baby 
"I'm just a sample of a soul 
made to look just like a human being." 

Norm life baby 
"we're rehabbed and we're ready 
for our 15 minutes of shame." 

Norm life baby 
"we're talkshown and we're poiting
just like christians at a suicide." 

You and I are underdosed and we're ready to fall 
Raised to be stupid, taught to be nothing at all 

I don't like the drugs but the drugs like me 
I don't like the drugs, the drugs the drugs

"there's a hole in our sould that we fill with dope
and we're feeling fine."

I don't like the drugs but the drugs like me 
I don't like the drugs, the drugs the drugs

_________________________
New Model No.15

I'm as fake as e wedding cake 
And I'm Vague and I know that I'm 
homopolitan 
Pitifully predictable 
Correctly political

I'm the new, I'm the new, new model 
I've got nothing inside 
Better in the head and in bed
At the office 
I can suck and I smile
New 
new 
new model

I can choke and diet on coke 
I'm Spun and I know 
That I'm Stoned and Rolling

Lifelike and poseable 
Hopeless and disposable

I'm the new, I'm the new, new model 
I've got nothing inside 
Better in the head and in bed
At the office 
I can suck and I smile
New
new
new model

Don't let them know how far you go 
Or that you use you "lovers" 
Oh look, you're like a VCR 
Stick something in to know 
Just who you are you

New
new
new model

________________

User Friendly

Use me when you want to come 
I've bled just to have your touch
When I'm in you I want to die 

User friendly fucking dopestar obscene 
Will you die when you're high 
You'd never die just for me 
She says, 
"I'm not in love, but I'm gonna fuck you 
'til somebody better comes along." 

Use me like I was a whore 
Relationships are such a bore 
Delete the ones that you've fucked 

User friendly fucking dopestar obscene 
Will you die when you're high 
You'd never die just for me 
She says, 
"I'm not in love, but I'm gonna fuck you 
'til somebody better comes along." 

______________________

Fundamentally Loathesome

I want to wake up in your 
white, white sun 
I want to wake up in your world 
with no pain 
But I'll just suffer in a hope to die someday 
While you are numb all of the way

When you hate it you know you can feel but 
When you love it you know it's not real 
No
 
And I am resigned to this wicked fucking world 
On its way to hell 
The living are dead and
I hope to join them too 
I know what to do and I did it well...

When you hate it you know you can feel but 
When you love it you know it's not real 
No

Shoot myself to love you 
If I loved myself I'd be shooting you

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The Last Day on Earth

yesterday was a million years ago
in all my past lives i played an asshole
now i found you, it's almost too late
and this earth seems obliviating
we are trembling in our crutches
high and dead our skin is glass
i'm so empty here without
i crack and split my xerox hands

i know its the last day on earth
we'll be together while the planet dies
i know it's the last day on earth
we'll never say goodbye

the dogs slaughter each other softly
love burns its casualties
we are damaged provider modules
spill the seeds at our children's feet
i'm so empty here without you
i know they want me dead

i know its the last day on earth
we'll be together while the planet dies
i know it's the last day on earth
we'll never say goodbye
_____________________

Coma White

There's something cold and blank behind her smile 
She's standing on an overpass 
In her miracle mile 
(coma): 
"You were from a perfect world 
A world that threw me away today 
Today to run away"

A pill to make you numb 
A pill to make you dumb 
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world 
Won't save her from herself

Her mouth was an empty cut 
And she was waiting to fall 
Just bleeding like a polaroid that
Lost all her dolls 
(coma): 
"You were from a perfect world 
A world that threw me away today 
Today to run away"

A pill to make you numb 
A pill to make you dumb 
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world 
Won't save her from herself
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"Untitled"

At the end
I became them
And I led them
After all none of us really qualified as humans
We were just hardworn, automatic
And as hollow as the "O" in god
I reattached my emotions
Cellular narcotic
From the top of hollywood
It looked like space
Millions of capsules
The Mechanical Animals
A city filled with dead stars
A girl I called coma white
This is my Omega